Ndazama iGroup Meditation...kwaye NdinePanic Attack

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Ukuba ukhe wacamngca ngaphambili-Kulungile, masibe yinyani, ukuba ukhe wacamngca cinga malunga nokuzama ukucamngca-uyazi ukuba kunzima ngakumbi ukuhlala kwaye ungenzi nto ngaphandle kokuba ivakala. Kum, ukucamngca kufana nokuzivocavoca umzimba: Ukuba andinalo ixesha nendawo yokuzivocavoca yam ebhalwe kwikhalenda yam, andiyi. Kodwa nangona ndinolwazi olunqongopheleyo lwe Njani ukuyenza, ndiyazazi izibonelelo ezinamandla zokucamngca (uphando lubonisa ukuba kungcono ukuphelisa iintlungu kune-morphine, kunokukunceda ubethe ikhefu ekugugeni, kwaye abantu abenza ingqondo banokuba namafutha angaphantsi esiswini), kwaye abanakucinga ukuthatha ithuba kwezo.

Ngokusisiseko, ukuba awucamngci, kufanelekile. Kwaye i-MNDFL, isitudiyo esitsha sokucamngca seqela kwisiXeko saseNew York, sizama ukwenza ukucamngca kufikeleleke ngakumbi kubantu abanjengam ngokubonelela ngemiyalelo elula kunye nobuchule kuseto lweklasi, olufana neqela lokuzilolonga. Ukubhukisha iklasi kwi-MNDFL kunengqiqo-kukuba sonke-kule ndlela yokuhlangana sivakala njengenketho elungileyo yokuhamba kwam okokuqala kwindlela yokuziqhelanisa.

Ukungena ngaphakathi kwesi studio kuvakala ngathi kukungena kukucamngca okuphilayo ngokwako, kunye neethowuni zayo ezingwevu nezimhlophe, umthi wendalo kunye nohlaza olugqume iindonga. Njengoko ndayalelwa, ndalahla izihlangu zam emnyango ndaza ndaya kwindawo ezolileyo. Isithuba sindikhumbuze istudiyo se-yoga ephezulu, kodwa i-sweat encinci kwaye ingabizi kakhulu (iklasi yemizuzu engama-30 yi-$ 15 kuphela). Ndithathe isihlalo sam phezu komqamelo omhle phantsi ndaza ndalinda ukuba umqeqeshi aqale.

Umhlohli wam wayengelohlobo lweyogi yegranola endandiyilindele. Endaweni yoko, wayenxibe njengonjingalwazi: ibhulukhwe, ihempe ecofa iqhosha, iqhina, ijezi kunye neeglasi ezishinyeneyo ezimnyama. (Kwelinye icala, ndandineebhulukhwe zeyoga, kodwa ke, yayingu-9 kusasa ngoMgqibelo, kulungile?) Ukuziphatha kwakhe kwabonakala ngathi kukufundisisa, okwanceda ukuseta ithoni kum. Emva kwayo yonke loo nto, bendikho ukuze ndifunde okuthile.

Kubafundi abatsha eklasini, wachaza ukuba kukho iintsika ezintathu zokucamngca: umzimba, ukuphefumla kunye nengqondo. Okokuqala, sigxininise kumzimba, ukufumana indawo efanelekileyo yokucamngca (imilenze yawela, izandla ziphumla ngobumnene emadolweni, amehlo avulekileyo, kodwa avule ngobumnene, njengokuba usanda kuvuka ebuthongweni obude). Usilumkisile ukuba indawo enemilenze enqamlezileyo isenokungakhululeki emva kwexesha kuba asiqhelanga ukuhlala ngolo hlobo kwaye wacebisa ukuba sibeke idolo phezulu ukuba siqale ukuphulukana nokuziva emlenzeni omnye. Emva koko, wasihamba ngokuphuhlisa umoya opholileyo, ozinzileyo. Kwakukufutshane nokuphefumla kwam okuqhelekileyo, mhlawumbi kunzulu kancinci, kodwa umahluko wawugxininise-ndazama ukucinga ngako konke ukuphefumla nokuphefumla njengoko kwakusenzeka. Konke kulungile ukuza kuthi ga ngoku.

Kwaye kwafika ixesha lokucamngca. Umhlohli wethu ucacisile ukuba uyakunciphisa ukuthetha kwakhe kwaye siza kuba nemizuzu engama-30 yokucamngca emva kokuba sivile "ukungcangcazela" kwesitya sakhe sokucula saseTibet. Uye wasibongoza ukuba singacingelwa ukuba yi-ninjas-awudingi ukugawula yonke ingcinga onayo ngexesha lokucamngca. Endaweni yoko, ucebisa ngokulula ukubavumela badlule kwaye babuyele ekugxininiseni ekuphefumleni. Ngubani owayesazi ukuba ukucinga ngexesha lokucamngca kulungile?! (Zama ezi ziNgcali ezili-10 zeNgqondo eziPhila ngokuPhila.)

Ndizamile ukungacingi, kodwa ukucamngca kukwenza ube novakalelo. Ndizifumene ndiziqonda kakuhle ezo nwele zincinci zisencinci kum (ndibanyumbaza!), Izandla zam (kutheni zisathe cwaka? Akufanelekanga ukuba zichwetheza okanye zithumela imiyalezo okanye zihamba nge-Insta?), Umlomo wommelwane wam ukuphefumla, ukuba unwele random emhlabeni (ngowam?).

Ndandiqhuba kakuhle de ngesiquphe ndaqonda ukuba andinamva emlenzeni wam wasekunene. Ngapha koko, isinqe sam kunye nomqolo osezantsi nazo zazinomkhenkce nazo. Emva koko ndaba ne-panic attack. Ngaba ndandiza kuphelelwa? Ndiphakame ndihambe? Ngaba loo nto ingayonakalisa i-zen yomntu wonke? Ngaba imilenze yam ingade indivumele ukuba ndime? Ndikhumbule iqhinga umqeqeshi wethu awalinikayo malunga nokubeka idolo ukonyusa ukuhamba kwegazi emlenzeni ukuba liqala ukulala, ndiye ndahamba ndagxila ekuphefumlweni ngokuzinzileyo de ndazola ndaziva ndibuyela emzimbeni wam.

Abanye abafundi bahamba kakuhle de umatse obaleka ejikeleza esibhakabhakeni wandikhupha kwisimo sam sokucamngca-ndaziva ngathi ndivuswa ebuthongweni ebendingakulungelanga ukuphuma kubo. Umqeqeshi wethu wathetha nokuphazamiseka, esazisa ukuba singayamkela ingxolo kwaye siyenze inxenye yokucamngca kwethu, nto leyo eyanceda iklasi ukuba iphinde ikhululeke kwakhona. Kwaye ngaphambi kokuba ndiyazi, "i-ding" yesitya sokucula saseTibet yasikhupha ekucamngceni imizuzu embalwa yengxoxo. Ndixelele iklasi malunga nokukhululeka kwam kwaye ndiphantse ndacinga ukuba ndiza kuyishiya iklasi. Akukho mntu wabonakala emangalisiwe; Ingqondo yomntu wonke kunye nomzimba uphendula ngokwahlukileyo kukucamngca. Emva kwayo yonke loo zen, umzimba wam ubukulungele ukuphakama uhambe. Ngokuqinisekileyo, ndaziva ndizolile eklasini, kodwa yayidlula-kwaye ndandirhalela ukuya kwiklasi yomdaniso emva nje kokuba ndiyivuthulule (endiyenzileyo)!

Umqeqeshi ugqibe iklasi ngesikhumbuzo sokuba ayizizo zonke iiseshini eziza kuphumla kwaye nawe awunakufumana izibonelelo zokucamngca kwangoko, kwaye kulungile. Ngandlela thile, kufana nokuya ejimini. Awuyi kuphulukana neekhilogram ezili-10 emva kweklasi yokuqala yokujikeleza, kodwa wena Ngaba ndiziva ngokwahlukileyo emva kwexesha elinye. (Awuqinisekanga? 'F * ck Oko' Ukucamngca ngeVidiyo kukunceda uphefumlele i-BS.)

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