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Ngaphambi kokuba ndibe ngutitshala we-yoga, ndakhanyisa inyanga njengombhali wokuhamba kunye neblogger. Ndihlolisise ihlabathi kwaye ndabelana ngamava am nabantu abalandela uhambo lwam kwi-intanethi. Ndibhiyozele uSuku lwePatrick e-Ireland, ndenza i-yoga kunxweme oluhle lwaseBali, ndaziva ngathi ndilandela ukuthanda kwam kwaye ndiphila ngephupha. (Idibeneyo: Indawo yoKhuseleko yeYoga eyiyo yokuHamba)

Elo phupha latshabalala ngo-Oktobha 31, 2015, xa ndandikhonjwe ngompu kwibhasi eyayiqweqwediswe kwilizwe lasemzini.

IKholombiya yindawo entle enokutya okumnandi kunye nabantu abadlamkileyo, ukanti iminyaka abakhenkethi bebephepha ukutyelela ngenxa yegama layo eliyingozi eliphawulwe ngamashishini eziyobisi kunye nolwaphulo-mthetho olunobundlobongela. Ke ngoku ukuwa, umhlobo wam u-Anne kwaye sagqiba kwelokuba sithathe uhambo lweeveki ezintathu lokuthwala ubhaka, sabelana ngawo onke amanyathelo amangalisayo kwi-Intanethi, ukubonisa ukuba ilizwe belikhuseleke kangakanani kule minyaka idlulileyo.

Ngosuku lwesithathu lohambo lwethu, sasikwibhasi eya eSalento, eyaziwa njengelizwe lekofu. Ngomnye umzuzu ndandincokola no-Anne ngoxa ndandisenza umsebenzi othile, yaye ngomzuzu olandelayo sasibambe imipu entloko sobabini. Konke kwenzeka ngokukhawuleza. Xa ndijonga emva, andikhumbuli ukuba abaphangi bebesebhasini ngalo lonke ixesha, okanye ukuba mhlawumbi beza kuma endleleni. Khange bathethe kakhulu njengoko besiphulula izinto ezixabisekileyo. Bathathe iincwadi zokundwendwela, ubucwebe, imali, izinto ze-elektroniki kunye neesutikheyisi zethu. Sasala singenanto ngaphandle kweempahla emqolo nakubomi bethu. Kwaye kwisicwangciso esikhulu sezinto, oko kwakwanele.

Bahamba ngebhasi, kodwa babuyela ku-Anne kunye nam-kuphela kwabantu basemzini ababekhwele okwesibini. Bakhombe umpu ebusweni bam kwakhona xa umntu ephinda endiphulula. Ndaphakamisa izandla zam ndabaqinisekisa, "Nantso ke. Ninayo yonke into." Kuye kwathula ixesha elide ndazibuza ukuba ingaba iya kuba yinto yokugqibela endiyithethileyo na. Kodwa emva koko ibhasi yema baza behla bonke.

Abanye abakhweli kubonakala ngathi bathathe nje izinto ezimbalwa. Indoda yaseColombia eyayihleli ecaleni kwam yayisenomyayi wayo. Kwakhawuleza kwacaca ukuba besijongile, mhlawumbi ukusukela mhla sathenga amatikiti ebhasi kwangoko ngolo suku. Sothukile kwaye sisoyika, ekugqibeleni sehla sikhuselekile ebhasini kwaye singenzakaliswanga. Kuthathe iintsuku ezininzi, kodwa ekugqibeleni safika kwiNdlu yoZakuzo yaseMelika eBogotá. Siye sakwazi ukufumana amapasi amatsha ukuze sigoduke, kodwa ayikho enye into eyaphinda yafunyanwa yaye asizange siphinde sifumane iinkcukacha zokuba ngubani owasiphangayo. Ndandixhelekile kwaye uthando lwam lokuhamba lwalungcolisiwe.

Emva kokuba ndibuyile eHouston, apho ndandihlala khona ngelo xesha, ndapakisha izinto ezimbalwa ndaza ndabhabhela ekhaya ukuya kuba nosapho lwam eAtlanta ngeholide. Bendingazi ngeloxesha ukuba andizukubuyela eHouston, kwaye notyelelo lwam ekhaya luya kuba lolokuhamba ixesha elide.

Nangona ubunzima buphelile, umvandedwa wangaphakathi uhleli.

Andizange ndibe ngumntu oxhalabileyo ngaphambili, kodwa ngoku ndandidla ngamaxhala kwaye ubomi bam bubonakala buhamba phantsi ngokukhawuleza. Ndaphelelwa ngumsebenzi kwaye ndandihlala ekhaya nomama ndina-29.Ndaziva ngathi ndibuyela umva xa kubonakala ngathi wonke umntu okundingqongileyo uhambela phambili. Izinto endikade ndizenza ngokulula-njengokuhamba ebusuku okanye ukukhwela ezothutho zikawonke-ziziva zoyike kakhulu.

Ukungaphangeli kwam kwandivulela ithuba lokugxila ngokusisigxina kunyango lwam. Ndandinengxaki yeempawu zasemva koxinzelelo, ezinje ngamaphupha amabi kunye noxinzelelo, ndaye ndaqala ukubona ugqirha ukuba andincede ndifumane iindlela zokuhlangabezana nazo. Ndaphinda ndazigalela ngokomoya ngokuya ecaweni rhoqo nokufunda iBhayibhile. Ndaguqukela kuqheliselo lwam lweyoga ngakumbi kunangaphambili, eyathi kungekudala yaba yinxalenye yokuphiliswa kwam. Indincede ukuba ndiqwalasele kumzuzu wangoku endaweni yokuhlala kwinto eyenzeke kwixesha elidlulileyo okanye ukuba nexhala malunga nokuza kwenzeka kwixesha elizayo. Ndafunda ukuba xa ndigxile emphefumlweni wam, akukho gumbi lokucinga (okanye ukukhathazeka) ngayo nantoni na eyenye. Nanini na xa ndiziva ndixhalabile okanye ndinexhala malunga nemeko ethile, ndikhawuleza ndigxile ekuphefumleni kwam: ukuphinda igama elithi "apha" ngayo yonke inhale kunye negama elithi "ngoku" ngayo yonke i-exhale.

Kuba ndandizintywilisela ngokunzulu kuqheliselo lwam ngelo xesha, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba lelo yayilelona xesha lifanelekileyo lokuya kuqeqesho lootitshala beyoga ngokunjalo. Kwaye ngoMeyi 2016, ndaba ngutitshala oqinisekisiweyo weyoga. Emva kokuphumelela ikhosi yeeveki ezisibhozo, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndifuna ukusebenzisa iyoga ukunceda abanye abantu abanamava ukuba noxolo kunye nokuphilisa endikwenzileyo. Ndihlala ndisiva abantu bebala bathi abacingi ukuba iyoga yeyabo. Kwaye ngaphandle kokubona imifanekiso emininzi yabantu abanemibala kwishishini leyoga, ngokuqinisekileyo ndiyasiqonda isizathu.

Kungenxa yoko le nto ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiqale ukufundisa i-yoga ye-hip-hop: ukuzisa iyantlukwano ngakumbi kunye nemvakalelo yokwenyani yoluntu kwisiko lakudala. Bendifuna ukunceda abafundi bam ukuba baqonde ukuba i-yoga yeyawo wonke umntu nokuba unjani na, kwaye ukubavumela babe nendawo apho baziva ngathi bangabakhe kwaye banokufumana iingenelo ezimangalisayo ngokwasengqondweni, ngokwasemzimbeni nangokomoya ezinokubonelelwa ngulo mkhuba wakudala. . (Jonga kwakhona: Ukuhamba kwe-Y7 Yoga onokuthi ukwenze ekhaya)

Ngoku ndifundisa iiklasi zemizuzu engama-75 kumandla ezemidlalo iVinyasa, uhlobo lokuhamba kweyoga egxininisa ukomelela namandla, kwigumbi elishushu, njengokucamngca okushukumayo. Yintoni eyenza ukuba ikhetheke ngokwenene ngumculo; endaweni yeekhandi zomoya, ndicula umculo wehip-hop kunye nomphefumlo.

Njengomfazi webala, ndiyazi ukuba uluntu lwam luyawuthanda umculo omnandi kunye nenkululeko yokuhamba. Yile nto ndiyidibanisa kwiiklasi zam kwaye yintoni enceda abafundi bam babone ukuba i-yoga yeyabo. Kwaye, ukubona utitshala omnyama kubanceda bazive bamkelekile ngakumbi, bamkelwe kwaye bakhuselekile. Iiklasi zam ayizobantu bebala kuphela. Wonke umntu wamkelekile, nokuba ungowaluphi na uhlanga, imilo, okanye imeko yezentlalo noqoqosho.

Ndizama ukuba ngumfundisi we-yoga ohambelanayo. Ndivulekile kwaye ndiqinisekile malunga nemingeni yam yangaphambili kunye yangoku. Ndingathanda abafundi bam bandibone ndiluhlaza kwaye ndibuthathaka kunokuba ndigqibelele. Kwaye iyasebenza. Ndiye ndanaba bafundi bandixelela ukuba baluqalile unyango kuba ndibancedile ukuba bazive bebodwa kwimizabalazo yabo. Oku kuthetha lukhulu kum kuba kukho ibala elikhulu lempilo yengqondo kwindawo yabantsundu, ingakumbi emadodeni. Ukwazi ukuba ndincede umntu azive ekhuselekile ngokwaneleyo ukuba afumane uncedo abaludingayo ibe yimvakalelo engakholelekiyo.

Ekugqibeleni ndiziva ngathi ndenza into endifanele ukuyenza, ndiphila ubomi obunenjongo. Elona candelo lililo? Ekugqibeleni ndiyifumene indlela yokudibanisa iminqweno yam emibini yeyoga kunye nokuhamba. Ndaqala ndaya e-Bali kwi-yoga retreat ngehlobo lika-2015, kwaye yayiyinto enhle, amava aguqula ubomi. Ndiye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndizise uhambo lwam olupheleleyo kwaye ndibambe i-yoga yokubuyela e-Bali ngoSeptemba. Ngokwamkela ixesha lam elidlulileyo ngelixa ndisamkela le nto ndiyiyo ngoku, ndiyaqonda ngokwenene ukuba kukho injongo emva kwayo yonke into esiyifumanayo ebomini.

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