UHunter McGrady Ufumana uMgqatswa malunga nokuThatheyo ukuGcina uMzimba wakhe weNdalo

Umxholo

• Ukwamkela ukuba andinguye uMzekelo woBungakanani oLungileyo
• Ukuwola ubungakanani bam beNdalo
• Iseti Entsha Yemingeni
• Abasetyhini abakhuthazayo ukuba baqhubeke besilwela uTshintsho
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Bendifuna ukuba ngumzekelo ixesha elide ndikhumbula. Umama wam kunye nomakhulu wam bobabini babeyimodeli, kwaye ndandinqwenela ukufana nabo, kodwa ndaxhatshazwa ngephupha lam kwisikolo esiphakamileyo. Yonke imihla, abantu babethetha ngomzimba wam, besithi ndimde kakhulu, andimhle ngokwaneleyo, andibhityanga ngokwaneleyo, kwaye andinakuze ndikwenze kwihlabathi lokumodela nokuba ndizame kangakanani.

Ngaphandle kweminyaka yokuzabalaza nomzimba wam kunye nobukhulu bendalo, ekugqibeleni, ndiye ndangqina ukuba ayilunganga ngokuba yimodeli esekiweyo yobukhulu bokongeza. Kodwa ekukhuleni kwam, andizange ndicinge ukuba le yayiyindlela endiya kuyithatha umsebenzi wam.

Andizange ndaziwa ngokuba "yintombazana enkulu." Enyanisweni, bendiyinto abantu abaninzi abacinga ukuba "i-skinny." Kwiimitha ezintandathu ubude, bendinobunzima obumalunga neepawundi ezili-114.

Ukwamkela ukuba andinguye uMzekelo woBungakanani oLungileyo

Abo ndifunda nabo baqhubeka nokuhlekisa ngokuhlekisa ngenkangeleko yam kunye neminqweno yam, kwaye ekugqibeleni, kwafuneka ndifundiswe amakhaya kuba ukungcungcuthekiswa kwaba yinto enganyamezelekiyo.

Sekunjalo, ekhaya, ndandicaphukela into endiyibonayo xa ndizijonga esipilini. Ndikhethe iziphene, ndizikhumbuza ukuba andilunganga ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndingamkelwa ngoogxa endifunda nabo okanye ishishini lokumodela. Ndadandatheka kakhulu ndaza ndanexhala elinzima malunga nobunzima bam kunye nento endiyityayo. Ndidlisiwe yilento abanye bayicingayo ngomzimba wam.

Nangona kunjalo, bendisafuna ukulingana nokubumba ukuba imodeli efanelekileyo ijongeka njani, kwaye bendisazimisele ukuqhubeka nokusukela iphupha lam nokuba lithatha ntoni.

Ukunyamezela kwakhokelela ekumiseni i-gig yam yokuqala xa ndandineminyaka eyi-16. Kodwa nangolo suku lokuqala kuseto, ulindelo lwalucacile: Kwakufuneka ndiqhubeke nokunciphisa umzimba ukuba ndiza kuphumelela.

Xa uyintombazana ekwishumi elivisayo, ufana nesiponji. Zonke izinto ozivayo zithethwa ngawe, uyakholelwa. Ke ndibeke yonke imizamo yam ekuzameni ukulahla iiponti ezingaphezulu. Kum, oko kwakuthetha ukutya kancinci, ukwenza izixa eziphambeneyo ze-cardio kunye nayo nayiphi na enye into eya kundinika umzimba 'ogqibeleleyo' ukuba ndibe yimodeli ephumelelayo.

Kodwa indlela endandiphila ngayo yayingazinzanga. Ekugqibeleni kwada kwafikelela kwinqanaba apho izinto ezazithethwa ngabanye ngam zaqalisa ukundichaphazela emzimbeni, ngokweemvakalelo nangazo zonke iindlela.

Ilitye elingezantsi lafika nje emva konyaka emva kwaloo "khefu" lokuqala kwimodeli. Ngaphandle kwayo yonke imizamo yam yokulingana nokubumba okuthile, ndaxelelwa ukuba ndishiye iseti kuba khange baqonde ukuba "ndikhulu" kangakanani. Kodwa ndandisele ndizibulala kwindawo yokuzivocavoca, ndingatyi nokutya kwaye ndenza konke okusemandleni am ukuba ndimncinci. Ngaloo mini, xa ndandihamba ngeenyembezi, ndandiqonda ukuba kukho into ekufuneka itshintshe.

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Emva kwaloo mava achazayo, ndazi ukuba ndifuna uncedo lokutshintsha indlela endicinga ngayo. Ngoko ndabhenela kunyango lokundixhobisa ngamandla angokweemvakalelo nobuchule endibudingayo ukuze ndizive ndiphile qete kwakhona.

Ndijonga emva ngelo xesha ebomini bam kwaye ndiziva ukuba ukufumana uncedo yayilinyathelo lokuqala kwindlela elungileyo yokufunda ukuba ndimhle kwaye "ndanele" njengokuba ndinjalo. Ndafunda ukubaluleka kokuvula iimvakalelo zakho, ngakumbi njengomntu omdala oselula, nokusebenza kuyo yonke intlungu yakho kunye nokungakhuseleki kwindawo ekhuselekileyo nelawulwayo. Yiloo nto ekhokelele kum imibutho yenkxaso efana ne-JED isiseko, i-non-ngeniso enceda ulutsha ukuba lujongane nokujongana nokudakumba, ixhala, kunye neengcinga zokuzibulala ngendlela ephilileyo neyokwakhayo. Ngokusebenzisana nezikolo eziphakamileyo kunye neekholeji, isiseko sidala iinkqubo zokuthintela ukuzibulala kunye neenkqubo ezinceda ulutsha ukuba lukwazi ukumelana neengxaki zempilo yengqondo kunye nokusetyenziswa gwenxa kweziyobisi.

Emva kokucinga kakhulu kunye nokuqeqesha, ndiye ndaqala kancinci ukufunda ukuba andidingi kutshintsha indlela endijonge ngayo kwihlabathi liphela, ukuba nje bendonwabile ukuba ndingubani njengomntu. Kodwa oko kuqonda akuzange kwenzeke ngobusuku.

Ukuqala, kuye kwafuneka ndithathe ikhefu kwimodeli kuba ukwenza nantoni na egxile kakhulu kubuhle nje yayingeyonto ilungileyo ukuyenza kwimpilo yam yengqondo. Ngapha koko, ukuphiliswa kumonakalo obangelwe kuko konke ukuxhatshazwa kunye nokuhlaziswa komzimba kuthathe iminyaka. (Ukunyaniseka, yinto eseyinto yomzabalazo ngamanye amaxesha.)

Ndathi ndisiba neminyaka eli-19 ubudala, ndandisele ndikwindawo ebhetele ngokweemvakalelo, kodwa ndandivakalelwa kukuba laliphelile ithuba lokuba ndifezekise iphupha lam lokuba yimodeli ephumelelayo. Ndandithathe iminyaka eliqela ndiphumile kwaye ngelo xesha, umzimba wam wawutshintshile. Ndineehips, ii-boobs, kunye nee-curves kwaye bendingeseyiyo intombazana encinci eyi-114 yeepawundi ethi, incinci njengoko inokuba njalo, isengekho ncinci ngokwaneleyo kumzi-mveliso ongumzekelo othe ngqo. Ndingathini na ukuwenza ngalo mzimba mtsha; umzimba wam wokwenyani? (Idibeneyo: Lo Instagrammer Ukwabelana Kutheni kubaluleke kangaka ukuthanda umzimba wakho njengoko unjalo)

Kodwa ndiye ndeva malunga ne-plus-size modeling. Yazi, ngelo xesha, kwakungekho bantu baphumeleleyo kwiimodeli zabasetyhini abanjengoAshley Graham noDenise Bidot ababebonisa amagophe abo kwiimagazini nakumajelo onxibelelwano onke. Ingcamango yokuba unokuba mkhulu kunezibini ezimbini kwaye ube ngumzekelo wawumangalisa ngokwenene kum. Imodeli eyongezelelekileyo imele yonke into endiyisebenze nzima ukuyikholelwa ngam: ukuba bendimhle, ndifanelekile, kwaye ndiwufanelekele lo msebenzi, nokuba unjani umgangatho wobuhle woluntu. (Ujonge ukomeleza ukuzithemba? Aba bafazi baya kukukhuthaza ukuba uwuthande umzimba wakho, njengoko bethanda owabo.)

Xa ndeva ukuba uWilhelmina wayejonge ukutyikitya iimodeli ezinobungakanani obukhulu, ndaqonda ukuba kufuneka ndiyidubule. Andisokuze ndikulibale ukuhamba kuloo minyango, kwaye okokuqala ngqa, andizange ndixelelwe ukuba ndinciphise umzimba. Ndandigqibelele kanye ngalendlela ndandiyiyo. Bandityikitya kuloo ndawo, kwaye ndiyakhumbula ndibaleka ndisiya ezantsi, ndingena kwisitulo sabakhweli semoto kamama kwaye zehla iinyembezi. Yaziva inamandla okuba ekugqibeleni yamkelwe kwaye yamkelwe ngaphandle kokutshintsha kwanto.

Iseti Entsha Yemingeni

Ukutyhubela iminyaka, ndiye ndafunda ukuba nakweli candelo leshishini lemodeli alikho ngaphandle kweekona zalo ezimnyama.

Uninzi lwabantu luyathanda ukucinga ukuba ukuba yimodeli yobukhulu bokudibanisa, unokwenza nantoni na oyifunayo. Ingcinga kukuba sitya into esiyithandayo, musa ukusebenza ngaphandle, kunye ne-DGAF malunga nokuba sijongeka njani. Kodwa akunjalo.

Ukuhlazeka komzimba kunye nolindelo olungeyonyani zizinto ezenzeka mihla le kum kunye nezinye iimodeli ezinobungakanani obudibeneyo. Umzi-mveliso usalindele ukuba ndibe 'ngogqibeleleyo' ubungakanani be-14 okanye ubungakanani be-16 -ngoko, ndithetha ukuba ndinomzimba ofanelekileyo kunye nomlinganiso, nokuba umzimba wakho awudalelwanga ukuba ubenjalo. (Jonga: Kutheni ukuhlazeka komzimba kuyingxaki enkulu kangaka kunye nento onokuyenza ukuyinqanda).

Ke kukho inyani yokuba uninzi loluntu alukhange lubonakale lulungele imodeli engalinganiyo ukuba ibe semaphephancwadi okanye kwiTV. Xa ndikumcimbi we Imidlalo eboniswe, Ndifumana amagqabantshintshi afana nala, "Akukho nto iyimodeli-ngale ntombazana", "Andikholelwa ukuba usemagazini", "Ukuba angaba ngumzekelo, nabani na onako," - uluhlu luyaqhubeka.

Uninzi lwala magqabantshintshi luvela kwimbono ephosakeleyo yokuba iimodeli ezinobungakanani obudibeneyo azinampilo kwaye ngenxa yoko azifanelanga ukubonwa zintle. Kodwa inyani yile, ndiyawazi umzimba wam, kwaye ndiyayazi impilo yam. Ndisebenza yonke imihla; Nditya impilo enempilo ixesha elininzi; izibalo zam zezempilo ziqhelekile, kwaye enyanisweni, ngcono xa kuthelekiswa naxa ndandineminyaka eyi-16 kwaye ndibhityile kaloliwe. Kodwa andisiva isidingo sokuchaza okanye ukuthethelela oku nakubani na.

Ukuba kukho nantoni na endiyifundileyo kwishishini lemodeli kunye nokuva zonke ezi zimvo zingalunganga, kukuba abantu abaninzi bacwangciselwe ukulwa notshintsho. Nangona kunjalo, kufuneka sitshintshe ezi ngcinga ukuze zivele. Amagqabaza anentiyo sisizathu esingakumbi sokuba abafazi beemilo ezahlukeneyo kunye nobukhulu ukuba bazibeke ngaphandle kwaye babonwe kwaye baxatyiswe.

Abasetyhini abakhuthazayo ukuba baqhubeke besilwela uTshintsho

Okwangoku, andinakonwaba ngakumbi ngomsebenzi wam. Kutshanje, ndiye ndaxelelwa ukuba bendiyeyona modeli igobileyo yobabalo kumaphepha e Ezemidlalo zinemizobo-Kuye yinto endiyibambeleyo kwaye ndiyithandayo entliziyweni yam. Abasetyhini bazama ukufikelela kum yonke imihla ukuba bandixelele indlela abanombulelo ngayo okanye amandla abaziva ngawo xa bevula imagazini kwaye babone umntu onjengam; umntu abanokumazi.

Ngelixa sivela kude, kusathatha ukupapashwa okunje SI ukufaka abasetyhini beemilo ezahlukeneyo kunye nobukhulu kwiindlela zabo zokusasazeka ukuze bakhuthaze ezinye iimpawu eziphawulekayo kunye noshicilelo ukuba lulandele. Kuyadabukisa, kodwa abasetyhini abangalingani ngokuthe tye basajongene nemiqobo emikhulu. Umzekelo, andikwazi ukuhamba nje nakweyiphi na ivenkile kwiFifth Avenue kwaye ndilindele ukuba abayili baphathe ubungakanani bam. Uninzi lweempawu eziphambili aziqapheli ukuba ziyaphoswa yipesenti enkulu yabathengi baseMelika, abalingana nobukhulu be-16 okanye ngaphezulu. (Inxulumene: Imodeli yoMzingeli uMcGrady usandula ukumilisela i-Sexy, eQhelekileyo yokuThengisa iiSwinear Collection)

Nangona kunxunguphalisa, sithatha inyathelo ngenyathelo, kwaye abafazi bayangxola kunangaphambili. Ndiyakholelwa ukuba ukuba siqhubeka nokuzilwela, kwaye sizingqina ukuba sivunyelwe ukuba silapha, siya kufikelela kwinqanaba lokwamkelwa kokwenyani. Ekupheleni kosuku, wonke umntu ufuna ukuziva amkelekile, kwaye ukuba ndiyakwazi ukwenzela umntu oko, umsebenzi wam ngumsebenzi owenziwe kakuhle kwincwadi yam.

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