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INGXELO ibika kabuhlungu ukuba umbhali uKelly Golat, 24, wabulawa ngumhlaza ngomhla wama-20 kuNovemba ka-2002. UKelly uveze ukuba ukufumanisa ukuba unesifo se-melanoma esibulalayo kwamnika uxabiso oluhlaziyiweyo malunga nexesha alichitha nosapho kunye nabahlobo.Kelly ushiye ngasemva abazali bakhe kunye nabantakwabo abane, abasandula ukufumanisa eminye yemibhalo yakhe engashicilelwanga.Umoya kaKelly ongadinwayo uyakhanya ngawakhe amazwi. : Ndithandaza yonke imihla ngesimangaliso sobomi ... Ke ndiyaqonda ukuba ndiyiphila ngoku. " Uvelwano lwethu luphuma luphuma kusapho lwakhe.

Ndineminyaka engama-24 ubudala. NgoMeyi 18, 2001, ugqirha wam wandixelela ukuba ndinomhlaza. I-melanoma enobungozi. I-X-reyi yabonisa ithumba elilingana neorenji lihleli kanye phezu kwemiphunga yam. Olunye uvavanyo lubonakalise amathumba amancinci esibindini. Into engaqhelekanga yayikukuba ndandingenazo izilonda kulusu.

Kutheni le nto ndiyifumene? Babengazi. Ndiyifumene njani? Abakwazanga ukundixelela. Emva kwayo yonke imibuzo novavanyo, impendulo ekuphela kwayo oogqirha abayinikayo yayikukuba, "Kelly, ulityala elingaqhelekanga."

Ayiqhelekanga. Igama elinye elibonakala ngathi liyishwankathela imeko yam kulo nyaka uphelileyo.

Phambi kokuba ndive ezi ndaba zomhlaza, ndaphila ubomi obuqhelekileyo kwintombazana enento ezingama-20. Ndandinonyaka omnye ndiphumile ekholejini, ndisebenza njengomncedisi ongumhleli kumzi-mveliso wokupapasha kwisiXeko saseNew York. Ndandinomfana kunye neqela elibi labahlobo.

Yonke into yayimi ngocwangco ngaphandle kwento enye-kwaye kufanelekile ukutsho ukuba ndandithe phithi thwanga: ndandigqitywe ngokupheleleyo kukufezekisa ubunzima bam, ubuso bam neenwele zam. Rhoqo kusasa ngentsimbi yesi-5 kusasa, ndandibaleka iikhilomitha ezintathu ezinesiqingatha ngaphambi kokuba ndiye emsebenzini. Emva komsebenzi, bendiza kukhawuleza ndiye ejimini ukuze ndingafiki emva kwexesha kwiklasi ye-aerobics. Ndandiyithanda into endiyityayo nam: bendiphepha iswekile, ioyile kwaye, izulu liyala, amafutha.

Isibuko sasiyintshaba yam enkulu. Kuyo yonke intlanganiso ndafumana iimpazamo ezingakumbi. Ndathatha imali yam yokuqala yokurhola, ndangena eBloomingdale ndathenga izinto zokuthambisa ezixabisa i-$200, ngethemba lokuba umgubo kunye neekhrimu ezintsha ngandlela ithile ziya kuzicima iimpazamo endazalwa nazo. Uxinzelelo lwavela nakukukhathazeka malunga neenwele zam ezibhityileyo, ezimdaka. Ingcebiso eluncedo evela kumhlobo indikhokelele emnyango wendlu yezinwele ebiza kakhulu eGreenwich Village. Icebiso lakhe libiza ngaphezulu komvuzo wam weveki kodwa, ukulunga kwam, ezo zinto zibalulekileyo zobuqili (ongaziboniyo) zisebenza ngomlingo!

Ukuziqhenya ngendlela endijongeke ngayo kwacima kwangoko emva kokufunda ukuba ndinomhlaza. Izinto ebomini bam zatshintsha kakhulu. Kwafuneka ndiyeke ukusebenza. Unyango lwe-chemotherapy lwangxola umzimba wam kwaye amaxesha amaninzi lwalundishiya ndibuthathaka ukuba ndingathetha. Oogqirha bathintela naluphi na uhlobo lomthambo onzima-isiqhulo esimnandi becinga ukuba andinakukwazi ukuhamba. Iziyobisi zaphazamisa ukuthanda kwam ukutya. Ekuphela kokutya endandikwazi ukukwenza esiswini yayiziisandwich zetshizi neepesika. Ngenxa yoko, ndehla kakhulu emzimbeni. Kwaye kwakungasekho sidingo sokukhathazeka ngeenwele zam kwakhona: Uninzi lwazo lwaluphelile.

Unyaka ndiqala ukuva iindaba, kwaye ndiyaqhubeka nokulwa indlela yam yokubuyela empilweni. Umbono wam wento "ebalulekileyo" itshintshiwe ngonaphakade. Umhlaza undityhale ekoneni apho iimpendulo ziza ngokukhawuleza kwaye zilula: Yintoni eyona nto ibalulekileyo ebomini bam? Ixesha elichithwe nosapho kunye nabahlobo. Wenza ntoni? Ukubhiyozela imihla yokuzalwa, iiholide, ubomi. Ukuxabisa incoko nganye, ikhadi leKrisimesi, ukuwola.

Ixhala malunga namanqatha omzimba, ubuso obuhle kunye neenwele ezigqibeleleyo- zihambile. Andisakhathali. Iyamangalisa njani.

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