Ndathi Andisoze Ndilubaleke IMarathon—Nasi Isizathu Sokuba Ndenze

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Abantu abaninzi bayathandabuza ukuzibiza ngokuba ziimbaleki. Abakhawulezi ngokwaneleyo, baya kuthi; abaleki ngokwaneleyo. Ndandidla ngokuvuma. Ndacinga ukuba iimbaleki zazalwa ngale ndlela, kwaye njengomntu ongazange abaleke ngaphandle kokuba kufuneka, bekubonakala ngathi kuqhuba umthambo (okanye -khefu! -Fun) wawungekho kwi-DNA yam. (Joyina uMceli mngeni wokuSebenza kweentsuku ezingama-30 ukuze ubaleke ngokukhawuleza, wandise ukunyamezela kwakho, nangaphezulu.)

Kodwa ndicinga ukuba ndinentambo yokukhangela imiceli mngeni, kwaye ndisebenza ngokugqibeleleyo phantsi koxinzelelo. Kangangona bendikonwabela ubulungu bam beClassPass, benditshiswe kukutsiba-tsiba ukusuka estudio ukuya kwisitudiyo ndingenanjongo yokwenyani engqondweni. Ngoko phakathi ku-Epreli kunyaka ophelileyo, ndabhalisela i-10K. Andizange ndibaleke ngaphezulu kweekhilomitha ezintathu ebomini bam bonke (kwaye ezo yayiziimayile ze-sloooow kuloo nto), ke ukuzama ukuwuphinda kabini umgama wam kwimpelaveki yokuqala kaJuni ndaziva ndikhulu kakhulu. Kwaye ndiyenzile! Kwakungekho usuku oluhle lomdyarho lwalushushu ngobushushu, iinyawo zam zibuhlungu, ndifuna ukuhamba, kwaye ndacinga ukuba ndingaphosa ekugqibeleni. Kodwa ndaziva ndinelunda ngokuba ndizibekele le njongo kwaye ndayilandela.

Andiphelelanga apho. Ndibeka izinto zam kwisiqingatha semarathon ngo-Okthobha. Ebudeni kolo gqatso, umhlobo endandibaleka naye wandixelela ukuba ucinga ukuba ndingawubamba umdyarho olandelayo. Ndayihleka, ndathi, ngokuqinisekileyo-kodwa kuba mna unako ayithethi mna funa ukuya.

Ndandingafuni kuba ndandingaziboni ndingumgijimi. Kwaye ukuba andiziva njengembaleki, ndingazityhala njani ukuba ndibaleke ixesha elide okanye loo freakin ikude? Ngokuqinisekileyo, ndibaleke, kodwa iimbaleki endizaziyo zikhethe ukuyenza ngexesha labo lokuphumla kuba ziyonwabele. Ukubaleka akumnandi kum. OK, ayithethi ukuba andikhe ndonwabe xa ndibaleka. Kodwa ayisiyiyo loo nto ndiyenza. Ndibaleka kuba yenye yeendlela ezimbalwa zokufumana uxolo ndedwa kwisixeko esinabantu abangaphezu kwezigidi ezisibhozo. Kwangaxeshanye, iye yandinceda ndafumana iqela labahlobo abandikhuthazayo xa ndingakwazi ukuzikhuthaza. Ndiyabaleka kuba inceda ukugcina uxinezeleko olungapheliyo; kuba sisixhobo soxinzelelo esakha phakathi evekini yomsebenzi. Ndiyabaleka kuba ndiyakwazi ukuhamba ngokukhawuleza, ukomelela, ixesha elide. Kwaye ndiyayithanda indlela endiziva ngayo ngalo lonke ixesha ndicinga ngesantya okanye ixesha endingazange ndilenze ngaphambili kwaye ndilityumze.

Emva kolo gqatso, ndaqhubeka nokubaleka. Kwaye ngamanye amaxesha phakathi kokugqiba isiqingatha sesibini somdyarho ngoNovemba kunye nokucinezela ugqatso lokugqibela ngo-2015 ku-Eva woNyaka oMtsha, ndiye ndaqonda ukuba andiphelelanga nje ekubeni ndiqalisile ukujonga phambili kwimidyarho yam, bendibanqwenela.

NgoJanuwari, bendifumana i-antsy ngaphandle kwenjongo ethile yokusebenza kuyo. Emva koko ndanikwa ithuba lokubaleka iBoston Marathon. IBoston Marathon kuphela komdyarho endikhe ndanomdla kuwo-ingakumbi ngaphambi kokuba ndiqalise ukubaleka. Ndaya kwikholeji eBoston. Iminyaka emithathu, bendibhiyozela iMarathon ngoMvulo ndihleli kwi-grate ephakanyisiweyo kwisitrato iBeacon, ndivuyelela iimbaleki noodadewethu abakhohlakeleyo. Emva phaya, andizange, ndakha ndacinga ukuba ndingaba kwelinye icala le-barricade. Xa ndatyikitya, ndandingaqinisekanga nokuba ndingakwazi ukufikelela kwinqanaba lokugqibela. Kodwa iBoston Marathon yinxalenye yembali yam, kwaye oku kungandinika ithuba lokuba yinxalenye yembali yomdyarho. Kwafuneka ukuba okungenani ndiyinike umfanekiso.

Ndithathe uqeqesho lwam nzulu-bendiyinto entsha yokufumana ithuba lokubaleka lolunye lolona hlanga ludumileyo kweli lizwe, kwaye bendingafuni ukuyenza. Oko kwakuthetha ukukhama kwimisebenzi yasemva kokuphela komsebenzi ngo-8: 30 ebusuku. (kuba nokuba uqeqesho lwe-marathon alunakundiguqula ndenze umthambo wakusasa), ukuyeka ukusela ngolwesiHlanu ebusuku ukuba andifuni kuva ubunzima besisu ngokungathandekiyo ngexesha lam lokuqhuba ixesha langoMgqibelo, ndincame ukuya kuthi ga kwiiyure ezine zexesha elinokubakho brunch ngeMigqibelo uthe (loo suuuucked). Kwakukho imitsi emifutshane xa imilenze yam yayingathi ilothe, imitsi emide apho ndandixinene yonke imayile. Iinyawo zam zazikhangeleka ngathi ziintsini, kwaye ndaye ndatyhafiswa ziindawo ekungafuneki ukuba umntu azive enomsindo. (Bona: Yintoni ebaleka iMarathon eyiyo Ngokwenyani kuMzimba wakho.) Kwakukho amaxesha apho ndandifuna ukuyeka imayile enye ukubaleka, kwaye namaxesha apho ndandifuna ukutsiba ngokupheleleyo.

Kodwa ngaphandle kwayo yonke loo nto, bendiyonwabela le nkqubo. Bendingazokusebenzisa igama elithi "F", kodwa yonke imayile endiyongezisileyo kwimigca yam emide kunye nemizuzwana ndiyichebile isantya sam bendithetha ukuba bendifaka ii-PRs ezintsha kwirej, ebintle kakhulu. Ngubani ongayithandiyo loo mvakalelo yokufezekiswa? Ke xa bendinosuku olungelulo, khange ndivume ukuphuma. Bendingafuni ukuziyeka phantsi-hayi ngalo mzuzu, kwaye kungengosuku lomdyarho. (Nazi izinto ezili-17 onokuzilindela xa uqhuba iMarathon yakho yokuqala.)

Andazi ukuba yandicofa nini; bekungekho "aha!" umzuzu. Kodwa ndiyimbaleki. Ndaba yimbaleki kudala, ndabuya xa ndiqala ukudibanisa iiteki zam ndaza ndagqiba kwelokuba ndibaleke-nokuba andikuqondanga ngoko. Ukuba uyabaleka, uyimbaleki. Ilula njengoko kunjalo. Akukonwabisi kum, kodwa kuninzi kakhulu. Iyaxhobisa, iyadinisa, icela umngeni, iyanxunguphalisa, iyakhathaza-ngamanye amaxesha yonke ingaphakathi kwimayile enye.

Andizange ndicinge ukuba ndingabaleka iimayile ezingama-26.2. Khange ndicinge nokuba ndingakwazi. Kodwa xa ndiyekile ukukhathazeka malunga nento endenze ukuba ndibaleke kwaye ndijolise nje eneneni ukubaleka, ndamangaliswa yinto endikwaziyo ukuyenza ngokwenene. Ndibaleka imarathon kuba bendingacingi ukuba ndingakwazi, kwaye bendifuna ukuzibonakalisa ukuba ndiphosakele. Ndiyigqibile ukubonisa abanye abantu ukuba bangoyiki ukuyiqala. Hee, inokuba iyonwabisa.

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