Ndafunyaniswa Ndinesifo sokuxhuzula ndingazazi nokuba ndiyaxhuzula

Umxholo

• Ukuzabalaza ngeMpilo yam
• Ukuqonda Ukuba Kukho Ingxaki
• Ukufunda ukuba bendinokuxhuzula
• Ukufunyaniswa Unesifo sokuxhuzula
• Indlela Endahlangabezana Ngayo Noxilongo
• Into endiyifundileyo
• Uphengululo lwe

Ngomhla wama-29 kuOkthobha 2019, kwafunyaniswa ukuba ndinesifo sokuwa. Ndihleli ngaphesheya kwengcali yam yemithambo-luvo eBrigham nakwisibhedlele sabasetyhini eBoston.

Ndashiya iofisi yakhe kunye neskripthi somyalelo, iincwadana ezimbalwa zamaqela enkxaso, kunye nemibuzo yesigidi: "Ubomi bam buza kutshintsha kangakanani?" "Baza kucinga ntoni abantu?" "Ndiza kuphinda ndizive ndiqhelekile kwakhona?" - uluhlu luyaqhubeka.

Ndiyazi ukuba uninzi lwabantu olufunyaniswa ukuba lunesifo esinganyangekiyo alulungelanga oko, kodwa mhlawumbi into eyenze ukuba yothuse ngakumbi kum yayikukuba ndandingazi nokuba bendibanjwa de kube ziinyanga ezimbini ezidlulileyo.

Ukuzabalaza ngeMpilo yam

Uninzi lwabantu abaneminyaka engama-26 ubudala baziva behle ngokungoyiki. Ndiyazi ukuba ndenzile. Engqondweni yam, ndandingumntu osempilweni: Ndasebenza izihlandlo ezine ukuya kwezintandathu ngeveki, ndandisitya ukutya okunesondlo, ndandizilolonga kwaye ndigcina impilo yam engqondweni ngokuhlala ndisiya kunyango.

Ke ngo-Matshi 2019, yonke into yatshintsha.

Kwaphela iinyanga ezimbini, ndigula — okokuqala ndinosulelo lwendlebe emva koko ndineesibini (ewe, zimbini) imikhuhlane. Ngenxa yokuba yayingeyiyo eyam yokuqala yokujongana nomkhuhlane (#tbt kwihagu yomkhuhlane kwi'09), bendisazi- okanye ubuncinci mna cinga Ndiyazi-ukuba ndilindele ntoni emva kokuchacha. Ukanti, nasemva kokuba umkhuhlane kunye nokugodola kugqityiwe, impilo yam ayikhange ibonakale ngathi yomelele. Kunokuba ndiphinde ndibe namandla njengoko ndandilindele, ndandisoloko ndidinwe ndiyimfe yaye imilenze yam yayintyiloza ngendlela engaqhelekanga. Uvavanyo lwegazi lwatyhila ukuba ndandinqongophele gqitha iB-12—eyayingazange ibonwe kangangexesha elide kangangokuba yachaphazela ngokunzulu amandla am yada yaya yingozi kakhulu imithambo-luvo yemilenze yam. Ngelixa iintsilelo ze-B-12 zixhaphakile, inkitha yegazi ayinakukwazi ukunceda amaxwebhu ukuba abone ukuba kutheni ndinqongophele kwasekuqaleni. (Idibeneyo: Kutheni iivithamini ze-B ziyimfihlo yamandla amaninzi)

Ngombulelo, isisombululo sasilula: veki nganye B-12 shots ukunyusa amanqanaba am. Emva kwamayeza ambalwa, unyango lwalubonakala lusebenza kwaye, emva kweenyanga ezimbalwa, lwabonakala luyimpumelelo. Ngelixa umonakalo wemithambo-luvo wawungenakulungiseka, izinto zaziqalisa ukulunga yaye, kangangeeveki ezimbalwa, ubomi babuyela esiqhelweni—oko kukuthi, de ngenye imini xa sibhala ibali, ihlabathi laba mnyama.

Yenzeka ngokukhawuleza. Ngomzuzu omnye bendijonge amagama azalisa ikhompyuter phambi kwam njengoko ndenze amaxesha amaninzi ngaphambili, kwaye ngokulandelayo, ndaziva ndonyuka kakhulu kwiimvakalelo zisuka emngxunyeni wesisu sam. Kwakungathi kukho umntu ondinike ezona ndaba zoyikekayo emhlabeni-ke ndiye ndayeka ukuqonda ndayeka ukubetha ikhibhodi. Amehlo am ayethe ntsho, kwaye ndandiqinisekile ukuba ndiza kuqalisa ukukhwaza. Kodwa ke, ndaqala ukubona itonela kwaye ekugqibeleni andabona konke, nangona amehlo am ayevulekile.  

Ukufika kwam—enoba kwakusemva kwemizuzwana okanye imizuzu kamva, Andazi—ndandihleli edesikeni yam ndaza ngoko nangoko ndaqalisa ukulila. Ngoba? Hayi. a. umkhondo. Andizange ndazi ukuba i-WTF yenzekile, kodwa ndazixelela ukuba inokuba sisiphumo sayo yonke into umzimba wam obukhe wadlula kwezi nyanga zimbalwa zidlulileyo. Ke, ndithathe umzuzwana ukuziqokelela, ndayixhoma ngechalkin de amanzi aphele, ndaza ndaqhubeka ndichwetheza. (Idibeneyo: Kutheni ndilila ngaphandle kwesizathu? Izinto ezi-5 ezinokubangela ukulila)

Kodwa yaphinda yenzeka kwakhona ngosuku olulandelayo-kwaye ngosuku olulandelayo nasemva koko kwaye, kungekudala, ezi "ziqendu" njengoko ndandizibiza njalo, zaqina. Xa ndiphelile, ndandiva umculo owawungadlali i-IRL kwaye ndibonise imifanekiso yezithunzi ezithetha omnye komnye, kodwa andinakuyenza into ababeyithethayo. Ingathi liphupha elibi, ndiyazi. Kodwa ayizange ivakale njengenye. Ukuba ikhona into, bendiziva ndonwabile xa ndingena kule meko yokuphupha. Ngokukrakra-ndaziva ke Ndavuya ukuba, nangona ndilahleka, ndacinga ukuba ndiyancuma. Ngokukhawuleza ndaphuma kuyo, nangona kunjalo, ndaziva ndibuhlungu kwaye ndisoyika, nto leyo yayihlala ilandelwa zizicaphucaphu.

Ngalo lonke ixesha kusenzeka, ndandindedwa. Amava onke ayengaqhelekanga kwaye engaqhelekanga kangangokuba ndandithandabuza ukuxelela nabani na ngayo. Ngeliphandle, ndandiziva ngathi ndiyaphambana.

Ukuqonda Ukuba Kukho Ingxaki

Yiza ngoJulayi, ndaqala ukulibala izinto. Ukuba mna nomyeni wam sasincokola kusasa, ndandingakhumbuli ingxubusho yethu ebusuku. Abahlobo kunye namalungu osapho abonise ukuba ndihlala ndiziphindaphinda, ndizisa izihloko kunye neemeko esele sithetha ngazo ubude kwimizuzu okanye iiyure ngaphambili. Ekuphela kwengcaciso enokubakho kuyo yonke imizabalazo yam yenkumbulo entsha? “Iziqendu” ezaziphindaphindeka — nokuba zazisenzeka rhoqo, yayiseyindida kum. Khange ndikwazi ukufumanisa ukuba ndibazisele ntoni okanye ndibeke uhlobo oluthile lwepateni. Ngeli xesha, zazisenzeka ngazo zonke iiyure zemini, yonke imihla, kungakhathaliseki ukuba ndiphi okanye ndenza ntoni na.

Ke, malunga nenyanga emva kokucinywa kwam okokuqala, ndade ndamxelela umyeni wam. Kodwa akuzange kube de wazibonela ngokwakhe ukuba yena-kunye nam-sabuqonda ngokwenene ubunzulu bemeko. Nantsi inkcazo yomyeni wam ngesi siganeko, nanjengoko ndingekakhumbuli esi siganeko: Senzeka ndimi ngakwisinki yethu yokuhlambela. Emva kokundikhwaza izihlandlo ezimbalwa engaphenduli, umyeni wam waya kwigumbi lokuhlambela eyojonga, kodwa wandifumana, amagxa awile, ejonge phantsi engakhange athethe, ebetha imilebe yam njengoko ndandivuza. Uye weza emva kwam wandibamba emagxeni ezama ukundishukumisa. Kodwa ndivele ndawela ezingalweni zakhe, andasabela tu, amehlo am ngoku ebeqhwanyaza engalawulekiyo ngokunjalo.

Yadlula imizuzu ndingekavuki. Kodwa kum, ixesha elihambileyo lavakala ngathi lifiphele.

Ukufunda ukuba bendinokuxhuzula

Ngo-Agasti (malunga neeveki ezimbini kamva), ndaye ndaya kugqirha wam ophambili. Emva kokumxelela ngeempawu zam, wandithumela kwangoko kugqirha wemithambo-luvo, njengoko wayecinga ukuba ezi "ziqendu" kunokwenzeka ukuba zixhuzule.

"Ukuxhuzula? Akukho ndlela," ndasabela ngoko nangoko. Ukuxhuzula kwenzeka xa uthe wawa phantsi kwaye uxhuzula ngelixa ukhupha amagwebu emlonyeni. Andizange ndibone into enje ebomini bam! Ezi mnyama zifana namaphupha wayenayo ukuba yenye into. (Isilumkiso se-Spoiler: babengekho, kodwa andizukufumana ukuxilongwa okuqinisekisiweyo kwezinye iinyanga ezimbini emva kokuba ndigqibile ukudibana nogqirha wemithambo-luvo.)

Okwangoku, i-GP yam yalungisa ukuqonda kwam, icacisa ukuba into endisandula ukuyichaza kukubanjwa kwe-tonic-clonic okanye ukubanjwa okuhle. Ngelixa imeko yokuwa-emva koko ithi qatha engqondweni kubantu abaninzi xa becinga ngokuxhuzula, luhlobo olunye kuphela lokuxhuzula.

Ngokwenkcazo, ukuxhuzula kukuphazamiseka kombane okungalawulekiyo engqondweni, wachaza. Iindidi zokuxhuzula (ezininzi zazo) zohlulwe zibe ziindidi ezimbini ezinkulu: Ukuxhuzula okuqhelekileyo, okuqala kumacala omabini obuchopho, kunye nokuxhuzula okugxile, okuqala kwindawo ethile yobuchopho. Kukho ke iziqwengana ezininzi zokubanjwa — nganye nganye yahlukile kunenye- kudidi ngalunye. Uyakhumbula oko kuthinjwa kwe-tonic-clonic endikuthethileyo nje? Ewe, ezo ziwela phantsi kwesambrela “yokuxhuzula ngokubanzi” kwaye zidla ngokubangela ukuba umntu alahlekelwe ziingqondo ngokuyinxenye okanye ngokupheleleyo, ngokwe-Epilepsy Foundation. Ngexesha lokunye ukuxhuzula, nangona kunjalo, unokuhlala uphaphile kwaye uyazi. Ezinye zibangela iintlungu ezibuhlungu, eziphindaphindayo, ezibalekayo, ngelixa ezinye zibandakanya iimvakalelo ezingaqhelekanga ezinokuchaphazela izivamvo zakho, nokuba kukuva, ukubona, ukungcamla, ukubamba okanye ukuvumba. Ayisiyomdlalo ke lo okanye leya-inene, abanye abantu bafumana ukubanjwa okukodwa, kodwa abanye abantu banokubanjwa ngeendlela ezahlukeneyo ngeendlela ezahlukeneyo, ngokweZiko loLawulo lweZifo noKhuselo (CDC) .

Ngokusekwe kwinto endiye ndabelana ngayo ngeempawu zam, ugqirha wam uthe kusenokwenzeka ukuba ndinohlobo oluthile lokuxhuzula, kodwa kuya kufuneka senze uvavanyo kwaye sibonisane nogqirha wemithambo-luvo ukuze siqiniseke. Undicwangcisele i-electroencephalogram (i-EEG), etsala umbane kwingqondo, kunye nomfanekiso-ngqondweni wemagneti (i-MRI), ebonisa naluphi na utshintsho kulwakhiwo kwingqondo olunokuhambelana noku kubanjwa.

I-EEG yemizuzu engama-30 yabuya yesiqhelo, eyayilindelekile kuba andizange ndibambe ngexesha loviwo. I-MRI, kwelinye icala, ibonise ukuba ihippocampus yam, eyinxalenye ye-lobe yexeshana elawula ukufunda nenkumbulo, yonakele. Le malformation, ngenye indlela eyaziwa ngokuba yi-hippocampal sclerosis, inokukhokelela ekubambeni okugxile, nangona oku akunjalo kumntu wonke.

Ukufunyaniswa Unesifo sokuxhuzula

Kwiinyanga ezimbini ezalandelayo, ndahlala phantsi kwinkcazelo yokuba kukho into engahambi kakuhle engqondweni yam. Okwangoku, into endiyaziyo kukuba i-EEG yam yayiqhelekile, i-MRI yam yabonisa isitenxo, kwaye ngekhe ndiqonde ukuba kuthetha ukuthini oku de ndabona ingcali. Ngelo xesha, ndaxhuzula ngakumbi. Ndihambile ndanosuku olunye ndaya kubaninzi, ngamanye amaxesha ndibuyele umva kwaye ndihlala naphi na phakathi kwemizuzwana engama-30 ukuya kwimizuzu emi-2.

Ingqondo yam yaziva inenkungu, inkumbulo yam yaqhubeka isiba mandundu, yaye xa uAugust eqengqeleka, intetho yam yabethabethabethana. Ukwenza izivakalisi ezisisiseko kufuna onke amandla am kwaye nangoku, ngekhe kuphume njengoko bekucetyiwe. Ndangenelela-ndinovalo lokuthetha ukuze ndingabi sisidenge.

Ngaphandle kokudimazeka ngokweemvakalelo nangokwengqondo, ukuxhuzula kwam kwandichaphazela ngokwasemzimbeni. Bandibangele ukuba ndiwe, ndibethe ngentloko, ndingqubeke kwizinto, kwaye ndizitshise emva kokuba ndiphulukene neengqondo ngexesha elingafanelekanga. Ndayeka ukuqhuba ndisoyika ukuba ndingonzakalisa umntu okanye mna kwaye namhlanje, emva konyaka, andikabuyeli kwisitulo somqhubi.

Ekugqibeleni, ngo-Okthobha, ndaye ndadibana nengcali yemithambo-luvo. Wandihambisa ngeMRI yam, endibonisa indlela imvubu eyayikwicala lasekunene lobuchopho bam ebune ngayo kwaye incinci kakhulu kunale yasekhohlo. Wathi olu hlobo lokungahambi kakuhle lunokubangela ukuxhuzula-Focal Onset Impaired Awareness Seizures, ukuba kanye.Ukuxilongwa ngokubanzi? I-Temporal Lobe Epilepsy (TLE), enokuthi ivele ngaphandle okanye kummandla wangaphakathi welobe yesikhashana, ngokwe-Epilepsy Foundation. Ukusukela ukuba i-hippocampus ibekwe embindini (ngaphakathi) we-lobe yexeshana, bendinengxaki yokuxhuzula okuchaphazele ukwenziwa kweenkumbulo, ulwazi lwendawo, kunye neempendulo zeemvakalelo.

Kusenokwenzeka ukuba ndazalwa ndinengxaki kwihippocampus yam, kodwa ukuxhuzula kwabangelwa yifiva ephezulu kunye nemicimbi yezempilo endandinayo ngaphambili enyakeni, ngokutsho kukagqirha wam. Imikhuhlane yabangela ukuxhuzula njengoko babedume loo nxalenye yengqondo yam, kodwa ukuqala kokuxhuzula kwakunokwenzeka ngenye indlela nangaliphi na ixesha, ngaphandle kwesizathu okanye isilumkiso. Elona khondo lilungileyo lokusebenza wathi yayikukuya kunyango ukuze kuthintelwe ukuxhuzula. Kwakukho ezininzi zokukhetha kuzo, kodwa nganye yeza noluhlu olude lweziphumo ebezingalindelekanga, kubandakanywa iziphene zokuzalwa ukuba ndiza kukhulelwa. Kuba mna nomyeni wam sinezicwangciso zokuqala usapho, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndihambe noLamotrigine, ekuthiwa ngowona ukhuselekileyo. (Idibeneyo: I-FDA ivuma i-CBD-based Drug to Treat Seizures)

Emva koko, ugqirha wam wandazisa ukuba abanye abantu abanesifo sokuwa banokufa ngaphandle kwesizathu-aka ngokungalindelekanga ukufa ngokungalindelekanga (SUDEP). Kwenzeka malunga noku-1 kubo bonke abantu abadala abayi-1 000 abanesathuthwane kwaye kubangela umngcipheko omkhulu kwizigulana ezinesifo sokuwa esinganyangekiyo esiqhubeka nokuba mdala.. Nangona ndingangeni kwezobuchwephesha kweli qela liphezulu lomngcipheko, i-SUDEP ngoyena nobangela wokufa kwabantu abanokuxhuzula okungalawulekiyo, ngokwe-Epilepsy Foundation. Intsingiselo: yayinjalo (kwaye isekhona) ebaluleke kakhulu ukuba ndenze iindlela ezikhuselekileyo nezisebenzayo zokulawula ukuxhuzula kwam-ukubonisana nengcali, ukuthatha amayeza, ukuthintela izinto ezinokubangela, kunye nokunye.

Ngaloo mini, ugqirha wam wemithambo-luvo wandihlutha nelayisenisi yam, esithi andinakuqhuba de ndixhuzulwe kangangeenyanga ezintandathu. Kwakhona wandixelela ukuba ndiphephe ukwenza nantoni na enokundibangela ndixhuzule, equka ukusela utywala obuncinane, nokunciphisa uxinezeleko, ukulala kakhulu nokungawatsibi amayeza. Ngaphandle koko, eyona nto ndingayenza yayikukuphila ubomi obunempilo kunye nethemba lokugqwesa. Malunga nokwenza umthambo? Khange kubonakale ngathi akukho sizathu sokuba ndiyiphephe, ngakumbi kuba inokunceda kumthwalo weemvakalelo wokujongana nokuchongwa kwam, wachaza. (Idibeneyo: Ndiyimpembelelo yoBuchule kunye nokugula okungabonakaliyo okubangela ukuba ndifumane ubunzima)

Indlela Endahlangabezana Ngayo Noxilongo

Kuthathe iinyanga ezintathu ukuba ndiziqhelanise noxinzelelo lwam. Zandenza ndaphelelwa ngamandla, ndacaphuka, ndanenkungu, yaye zandenza ndatshintsha-tshintsha iimvakalelo—zonke ezi ziziphumo ebezingalindelekanga ezixhaphakileyo kodwa zilucelomngeni. Sekunjalo, kwiiveki nje ezimbalwa zokuqalisa amayeza, baqalisa ukusebenza. Ndayeka ukuba nokuxhuzula okuninzi, mhlawumbi ezimbalwa ngeveki, kwaye xa ndenzayo, zazingenamandla kangako. Nanamhlanje, ndineentsuku xa ndiqala ukunqwala edesikeni yam, ndizabalazela ukukhuthaza kunye nokuziva ngathi andikho emzimbeni wam-aka an aura (ewe, unganamava kwakhona ukuba unengxaki ye-ocular migraines). Nangona ezi auras zingaqhubekelanga ekuthinjweni ukusukela ngoFebruwari (🤞🏽), zibalulekile "uphawu lwesilumkiso" sokubanjwa kwaye, yiyo loo nto, indenza ndixhalabe ukuba uyeza-kwaye oko kunokuba nzima ukuba kwaye nini Ndine-10-15 yee-auras ngosuku.

Mhlawumbi elona candelo linzima malunga nokufunyaniswa kunye nokuziqhelanisa nesiqhelo sam, ukuthetha-thetha, kukuxelela abantu ngayo. Ugqirha wam uye wachaza ukuba ukuthetha ngoxilongo lwam kunokundikhulula, singasathethi ke ngokubalulekileyo kwabo bandingqongileyo xa ndinoxhuzula kwaye ndifuna uncedo. Ndakhawuleza ndaqonda ukuba akukho mntu waziyo ngesifo sokuxhuzula — kwaye ukuzama ukucacisa kuyakhathaza, ukutsho nje okuncinci.

"Kodwa awubonakali ugula," abanye abahlobo bandixelela. Abanye babuza ukuba ndikhe ndazama "ukucinga kude" ngokuxhuzula. Eyona nto ingcono, ndaxelelwa ukuba ndifumane intuthuzelo kwinto yokuba "ubuncinci andinalo uhlobo olubi lwesifo sokuwa," ngokungathi kukho naluphi na uhlobo olulungileyo.

Ndafumanisa ukuba ngalo lonke ixesha isifo sam sokuxhuzula siphelelwa ngamandla ngenxa yamazwi namacebiso angaziwayo, ndandiziva ndibuthathaka—kwaye ndandizama ukuhlukana nesi sifo.

Kwafuneka ndisebenze nogqirha kunye nomlinganiselo ophambeneyo wothando nenkxaso ukuze ndiqonde ukuba isigulo sam asikho kwaye akunyanzelekanga ukuba sichaze mna. Kodwa oku akuzange kwenzeke ngobusuku. Ngoko ke, nanini na ndingenamandla ngokweemvakalelo, ndandizama ukuzilungisa ngokwasemzimbeni.

Kuyo yonke imizabalazo yam yezempilo kulo nyaka uphelileyo, ukuya ejimini kwakuthathe isihlalo sangasemva. NgekaJanuwari ka-2020, njengoko inkungu ebangelwe kukuxhuzula yaqala ukucima, ndaye ndagqiba ekubeni ndiqalise ukubaleka kwakhona. Yinto eyandithuthuzela gqitha xa kwafunyaniswa ukuba ndinodandatheko ngoxa ndandikwishumi elivisayo, yaye ndandinethemba lokuba iya kwenza okufanayo ngoku. Kwaye ucinga ntoni? Yenzile-ngapha koko, ukubaleka kuyaphuphuma ngengqondo kunye nezibonelelo zomzimba. Ukuba bekukho usuku apho bendisokola khona ngamazwi am kwaye ndiziva ndineentloni, ndibeke iiteki zam ndaza ndabaleka ndaphuma. Xa ndandinento eyoyikisayo yasebusuku ngenxa yeedigs zam, bendingena kwimayile elandelayo ngosuku olulandelayo. Ukubaleka nje kundenze ndaziva ndibhetele: ndingaphantsi kwesithuthwane nangakumbi ngokwam, umntu olawulayo, onamandla, nonamandla.

Njengomhla kaFebruwari ujikeleze, ndenza uqeqesho lwamandla ukomelela kwaye ndaqala ukusebenza nomqeqeshi kuQeqesho lweGRIT. Ndiqale ngenkqubo yeeveki ezi-6 ebonelela ngeendlela ezintathu zendlela yesekethe ngeveki. Injongo yayikukugcwala okuqhubekayo, okuthetha ukwandisa ubunzima bokusebenza ngokwandisa ivolumu, ubungqongqo kunye nokumelana. (Idibeneyo: 11 IiMpilo eziPhambili kunye neZempilo zoLuntu zokuPhakamisa ubunzima)

Veki nganye bendomelela kwaye bendinokuphakamisa ubunzima. Ukuqala kwam, andizange ndisebenzise i-barbell ebomini bam. Ndingazenza ii-squats ezisibhozo kuphela kwiipawundi ezingama-95 kunye noxinzelelo lweebhentshi ezintlanu ngeepawundi ezingama-55. Emva kweeveki ezintandathu zoqeqesho, ndaphinda kabini i-squat reps yam kwaye ndakwazi ukwenza ii-bench presses ezili-13 kubunzima obufanayo. Ndaziva ndinamandla kwaye oko kwandinika amandla okumelana namahla-ndinyuka emihla ngemihla.

Into endiyifundileyo

Namhlanje, ndiphantse ndaneenyanga ezine ndingaxhuzuli, indenza ndibe ngomnye wabo banethamsanqa. Kukho i-3.4 yezigidi zabantu abaphila nesifo sokuwa e-US, ngokwe-CDC, kwaye kuninzi lwabo, kungathatha iminyaka ukufumana ukuxhuzula kulawuleke. Ngamanye amaxesha, amayeza awasebenzi, apho utyando lobuchopho kunye nezinye iinkqubo zokuhlasela zinokufuneka. Kwabanye, indibaniselwano yamayeza ahlukeneyo kunye needosi ziyafuneka, ezinokuthatha ixesha elide ukuzibona.

Nantso ke into ngesifo sokuwa—sichaphazela wonke umntu. omnye. umntu. ngokwahlukileyo—kwaye imiphumo yako idlulela ngaphaya kokuxhuzula ngokwabo. Xa kuthelekiswa nabantu abadala ngaphandle kwesi sifo, abantu abanesifo sokuwa banamazinga aphezulu okujongana nokungahambi kakuhle (ADHD) kunye noxinzelelo. Emva koko, kukho ibala elihambelana nayo.

Ukubaleka kundenze ndaziva ndingcono: ndingabinasathuthwane nangakumbi nam, umntu olawulayo, okwaziyo, nonamandla.

Ndisafunda ukungazigwebi ngamehlo omnye umntu. Ukuphila nesifo esingabonakaliyo kwenza ke Kunzima ukuyenza. Kwathabatha umsebenzi omninzi ukuze ndingavumeli ukungazi kwabantu kuchaze indlela endivakalelwa ngayo ngam. Kodwa ngoku ndiyazingca ngam kunye nokukwazi kwam ukwenza izinto, ukusuka ekubalekeni ukuya kuhambo lwehlabathi (ubhubhani wangaphambi kwe-coronavirus, ewe) kuba ndiyawazi amandla afunekayo ukuzenza.

Kuwo onke amajoni wam okuxhuzula ngaphandle phaya, ndiyazingca ngokuba yinxalenye yoluntu oluqinileyo nolunenkxaso. Ndiyazi ukuba ukuthetha malunga nokuxilongwa kunzima kakhulu, kodwa kumava am, kunokukhulula. Ayisiyiyo loo nto kuphela, kodwa isisondeze inyathelo elinye ekujongeleni phantsi ukuxhuzula nokuzisa ulwazi ngesigulo. Ke, thetha inyani yakho ukuba unako, kwaye ukuba akunjalo, yazi ukuba awuwedwa kwingxaki yakho.

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