Yintoni evakalelwa kukuba une-Borderline Binge Eating Disorder

Umxholo

• Umnxeba wam wokuvuka
• Indlala ngokuchasene neMidlalo yeNtloko
• Ukuwa kwiWagon
• Ngaba Ukuzinkcinkca kwimfuza yam?
• Nip Isiqendu sakho esilandelayo seBinge kwiBud
• Uphengululo lwe

Ukuba undijongile, awunakucinga ukuba ndingumntu otya kakhulu. Kodwa kane ngenyanga, ndizifumana ndisenza ingcuka ngokutya okungaphaya kwamandla am. Makhe ndibelane kancinci malunga nokuba kunjani ukuya kwinqanaba lokutya kakhulu kunye nendlela endifunde ngayo ukumelana nengxaki yam yokutya.

Umnxeba wam wokuvuka

Kule veki iphelileyo ndiye ndaphuma ndiyokutya ukutya kwaseMexico. Enye ingobozi chips, ikomityi salsa, margaritas ezintathu, isitya guacamole, steak burrito egqunywe ukhilimu omuncu, kunye nomyalelo ecaleni irayisi kunye neembotyi kamva, ndandifuna ukugabha. Ndibambe isisu esiphumileyo ndajonga phezulu kubuhlungu kumfana endiphulula isisu sam ehleka. "Uyenzile kwakhona," utshilo.

Khange ndiyihleke. Ndaziva ndityebile, ndingalawuleki.

Abazali bam bahlala besithi ndinomdla wokuqhuba ilori. Kwaye ndiyayenza. Ndingatya kwaye nditye ... emva koko ndiqonde ukuba ndiza kugula kakubi. Ndikhumbula ndisiya eholideyini kwindlu yaselwandle nosapho lwam xa ndandineminyaka eyi-6. Emva kwesidlo sangokuhlwa, ndachwechwa ndaya efrijini ndaza ndatya isitya esipheleleyo se-dill pickles. Nge-2 kusasa, umama wayecoca ukugabha kwebhedi yam ebhedini. Ingathi bendiswele ubuchwephesha bendlela yokundixelela ukuba ndigcwele. (Iindaba ezimnandi: Kukho iindlela ezisempilweni zokujongana nokutya kakhulu.)

Ukuba undijongile—iikhilogram ezi-5 kunye neekhilogram ezili-145—awungekhe ucinge ukuba bendingumntu ozityayo. Mhlawumbi ndisikelelekile nge-metabolism elungileyo, okanye ndihlala ndikhuthele ngokwaneleyo ngokusebenza kunye nokuhamba ngebhayisikile ukuba iikhalori ezingaphezulu azindichaphazeli kakhulu. Nokuba yeyiphi indlela, ndiyazi ukuba into endiyenzayo ayiqhelekanga, kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo ayisiyempilo. Kwaye ukuba izibalo ziyenzeka, ekugqibeleni ziya kundenza ndityebe.

Kungekudala emva komzekelo wam wokutya okuziinkozo kwindawo yokutyela yaseMexico, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba lixesha elidlulileyo lokujongana nengxaki yam. Okokuqala misa: iijenali zezempilo. Ngokwe-2007 yophando ngaphezulu kwama-9,000 aseMelika, iipesenti ezi-3.5 zabasetyhini banesifo sokutya kakhulu (BED). Eli gama livakala kakubi njengale nto ndiyenzayo, kodwa ngokwenkcazo yeklinikhi- "ukutya ukutya okuninzi kunesiqhelo ngexesha leeyure ezimbini ubuncinci kabini ngeveki kwiinyanga ezintandathu" -andifaneleki. (Eyam ingaphezu komkhwa wemizuzu engama-30, kane ngenyanga.) Ngoko kutheni ndisaziva ngathi ndinengxaki?

Ukufuna ukucaciswa, ndabiza uMartin Binks, PhD, umlawuli wezempilo yokuziphatha kunye nophando kwi-Duke Diet kunye ne-Fitness Centre eDurham, North Carolina. "Ngenxa yokuba ungazifezekisi iikhrayitheriya zokuchonga oko akuthethi ukuba awusokoli," uqinisekisile uBinks. "Kukho ukutya okuqhubekayo -" amanqanaba ahlukeneyo okutya 'ukungalawulwa.' Ukuzinkcinkca rhoqo, umzekelo [amakhulu endaweni yamawaka eekhalori ezongezelelweyo ngosuku] ekugqibeleni baye bongeza, kwaye umonakalo wengqondo kunye nempilo unokuba mkhulu ngakumbi."

Ndicinga emva kobusuku xa bendihluthi ngenxa yesidlo sangokuhlwa kodwa ndikwazile ukuthoba ii-Oreos ezisixhenxe okanye ezisibhozo. Okanye isidlo sasemini xa nditye isangweji yam ngexesha lokurekhoda-ke ndiye ndadlulela kwiitships kwipleyiti yomhlobo wam. Ndiyarhwaqela. Ukuhlala kumda wokuphazamiseka kokutya yindawo ekhohlisayo yokuzifumana. Kwelinye icala, ndivulekile malunga nayo nabahlobo. Xa ndi-odola enye inja eshushu emva kokutya ezimbini zokuqala, iba yinto ehlekisayo: "Uyibeka phi leyo, uzwane lwakho olukhulu?" Sihleka kamnandi, emva koko banamachaphaza emilebe yabo ngee napkin ngelixa ndiqhubeka nokuchopha. Kwelinye icala, kukho amaxesha onesithukuthezi xa ndinoloyiko lokuba ukuba andikwazi ukulawula into esisiseko njengokutya, kufuneka ndilawule njani eminye imiba yabantu abadala, njengokuhlawula umboleko kunye nokukhulisa abantwana? (Akukho nenye endizakuzama ngayo.)

Indlala ngokuchasene neMidlalo yeNtloko

Imicimbi yam yokutya iyangqubana novavanyo lwengqondo lwendabuko: Khange ndibenamava okothusayo kwasekuqaleni apho abazali abanenzondo babebamba idessert njengesohlwayo. Zange khe ndijongane nomsindo ngokutya ipitsa enkulu ngakumbi enezinto ezininzi. Ndandingumntwana owonwabileyo; ixesha elininzi, ndingumntu omdala owonwabileyo. Ndibuza ii-Binks ukuba ucinga ntoni na ezibangela ukuba uziphathe kakubi. “Indlala,” utsho.

Owu.

"Phakathi kwezinye izizathu, abantu abanciphisa ukutya kwabo bazibekela ukutya," kusho uBinks. "Dubula izidlo ezithathu, ukutya okunefayibha eninzi, kunye nokutya okutyiwa qho emva kweeyure ezintathu ukuya kwezine. Ukucwangcisa into oza kuyitya kwangaphambili kwenza ukuba ungabinakho ukunikezela ngesiquphe."

Ilunge kakhulu. Kodwa kuthekani ngala maxesha xa nditye ngokukhawuleza imini yonke kwaye ndivakalelwa kukuba ndinesidingo sokuncedisa okwesithathu kwisidlo sakusihlwa? Ngokuqinisekileyo asiyondlala eqhuba loo mizekelo yokutya iziqendu. Ndicofa inombolo yonyango uJudith Matz, umlawuli weChicago Centre for Overeating and coauthor of The Diet Survivor's Handbook, ngeengcinga zakhe. Incoko yethu ihamba ngoluhlobo.

Mna:"Nantsi ingxaki yam: Ndiyazitya, kodwa akwanelanga ukuxilongwa kweBED."

Matz:"Ukutya kakhulu kukwenza uzive unetyala?"

Me: "Ewe."

Matz: "Kutheni ucinga lonto?"

Me: "Ngoba bekungafanelanga ndiyenze."

Matz: "Kutheni ucinga lonto?"

Me:"Kaloku ndizotyeba."

Matz: "Ke umba nyani kukoyika kwakho ukutyeba."

Me: "Um ... (to self: Is it? ...) I guess so. Kodwa kutheni ndizokutya kakhulu xa ndingafuni ukutyeba? Ayivakali into entle leyo."

UMatz uqhubeka nokundixelela ukuba siphila kwinkcubeko ye-fat phobia, apho abafazi bayaziphika ukutya "okungalunganga", okubuyela umva xa singasakwazi ukumelana nokuswela. Icacisa into ebithethwa nguBinks: Ukuba umzimba wakho uziva ulambile, uya kutya kakhulu kunokuba kufanele. Kwaye ke..."Ukutya yindlela esathuthuzelwa ngayo singabantwana," uMatz uthi. (Ha! Bendisazi ukuba izinto zobuntwana ziyeza.) "Ke iyavakala into yokuba siyifumana sithuthuzela njengabantu abadala. Ndinike umzekelo wokuba utye nini ngaphandle kweemvakalelo ungalambi." Ndicinga okomzuzu, emva koko ndimxelele ukuba xa mna nesithandwa sam sasithandana kude, ngamanye amaxesha ndandizitya emva kokuba siye saba nempelaveki kunye, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ndandizibuza ukuba kungenxa yokuba ndimkhumbula. (Xa kuziwa kukutya ngokweemvakalelo, ungakholelwa kule ntsomi.)

Uthi: “Mhlawumbi ubulolo yayiyimvakalelo owawungakhululekanga ngayo, ngoko wakhangela indlela yokuziphazamisa. "Uphethukele ekutyeni, kodwa njengokuba ubutywala kungenzeka ukuba ubuzixelela ukuba uzakutyeba kangakanani kwaye kungcono uzilolonge yonke le veki kwaye utye ukutya 'okulungileyo' kuphela ..." (Wazi njani ukuba?!) "...kodwa qikelela ntoni? Ngokwenza oko, uye wasusa ugxininiso kubulolo bakho."

Wowu. Ukutya kakhulu ukuze ndikwazi ukuxinezeleka malunga nokutyeba endaweni yoxinzelelo lokuba nesizungu. Oko kuphazamisekile, kodwa kunokwenzeka. Ndidiniwe kuko konke oku kuhlalutya (ngoku ndiyazi ukuba kutheni abantu belele kwezozingqengqelo), kodwa ndinomdla wokuba uMatz ucinga yeyona ndlela ibhetele yokuphula umjikelo. Ngexesha elizayo xa ufaka ukutya, zibuze, 'Ngaba ndilambile?' Utshilo. "Ukuba impendulo nguhayi, kusakulungile ukutya, kodwa yazi ukuba uyenzela intuthuzelo kwaye uyeke ukungxoliswa ngaphakathi. Nje ukuba uzinike imvume yokutya, awuyi kuba nayo nantoni na eya kutsalela ingqalelo yakho kwiimvakalelo zakho 'uzama ukubaleka." Ekugqibeleni, uthi, ukuzinkcinkca ngotywala kuya kuphulukana nesibheno sayo. Ingayiyo. (Idibeneyo: Izinto ezili-10 Lo mfazi unqwenela ukuba azi malunga nokuphakama kokuPhazamiseka kwakhe kokutya)

Ukuwa kwiWagon

Ndixhobe ngolu lwazi lutsha, ndivuka ngoMvulo kusasa ndizimisele ukuba neveki engenaziqendu. Iintsuku zokuqala zilungile. Ndilandela amacebiso kaBinks yaye ndifumanisa ukuba ukutya amaqhekezana amancinane kane okanye kahlanu ngosuku kuyandigcina ndiziva ndibandezwa yaye ndineminqweno embalwa. Akukho nzima nokwala isiphakamiso somfana wam sokuya kufuna amaphiko kunye nebhiya ngobusuku bangoLwesithathu; Sele ndicwangcise ukusiphekela ukutya okusempilweni kwesalmon, izucchini casserole, kunye neitapile ezibhakiweyo.

Iyafika ke impelaveki. Ndiza kuqhuba iiyure ezine ukuze ndityelele udade wethu kwaye ndimncede apeyinte indlu yakhe entsha. Ukuhamba ngo-10 kusasa kuthetha ukuba ndiza kumisa endleleni ngesidlo sasemini. Njengoko ndihamba ngesantya esiphakathi, ndiqala ukucwangcisa ukutya okusempilweni endiya kuba nakho kwindlela engaphantsi. Iletisi, iitumato, noshizi onamafutha asezantsi— ”ii-intshi ezintandathu, hayi inyawo ubude. Ngo-12:30, isisu sam siyakhala; Nditsala ekuphumeni okulandelayo. Akukho ndlela yangaphantsi emehlweni, ndiye ndaya kuWendy. Ndiza kufumana nje isidlo sabantwana, ndiyacinga. (Idibeneyo: Ukubala iiKhalori kwandinceda ndanciphisa ubunzima-kodwa ke ndakhula ingxaki yokutya)

"I-Baconator, iifries ezinkulu, kunye ne-Vanilla Frosty," nditsho kwibhokisi yesithethi. Kuyabonakala ukuba, kunye nebrashi yam yamazinyo, ndishiye amandla am ekhaya.

Nditsalela ngaphakathi isidlo sonke, ndithambise isisu sam sikaBuddha kwaye ndizame ukulihoya ityala elindigibisela kuyo yonke idrive. Ukwenza izinto zibembi, usisi wam u-odola ipizza ngesidlo sangokuhlwa ngobo busuku. Sendiyimoshele ukutya kwam ngalamini, ndiyazixelela, ndilungiselela igorge-fest. Kwixesha lokurekhoda, nditsalela izilayi ezihlanu.

Emva kweyure, andisakwazi ukuzimela. Ndingohlulekile. Ukusilela ekutyeni njengomntu oqhelekileyo, kunye nokusilela ekulungiseni imikhwa yam emibi. Emva kwesidlo sangokuhlwa, ndingqengqe esofeni ndiqale ndincwine. Udadewethu uhlunguzela intloko kum kwaye uzama ukundiphazamisa kwintlungu yam. "Usebenza ntoni kwezi ntsuku?" Uyabuza. Ndiqala ukuhleka phakathi kwencwina. "Inqaku elithetha ukutya kakhulu."

Ndikhumbula ii-Binks zindixelela ukuba indlela endiziva ngayo emva kokuba ndizinkcinkca kubalulekile kwaye kufuneka ndizame ukukhulula naliphi na ityala ngokwenziwa komzimba. Ukuhamba-hamba ngokukhawuleza kwibhloko akukuthobi ncam ukudumba, kodwa kufuneka ndivume, xa ndibuyela endlwini ubutyala sele behlile kancinci. (Ukuzivocavoca kunceda lo mfazi ukuba anqobe ingxaki yakhe yokutya, naye.)

Ngaba Ukuzinkcinkca kwimfuza yam?

Ukubuyela kwigumbi lam, ndiye ndafumana uphononongo lwamva nje oluthi ukutya kakhulu kunokuba yimfuza: Abaphandi kwiYunivesithi yaseBuffalo bafumanise ukuba abantu abanemithambo-luvo embalwa yokufumana imichiza yokuziva ulunge kakhulu bafumana ukutya okunomvuzo kunabantu abangenalo olo hlobo lwe-genotype. Oomakazi bam ababini babeneengxaki zobunzima bomzimba—bobabini benza utyando lwe-gastric bypass. Ndiyazibuza ukuba ingaba ndiziva na iziphumo zomthi wosapho lwam. Ndingathanda, nangona kunjalo, ukukholelwa ukuba ukuzinkcinkca ngokutya kusisigqibo sam, nangona sibi kakhulu kwaye ngoko ke ndiyakwazi ukulawula.

Andikuthandi ukuziva ndinetyala okanye ndityebile. Andikuthandi ukususa isandla senkwenkwe endithandana nayo esiswini sam emva kwesidlo esikhulu kuba ndineentloni zokuba ayiphathe. Njengazo zonke iingxaki, ukuzinkcinkca ngotywala akunakulungiswa ngobusuku obunye. "Ndixelela izigulana zam ukuba oku kungaphezulu kokuzingisa kwimizamo yabo kunokuyeka i-turkey ebandayo," utshilo uBinks. "Kuthatha ixesha ukuhlalutya indlela yakho yokutya kwaye ufumane indlela yokuwoyisa."

Emva kweveki, ngexesha lesidlo sangokuhlwa kunye nesithandwa sam, ndiphakama etafileni ndiyokuncedisa iitapile esitovini. IChanneling Matz, ndiyama ndizibuze ukuba ndilambile na. Impendulo nguhayi, ke ndihlala phantsi ndigqibe ukumxelela ngemini yam, ndiyazingca ngokungatyi ukutya nje. Inyathelo elinye elincinci, kodwa ubuncinci kwicala elifanelekileyo. (Into Enxulumeneyo: Indlela Okwandinceda Ngayo Ukutshintsha Indlela Enditya Ngayo Ukoyisa Ixhala)

Ngoku sele kudlule inyanga emva kokuba ndizinyathele ngongenelelo, kwaye nangona ingumzabalazo wemihla ngemihla, ngokuthe ngcembe ndiya ndikwazi ukulawula ukutya kwam. Andisajongi ukutya njengokulungileyo okanye okungalunganga-indlela uMatz athi sikulungele ngayo- oko kundinceda ndizive ndinetyala kakhulu ukuba ndiya-odola ii-fries zase-french endaweni yesaladi. Oku kuyinqande iminqweno yam, kuba ndiyazi ukuba ndingazonwabisa xa ndikhetha. Ukutya kwaseMexico kuseyi kryptonite yam, kodwa ndiyaqiniseka ukuba ngumkhwa ombi nje: Kudala nditya kakhulu kwiindawo zokutyela zaseMexico, izandla zam zicwangciswe ukuba zifake ukutya emlonyeni xa ndifika. Ke ndiye ndasebenza ukwenza uhlengahlengiso: isiqingatha sesahlulo sokukhonza, enye i-margarita encinci kwaye, oh ewe, isandla somfo wam siphumle esinqeni sam ngaphambi kokuba nawuphi na umzekelo wesiqendu sokutya kakhulu senzeke, ukundikhumbuza ukuba ndingathanda ukuziva. I-sexy kune-bloated.

Nip Isiqendu sakho esilandelayo seBinge kwiBud

Ukunciphisa ukutya okungalawulekiyo linyathelo lokuqala lokufumana isiphatho kubunzima bakho. Ukuthintela umzekelo wokutya ngokutya iziqendu kuqala ngala manyathelo alula.

• Ekhaya: Yitya izidlo zakho kunye nezinto ezityiwayo ezityiwayo xa uhleli etafileni; phaka ukutya esitovini kwaye ugcine okungakumbi ekhitshini. Ngale ndlela, ukuzinceda kwimizuzwana kufuna ukuphakama uhambe uye kwelinye igumbi.
• Kwivenkile yokutyela: Ziqhelise ukushiya ukutya kwipleyiti yakho xa ugcwele ngokwaneleyo. Musa ukusebenzisa imali njengesizathu-uhlawulela ukutya okumnandi, kungekhona ukuziva ugula. (Isingxobo se-Doggie ukuba kunyanzelekile, kodwa ulumkele uhlaselo lwefriji ezinzulwini zobusuku.)
• Kumthendeleko: "Zama ukudala isithintelo ngokwasemzimbeni phakathi kwakho nayo nayiphi na into ohendwa yiyo," ucebisa uBinks. "Ukuba iitshiphusi bubuthathaka bakho, gcwalisa isuphu okanye imifuno ngaphambi kokuthatha isitya se-guacamole."

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