Umlingane wam wobomi bonke, ixhala, kunye nendlela endenze ngayo ndomelele ngakumbi

Umxholo

• Ndiyaqaphela iinkcukacha
• Ndinombono ocacileyo
• Ndiyabona macala omabini ebali
• Ndingumcwangcisi olungileyo
• Ndinxiba intliziyo yam kumkhono wam
• Ndinokuthandabuza okusempilweni
• Ndiyawahlonipha amandla engqondo
• Ukuxhalaba yinxalenye yokuba ndingubani

Ndihleli nexhala okoko ndikhumbula-ndingekabinalo negama. Njengomntwana, bendihlala ndisoyika ubumnyama. Kodwa ngokungafaniyo nabahlobo bam, andizange ndikhule kuyo.

Ndandinokuqala ukuhlaselwa lixhala ngexesha lokulala endlwini yomhlobo wam. Bendingazi ukuba kwenzeka ntoni. Ndazi kuphela ukuba andinakuyeka ukulila, kwaye ndifuna ngaphezu kwayo nantoni na ukugoduka. Ndaqala unyango ngelixa ndisesesikolweni sokuqala, kwaye ndaqala ukufunda ukuba yintoni na ixhala, kwaye lindichaphazele njani.

Kuninzi andikuthandiyo malunga noxinzelelo lwam, kwaye iminyaka emininzi bendigxile kwizinto ezimbi kuyo. Ndigxile ekukhuseleni uloyiko, ndizibeke ngokwenyani, kwaye ndixhasa impilo yam yengqondo.

Kodwa kuhambo lwam lokuzamkela njengomntu onexhala, ndiye ndabona ezinye zeendlela ezintle endizilwe ngumlo wam ukuba ndibengumfazi endinaye namhlanje.

Ndiyaqaphela iinkcukacha

Ixhala lam linokundenza ndiqonde ngokungqonge indawo endikuyo, ngakumbi ukuba kukho eyona nto ibalulekileyo (okanye ebonwa) ebalulekileyo kutshintsho kwindalo esingqongileyo. Ukushiya kungakhange kuhlolwe, oku kungakhokelela kwiparanoia.

Kodwa ukuba ndingabamba umgca ekucingeni okungaphandle kolawulo, ndishiyeke ngengqondo ephakame kakhulu yento eyenzekayo macala onke kum. Ndiyazi xa abamelwane bam beza behamba, ndiya kuqaphela ukuba isandi esingaqhelekanga sithetha ukuba ibhalbhu sele iza kutsha, kwaye ndiya kuba ngowokuqala ukuyikhankanya xa unobhala kwiofisi kagqirha wam enento entsha iinwele.

Ndinombono ocacileyo

Ngalo lonke ixesha ndikhumbula, ukucinga kwam bekubaleka nam. Xa ndandisemncinci, oku kwakuneenkcukacha ezichaseneyo. Okona kukhankanywa ngokungenabungozi kwesilo, isiporho, okanye i-goblin kwakwanele ukuthumela umbono wam wokubaleka phantsi kwendlela emnyama, enesithunzi ezele zizothuso ezaneleyo zokundigcina ndisoyika kwaye ndivukile kangangeeyure ezidlulileyo zokulala kwam.

Kwelinye icala, ndichithe iintsuku ezininzi ezinde zasehlotyeni ndizijikajikela ekujikeni kwam amavili, ndisenza amabali malunga nokuba ndiyinkosazana eyimfihlo njani eyayitshintshwe ngomlingo nentombazana eqhelekileyo kwaye ngoku kwakufuneka ndibone yonke into ngobomi bayo obutsha, nje Ukujonga umhlaba omngqongileyo.

Njengomntu omdala, ndiloyisile uloyiko lwam "lwezinto ezihamba ngobusuku," kwaye ndisafumana ukonwabela imbuyekezo yobuchule obubonakala ngathi bungenamda. Oku kuthetha, phakathi kwezinye izinto, ukuba kunqabile-ukuba ndikhe ndidikwe. Kwaye andinakuze ndiphelelwe ngamabali okulala ngaphambi kokuba ndixelele intombi yam. Kwaye ndinokulahleka ngokwam kwiincwadi, iinkqubo zeTV, nakwimidlalo bhanyabhanya- enokuba yinto enkulu.

Ndiyabona macala omabini ebali

Ixhala lam lize ngesandla-ngokungazithembi ubomi bam bonke. Nasiphi na isikhundla endinokusithatha, okanye ikhondo lesenzo endinokulicinga, ndikhe ndabuza. Xa kugqityiwe, lo mathandabuzo aqatha anokukhubekisa.

Ndizithembile ngakumbi kwizigqibo zam nakwiimbono zam, ndisazi ukuba sele ndibanike uviwo kunye nomceli mngeni. Kwaye ndiyakwazi ukubonisa uvelwano kwabo baneembono ezichasene nezam ngokuchitha ixesha bejonga iimbono zabo.

Ndingumcwangcisi olungileyo

Ukucwangcisa ibikukuzikhusela kwinkxalabo yobomi bam bonke. Ukukwazi ukuthelekelela ukuba iya kwenzeka nini kwaye nini into iyandinceda ukuba ndizifihle kuxinzelelo lwamava amatsha okanye acelomngeni.

Ewe, ayingawo onke amava ebomini anokucwangciswa ukuya kufikelela kwileta, kwaye ndiye ndafunda ukuzigcina ndizolile xa kufuneka ukuzenzekela. Kakhulu. Kodwa ukuba ukucwangcisa yinto efunekayo, ndiyintombazana yakho.

Ukuba sihamba sisiya kwisixeko esitsha, ndingonwabile ukwenza imephu indlela, ndibhukishe ihotele, jonga iivenkile ezikufutshane, kwaye ndibone ukuba zeziphi iindlela zokumisa iindlela zikaloliwe ezikumgama wokuhamba. Ndiza kubala ixesha eliza kuthatha ukusuka kwisikhululo seenqwelomoya, ukuya ehotele, kwindawo yokutyela, ndingakhange ndibile nokubila.

Ndinxiba intliziyo yam kumkhono wam

Ukukhathazeka kuhlala kunxulunyaniswa noxinzelelo, kodwa kum, unxunguphalo luthetha ukuba uninzi lweemvakalelo ezininzi - umsindo, uloyiko, uvuyo kunye nosizi- zikwakhona ngobuninzi obukhulu. Ngaphezulu kwesihlandlo esinye, kuye kwafuneka ndicofe ukufunda incwadi yabantwana kwintombi yam kuba ibali landishiye ndiloyisile. Ndijonge kuwe, "Ndiyakuthanda Ngonaphakade."

Umculo ochukumisayo ungathumela intliziyo yam ukubetha kunye neenyembezi zovuyo zigobhoza emehlweni am. Kwaye nantoni na endiziva ukuba ibhaliwe ebusweni bam bonke. Ndizibamba ndibonisa imbonakalo yobuso babalinganiswa kwiTV, kuba ndiziva ukuba baziva njani-nokuba ndiyafuna okanye andifuni.

Ndinokuthandabuza okusempilweni

Ixhala lixoki elaziwayo. Amabali obuchopho bam obuxhalabisayo abenziweyo aphume kulo mhlaba- kwaye ndiye ndafunda ukungathembeki kuwo.

Njengokuqhutywa ngamaza eemvakalelo njengoko ndinokufumana, ndiyazi ukuba nelona bali lililo lifanele ukujongwa, kwaye ukuba ingxelo ebonakala ilungile kakhulu - okanye imbi kakhulu! - ukuba yinyani, mhlawumbi ayiyonyani. Obu buchule bundisebenzisile kakuhle njenge ntatheli, kunye nomthengi weendaba.

Ndiyawahlonipha amandla engqondo

Akukho nto efana nokufumana uhlaselo loxinzelelo ukushiya woyike amandla engqondo amangalisayo. Inyaniso yokuba iingcinga kunye nemibono inokushiya ndiziva ndingenakuzinceda nayo indenze ndabona elinye icala lengqekembe- ngokulawula iingcinga zam, ndinokuphinda ndibenamandla am.

Iindlela ezilula ezinje ngokuvavanywa komzimba, ukuqinisekiswa, kunye nokubonwa kundinike amandla amakhulu kuxinzelelo lwam. Kwaye nangona ndingaze "ndoyise" okanye "ndoyise" ixhala lam, ndizakhele izixhobo ezininzi zokundinceda ukulawula iimpembelelo zalo ezimbi kubomi bam.

Ukuxhalaba yinxalenye yokuba ndingubani

Ukuxhalaba kunokuba ngumceli mngeni wobomi bonke, kodwa ikwayinxalenye yokuba ndingubani. Ke endaweni yokujonga uxinzelelo njengobuthathaka, ndikhetha ukugxila kumandla endiwafumeneyo kuwo.

Ukuba uhlala nexhala, ndixelele ukuba likunike amandla njani!

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