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Umxholo

• I-Spiral ezantsi
• Umnxeba wam wokuvuka
• Ukwenzakala okuTshintshe yonke into
• I-Obsession yam entsha yokubaleka
• Uphengululo lwe

Ndiqale ndaqonda ukuba ndinzima kunabanye abantwana xa ndifika kwinqanaba eliphezulu. Ndandilinde ibhasi kunye neqela labantwana abadlulayo kwaye "moo" -ed at me. Nangoku, ndiyathuthwa ndibuyele kulaa mzuzu. Inamathele kum, ukungazibonakalisi kwam kukhula kubi ekuhambeni kwexesha.

Kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo, ndandinobunzima kwii-170s. Ndikhumbula ngokucacileyo ndicinga, "Ukuba ndilahlekelwe nje ngeepounds ezingama-50 ndingavuya kakhulu." Kodwa kwakungekho unyaka wokugqibela wekholeji ukuba ndiqale ukuzama ukunciphisa umzimba. Umntu endandihlala naye egumbini kunye naye saboleka incwadi yabamelwane yeWeather Watchers, sazikopa, sazama ukuzenzela. Ndancipha kakhulu kwaye ndonwabile, kodwa bendingazi ukuba ndiza kubugcina njani. Ndithe xa ndisiya kumabanga aphezulu, ndandisitya ukutya okuqhotsiweyo kwasebusuku, ndisela, ndingashukumi kangangoko ndifanele, yaye ubunzima buyanda. (Jonga le mithetho ilishumi yokuNcipha kokuNcipha.)

Unyaka okanye ukuphuma kwekholeji, ndanyathela kwinqanaba elinye kwaye ndabona inani lama-235-ndatsiba ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba andisokuze ndizilinganise kwakhona. Ndandikhathazeke kakhulu kwaye ndicaphukile.

I-Spiral ezantsi

Ngelo xesha, ndaqala ukuthatha iindlela ezingenampilo zokunciphisa umzimba. Ukuba ndiziva ngathi nditya kakhulu, bendizakuziphosa. Emva koko ndiza kuzama ukutya kancinci. Ndandinengxaki yeanorexia kunye nebulimia kwangaxeshanye. Ngelishwa, nangona kunjalo, ngenxa yokuba ndandihlisa umzimba, bonke aba bantu babendixelela ngobungakanani bam obuhle. Baya kuba ngathi, "Nantoni na oyenzayo, qhubeka! Ubukeka umangalisa!"

Bendihlala ndiphepha ukubaleka, kodwa ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndizame ngelo xesha ngethemba lokunciphisa umzimba. Ndiqale ngekota yeemayile kwiveki yokuqala kaJanuwari ngo-2005 kwaye bendimane ndongeza enye ikota yeeveki veki nganye. Ndibaleke i-5K yam yokuqala ngo-Matshi, emva koko ndaya kwisiqingatha sokuqala kunyaka olandelayo.

Ngo-2006, ndasayinela umdyarho opheleleyo ngaphandle kokuqonda ukuba iyakuba ngu enkulu tsiba kule nto bendiyibaleke ngaphambili. Ngobusuku obungaphambi komdyarho, ndafumana isidlo sangokuhlwa esenziwe ngepasta endaziphosa emva koko. Ndiyazi ukuba oku kubi, kodwa bendingekafumani ndlela isempilweni yokutya. Ke ndiye kwimarathon ndingenawo kwaphela amafutha. Ndaziva ndingcangcazela kwi-mayile ze-10, kodwa andizange ndibe ne-power bar de i-mile 20. Abaququzeleli bogqatso babeqhawula umgca wokugqibela xa ndifika apho. Bebendigcinele iwotshi nje mna. (Yintoni Ubunzima beMpilo, nangona kunjalo? Inyaniso malunga nokutyeba kodwa kufanelekile.)

Yayingamava amabi kangangokuba ndakube ndifikile entanjeni, andifuni ukuphinda ndiyenze kwakhona. Ndiyekile ke ukubaleka.

Umnxeba wam wokuvuka

Ngengxaki yam yokutya, ndasebenza indlela yam ukuya kwii-180s kunye nobukhulu be-12 kunyaka olandelayo. Ndikhumbula ndityhafa eshaweni kwindawo yokuzivocavoca kwaye ndinje, "Kulungile, andizukuxelela mntu ukuba kwenzeke ntoni! Ndiza kusela nje iGatorade kwaye ndiza kuphila." Iimpawu ezilumkisayo zazikho, kodwa ndaqhubeka ndingazinanzi. Kodwa abahlobo bam ngelo xesha babesazi ukuba kukho into engalunganga baza bajongana nam—kwakungelo xesha apho ndaqonda ukuba kufuneka ndenze utshintsho.

Ukusuka kwam eBoston ukuya eSan Francisco ngomsebenzi ngo-2007, yayisisiqalo esitsha. Ndaqala ukugcina ukulahlekelwa kwesisindo ngendlela enempilo-ndandisebenza, ndidla ngokuqhelekileyo ngaphandle kokutya kunye nokucoca, kwaye ndiyekile ukugxila kwisikali kakhulu. Kodwa ngenxa yokuba ndandidla ngokutya kwakhona, ndagqiba ekubeni ndiphinde ndifumane itoni yobunzima. Kwaya kusiba kubi ngakumbi xa ndafudukela eChicago kunyaka olandelayo ndaza ndaqala ukutya ukutya okuninzi kakhulu kwaye ndisebenzisa konke ukutya okuthosiweyo. Nangona ndandisebenza nzima, ndandingaziboni iziphumo. Ekugqibeleni, ngo-2009, emva kokubona umfanekiso wam kwiHalloween ndathi, "Kulungile, ndigqibile."

Ndagqiba ekubeni ndibe lilungu le-Weight Watchers ngokusemthethweni. Xa ndangena kwindlu engaphantsi yecawa kwintlanganiso yam yokuqala, ndandineepawundi ezingama-217.4. Ngababukeli besisindo, ekugqibeleni ndakwazi ukuqala ukunciphisa umzimba ngelixa ndonwabela ibhiya, iwayini kunye neetot tots. Kwaye ngenxa yenkxaso yamanye amalungu egumbini, ndaqonda ukuba akuyi kuncipha ubunzima veki nganye. Ndiqale ukusebenza kakuhle kwaye ndigxile kwizinto ezintle-nokuba isikali sikhuphukile.

Ndaze ndabuyela ekubalekeni. Omnye wabahlobo bam wayefuna ukwenza i-5K eChicago, ke siyenzile kunye. (Ucinga ngokubaleka? Zama iiveki ezi-5 ukuya kwisicwangciso se-5K.)

Ukwenzakala okuTshintshe yonke into

Emva kokuba ndiphulukene neepawundi ezingama-30, ndaphakamisa idiski emqolo kwaye ndifuna utyando. Ukungakwazi ukusebenza kwandiphosa i-loop kwaye ndandixhalabile ukuba ndiza kuphinda ndiphinde ndifumane ubunzima. (Okothusayo kukuba, ndilahlekile i-10 yeepawundi ngelixa ndibekwe kuqhaqho ngokwenza nje ukutya okunempilo.) Ndandidandathekile kwaye ndingazi ukuba ndenzeni ukunceda ngengqondo, ke umfazi wam ucebise ukuba ndiqale ibhlog. Ndicinge ukuba inokuba yindawo enkulu yokukhupha iimvakalelo zam phaya-endaweni yokuzityhala ngokutya njengoko bendiqhele ukwenza-kwaye ndayisebenzisa njengesixhobo sokuzigcina ndiphendula ekulahlekeni kwam kobunzima. Kodwa bendifuna ukwazisa abantu ukuba abodwa. Kude kube kudala ndiziva ingathi ndim ndedwa ojongene nokutya ngokwasemphefumlweni, kwaye into eyandinika isibindi yayingumbono wokuba nokuba umntu omnye angayifunda ayidibanise nayo.

Utyando lwandishiya ne-drop foot-ukulimala kwemithambo-luvo echaphazela amandla okuphakamisa unyawo eqatheni. Ugqirha wandixelela ukuba andizukwazi ukufumana amandla apheleleyo emlenzeni wam ngasemva kwaye mhlawumbi andizukwazi ukubaleka kwakhona. Yayiyiyo yonke inkuthazo (kunye nokhuphiswano!) Ndandifuna ngokwenene ukubuyela ekubalekeni. Xa unelo themba lokususwa, liya kuba lixabiso. Ndagqiba mna Ngaba ndibuyiselwe amandla kunyango lomzimba, kwaye xa ndenzile, ndiza kugijima isiqingatha semarathon.

Nge-Agasti ka-2011, kwiinyanga nje ezimbini ezinesiqingatha emva kokuba ndicocelwe umsebenzi (kunye neenyanga ezintandathu ezinesiqingatha emva kotyando lwam) Ndenze isithembiso kum ndaza ndabaleka iDwala 'N Roll Chicago Half Marathon. Ndivale ixesha lokubaleka u-2: 12 ndinkqonkqoza kwimizuzu esi-8 kwisiqingatha sam sangaphambili se-marathon PR ngo-2006. Ngokuqinisekileyo, ndandilubaleke ugqatso olupheleleyo ngaphambili, kodwa emva kwayo yonke into endidlule kuyo, oku kwakwahlukile. Ndabona ukuba ndinamandla kunokuba ndizinika ikhredithi.

I-Obsession yam entsha yokubaleka

Ngandlela thile, ngoku ndingumntu owonwabela kakhulu impelaveki yomdyarho. Ndityala imali eninzi kwibhlog yam-yandinceda engqondweni nasemzimbeni nasemphefumlweni kwaye yavula umhlaba wamathuba. Ngequbuliso, ukubaleka kwaba yinto endijonge phambili kuyo Kuyenza ndincume kwaye kundenza ndicinge ukuba ndiyaphambana.

Kunyaka ophelileyo, ndiye ndathabatha inxaxheba kugqatso lwama-53. Oko ndaqala ibhlog yam, ndenze ikhulu elinambalwa, kubandakanya marathons asixhenxe, ama-triathlons asixhenxe kunye nesiqingatha se-Ironman. Kwiminyaka embalwa edlulileyo, ndafumana umvambo wonyawo onamanani onke kunye neelogo ezimele zonke iintlanga zam, kwaye ithi 'gqibezela into oyiqalileyo', i-mantra endiyisebenzisileyo kakhulu ngexesha lokwehla kobunzima kunye nohambo lokuqina.

Ndabetha ubunzima bam bomgomo ngoJanuwari ka-2012 emva kweminyaka emibini enesiqingatha. Ngamanye amaxesha ndixelela abantu ukuba ndithathe indlela entle. Kwakukho unyaka wonke apho ndilahlekelwe kuphela ngeekhilogram ezili-10, kodwa yayimalunga nokwenza utshintsho lwendlela yokuphila, kungekhona malunga nokubukela inani kwisikali. (Chitha isikali! Iindlela ezili-10 eziNgcono zokuxelela ukuba wehlisa ubunzima.)

Ndade ndaba yinkokeli yaBalindi ngo-2012 kwaye ndayenza iminyaka emithathu enesiqingatha ukuyibhatala phambili. Ndandifuna ukukwazi ukutshintsha ubomi babanye abantu kwaye ndibonise ukuba nasemva kokuba ufikelele kwiinjongo zakho zokunciphisa umzimba, ayizizo zonke iimvula kunye neeunicorns. Okwangoku ndilahla kwakhona malunga neepawundi ezili-15 endizifumeneyo, kodwa ndiyazi ukuba izakwenzeka, kwaye ukuba ndifuna ukuphuma ndisele ibhiya kunye nepitsa, ndinako.

Ndihlala ndisithi, ayithethi malunga neeponti ezilahlekileyo; imalunga nobomi obuzuziweyo.

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