Ndaye Ndathula Kwimidiya Yonxibelelwano Ngenxa Yesigulo Sam Esingabonakaliyo

Umxholo

• Sebenzisa 'ubuchule bequla' ukuchaza ifuthe lezifo zengqondo
• NgoMvulo, umhla we-4 kuSeptemba, ndandifuna ukuzibulala
• Kodwa ndingasinda kwaye ndiza kubuya

Ngomhla ngaphambi kokuba isiqephu sam siqale, bendinosuku oluhle ngokwenene. Andikhumbuli kakhulu, ibiyimini nje eqhelekileyo, ndiziva ndizinzile ngokwentelekiso, ndingayazi kwaphela into eza kwenzeka.

Igama lam ndingu-Olivia, kwaye bendihlala ndisebenzisa iphepha le-Instagram selfloveliv. Ndiyiblogi yempilo yengqondo kunye nokuphazamiseka kwengqondo kwaye ndithetha kakhulu malunga nehlazo emva kokugula kwengqondo. Ndizama ukwenza kangangoko ndinako ukukwazisa ngeentlobo ezahlukeneyo zezifo zengqondo kwaye ndiqinisekise ukuba abantu bayaqonda ukuba ababodwa.

Ndiyakuthanda ukuba sentlalweni, ukuthetha nabanye abantu abanesigulo esifana nesam, kwaye bayaphendula. Nangona kunjalo, kwezi veki zimbalwa zidlulileyo khange ndibekho kwezi zinto. Ndemka ngokupheleleyo kwigridi, ndaza ndaphelelwa kukulawulwa sisifo sengqondo.

Sebenzisa 'ubuchule bequla' ukuchaza ifuthe lezifo zengqondo

Eyona ndlela ndingayichaza ngayo kukusebenzisa indlela umama ayisebenzisayo xa echaza ukugula ngengqondo kusapho nakwizihlobo zethu. Yindlela yakhe "entle" - njengakwindidi entle yomnqweno. Iqula limele amafu amabi anokuziswa kukugula ngengqondo. Ukusondela komntu equleni kubonisa imeko yethu yengqondo.

Umzekelo: Ukuba iqula likude, kude kum, oko kuthetha ukuba ndiphila ubomi kwi igcwele. Ndiphezu kwehlabathi. Akukho nto inokundinqanda kwaye andikholeleki. Ubomi bumnandi.

Ukuba ndizichaza njengo "ecaleni kwequla," ndilungile - andilunganga - kodwa ndiqhubeka nezinto kwaye ndisalawula.

Ukuba ndiziva ngathi ndisequleni, kubi. Ndisekoneni ndilila, okanye ndimile ndijonge esithubeni, ndifuna ukufa. Owu, lixesha lokuvuya okunjani.

Ngaphantsi kwequla? Ikhowudi ebomvu. Ikhowudi emnyama nokuba. Heck, yikhowudi emnyama emnyama yosizi kunye nokuphelelwa lithemba kunye namaphupha amabi esihogo. Zonke iingcinga zam ngoku zijikeleze ukufa, umngcwabo wam, zeziphi iingoma endizifunayo apho, imisebenzi epheleleyo. Akuyondawo ilungileyo ukuba ubekho kuye nabani na obandakanyekayo.

Ke, ndinayo le nto engqondweni, makhe ndicacise ukuba kutheni ndihamba yonke "iMission engenakwenzeka: iProtocol yoMoya" kuye wonke umntu.

NgoMvulo, umhla we-4 kuSeptemba, ndandifuna ukuzibulala

Le yayingeyiyo imvakalelo engaqhelekanga kum. Nangona kunjalo, le mvakalelo yayinamandla kakhulu, andinakukwazi ukuyilawula. Ndandisemsebenzini, ndingaboni nto kwaphela ngenxa yokugula kwam. Ngethamsanqa, endaweni yokufuna ukulinganisa icebo lam lokuzibulala, ndagoduka ndaya ngqo ebhedini.

Iintsuku ezimbalwa ezilandelayo zazingumbono omkhulu.

Kodwa ndisazikhumbula izinto ezimbalwa. Ndikhumbula ndicima umyalezo wam wemiyalezo kuba bendingafuni mntu uqhakamshelana nam. Bendingafuni mntu owaziyo ukuba ndimbi kangakanani. Ndikhubazekile i-Instagram yam.

Kwaye nam uyathandwa le akhawunti.

Ndikuthandile ukunxibelelana nabantu, bendithanda ukuziva ngathi ndenza umohluko, kwaye bendikuthanda ukuba yinxalenye yentshukumo. Nangona kunjalo, njengoko ndandihamba ndisebenzisa iapp, ndaziva ndindedwa ngokupheleleyo. Andizange ndikwazi ukunyamezela ukubona abantu bonwabile, bonwabele ubomi babo, bephila ubomi babo ngokupheleleyo xa ndiziva ndilahlekile. Indenze ndaziva ngathi ndiyoyisakala.

Abantu bayathetha malunga nokuchacha njengale njongo iphambili, xa kum, ayinakuze yenzeke.

Andinakuze ndiphinde ndibekho kwisifo esiyibipolar. Akukho lunyango, akukho pilisi yomlingo yokundiguqula ukusuka kwi-zombie yoxinzelelo ibe yintsomi eqaqambileyo, eyonwabileyo, enamandla. Ayikho. Ke, ukubona abantu bethetha ngokuchacha kunye nendlela abonwabe ngayo ngoku, kundenze ndaziva ndinomsindo kwaye ndindedwa.

Ingxaki ibinekhephu kulo mjikelo wokufuna ukuba ndedwa kwaye ndingafuni ukuba nesizungu, kodwa ekugqibeleni, ndaziva ndindedwa kuba ndindedwa. Uyabona ingxaki yam?

Kodwa ndingasinda kwaye ndiza kubuya

Njengoko iintsuku zihamba, ndaziva ndindodwa kuluntu kodwa ndisoyika ukubuyela. Okude ndahamba, kwakunzima ukubuyela kwimithombo yeendaba. Ndingathini? Ngaba abantu baya kuqonda? Ngaba bangandifuna ndibuye?

Ngaba ndiza kukwazi ukunyaniseka kwaye ndivule kwaye ndiyinyani?

Impendulo? Ewe.

Abantu kule mihla baqonda ngokumangalisayo, ngakumbi abo bathe bafumana iimvakalelo ezifanayo nezam. Ukugula ngengqondo yinto yokwenene, kwaye okukhona sithetha ngayo, kuya kuncipha ukubekwa amabala.

Ndiza kubuyela kwimidiya yoluntu kungekudala, ekuhambeni kwexesha, xa ukungabikho kwam kundishiya ndedwa. Okwangoku, ndiza kuba. Ndizophefumla. Kwaye njengoko uGloria Gaynor owaziwayo esitsho, ndiza kusinda.

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