Ndichithe Inyanga Edlulileyo Ndizama Ukuba Ngumntu Wakusasa

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Ndiwa ndaweni ithile phakathi kwentsasa yomntu nobusuku isikhova, ukuhlala kude kube sebusuku ngobunye ngelixa ndisakwazi ukuvuka ukuba ndinokudubula kwasekuseni okanye okunye ukuzibophelela. Ke, nini Ubume undibuze ukuba ndiyafuna na ukujoyina kwaye ndizicele umngeni wokuba ngumntu wasentsasa njengenxalenye yephulo labo le- #MyPersonalBest kuFebruwari, ndacinga, "Esi sisityholo endisifunayo."

Bendihlala ndivuka kwakusasa, kodwa xa ishedyuli yam itshintshile kwaye bekungafuneki ukuba ndivuke kwakusasa, ndiyekile. Okwangoku, bendihlala ndiziva ndivelisa ngakumbi kusasa, ke mna wayefuna ukuvuka kwangoko, nokuba andivanga isidingo ukuya.

Xa uFebruwari 1 ejikeleza, bendingenaso isicwangciso esimiselweyo (endizisolayo ngaso kamva) ngokuchanekileyo Njani Ndiza kuba ngumntu wakusasa. Kodwa ndaqala ukulala kwangoko. Kubonakala ngathi inyathelo lokuqala eliqinileyo, akunjalo? Ke ukuba bendihlala ndilala ezinzulwini zobusuku okanye nge-1 emva kobusuku bokubhloga, ubuncinci ndizame ukulala ebhedini ngo-11. endaweni yoko. Ingxaki yayikukuba, oku akuzange kundivuse kwangoko ekuqaleni. Hmm ...

Kulapho ndaqala khona ukusebenza kwinto yam yasebusuku.

Ndihlala ndilala ngesigqumathelo sokulala, kodwa ndiye ndaqala ukuyilahla ngethemba lokuba ukukhanya kwelanga kuya kundivusa kwangoko. Oko kuncede kancinci. Kodwa ndaqala ukuqonda ukuba kum, kwakunganyanzelekanga ukuba uvuke ngokwasemzimbeni kwangoko. Kwakumalunga nesenzo sokuvuka ebhedini kwaye ndiqale usuku lwam.

Kuthe pha enyangeni ndagqiba ekubeni ndizimisele. Andisayi kuphinda ndisete i-alam yam kangangemizuzu eli-15 ngaphambili, okanye ndizame ukuba umzimba wam ube yinto obungayiqhelanga ukuba-yokuvuka kwasekuseni ngamandla. Hayi, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndibeke ialam yam ngo-7: 30 kusasa, ndiphakame ndize ndizilolonge kwangoko-nangaphambi kokuba ndibe nekomityi yam yentsasa yekofu. Oku yaba lidini elikhulu kum, kodwa ukuyeka ikofu kwandinika into endiyilindeleyo. Mna uthando ikofu yam.

Ndandidla ngokuzilolonga kusasa, ngokwenkolo, kodwa ndandiyekile ukuyenza qho kusasa rhoqo. Ke iqhinga lam elitsha alindincedanga nje ukuba ndivuke kwangoko kodwa lindincedisile nasekusebenzeni kwam ekuseni. Ndaqala ukwenza uthotho lwemizuzu emihlanu ye-abs rhoqo kusasa ngaphambi kokuba ndiphume ebhedini nam. Oku kuncede kakhulu ukuseta ithoni enempilo yosuku.

Bendisazi ukuba kukho into esebenzayo xa ngenye imini bendilala nomtshana wam, kodwa umzimba wam uvukile ngo-5: 30 kusasa! Andisakhumbuli ndagqibela nini ukuvuka ndinje. Kwakumnyama thsu phandle kwaye ndandifana, 'Kwenzeka ntoni?', Kodwa ndatsiba ebhedini ndavuka. Ndaziva ndilungile kwaye ndenza zonke izinto zam eziqhelekileyo zosuku lonke.

Ndiqaphele ukuba olu hlobo lotshintsho alwenzeki ngephanyazo. Ndandinayo i-naïve ekuqaleni, ndicinga ukuba konke okuza kuthatha kukuzixelela ukuba ndiyokulala kwangoko kwaye inokuba njalo. Ukutshintsha kobunzima buthatha ukuzibophelela, ixesha, kwaye okona kubaluleke kakhulu, kuyacwangciswa. Kwaye ukuba ufuna ukutshintsha ishedyuli yakho yokulala, kuya kufuneka wenze into efanayo. Yiba nesicwangciso kwaye unamathele kuso. Kunganzima kakhulu ukugcina nasiphi na isicwangciso ukuba sinzima kakhulu okanye ukuba awunazinto zilungele ukukunceda ufike apho, ke qala kancinci.

Kuyo yonke le nyanga ndiye ndabona ukuba inkcazo "yomntu wakusasa" inokwahluka kuwo wonke umntu. Kwabanye abantu, kunokuthetha ukutsiba ebhedini ngo-5 am yonke imihla. Kodwa kum, ngakumbi malunga nokwenza utshintsho ukunceda ukuqala usuku ngenqaku elingcono. Lo mceli mngeni undibonisile ukuba nokuba andivuki kwangoko okanye ndiye kulala kwangoko, ndinako nangoku ube ngumntu ovelisa ngakumbi, ophaphileyo, nonengqondo kusasa. Ndibeka iinjongo zam kwinto endifuna ukuyifeza ngeyure yokuqala okanye ke ukuba ndivukile, kwaye, ngoku, iintsuku ezininzi kunokuba ndingazifezi.

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