Unokucinga ukuba ndikhangeleka ndisempilweni kwaye ndilungile, kodwa ngokwenyani ndihlala nesifo esingabonakaliyo

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• Ukuthatha izinto ngezandla zam

Ukuba uskrolela kwiakhawunti yam ye-Instagram okanye ubukele iividiyo zam zeYouTube, unokucinga ukuba "ndingomnye wala mantombazana" ahlala elungile kwaye esempilweni. Ndinamandla apheleleyo, ndinokukwenza ubile ngaphandle kwesixhobo, kwaye ujongeke ulungile kwaye uneetoni. Akukho ndlela ndinokuba nesifo esingabonakaliyo, akunjalo?

Iimpawu zaqala kakuhle. Ukuqaqanjelwa yintloko maxa wambi, ukuqhina, ukudinwa, nangaphezulu. Ekuqaleni, oogqirha babecinga nje ukuba ziihormone. Ndandineminyaka eli-11 ubudala kwaye ndikwishumi elivisayo, ngenxa yoko zonke ezi mpawu zazibonakala “ziqhelekile.”

Kwakungekade iinwele zam ziwe kwaye zonke ezinye iimpawu ziye zanda ukuba oogqirha baqala ukuyithatha ngokungathí sina. Emva kwemijikelo eliqela yovavanyo lwegazi, ekugqibeleni ndafunyaniswa ndine-autoimmune hypothyroidism, okanye iHashimoto's thyroiditis.

Ngokusisiseko, oku kukudumba kwedlala lengqula elibangelwa yinxalenye yenkqubo yomzimba yokuzikhusela. Iimpawu zibandakanya ezi zikhankanywe apha ngasentla, kunye noluhlu lokuhlanjwa kwezinye, njengokufumana ubunzima, ukusokola ukunciphisa umzimba, iintlungu ezidibeneyo kunye nezihlunu, isikhumba esomileyo, uxinzelelo kunye nobunzima bokukhulelwa, ukubiza nje ezimbalwa.

Njengentombazana ekwishumi elivisayo, ndaza kamva ndaba ngumfundi wasekholejini, andizange ndizikhathalele uninzi lweempawu zam. Kodwa umzabalazo wam kunye nobunzima bekuhlala kubonakala ngokucacileyo (ubuncinci kum). Yanyuka yenyuka isisi-10 ukuya kwi-20 iiponti rhoqo kwiinyanga ezimbalwa.

Njengoko unokuthelekelela, oku kuchaphazele nezinye iindawo zobomi bam. Ngexesha lokuthweswa isidanga, ndandingoyena mntu unzima endakha ndaziva kwaye ndiziva blah ngokupheleleyo.

Njengokuba ubunzima bam benyuka, ngokunjalo nokungaqiniseki kwam. Ndasokola nokuzithemba kwaye ndaqhubeka nokusebenzisa imeko yam njengesizathu sendlela endiziva ngayo, ngaphakathi nangaphandle.

Andizange ndikhe ndiyeke ukucinga ngendlela ukutya endikufaka emzimbeni wam okusichaphazela ngayo isigulo sam. Oogqirha khange bathethe ngoku. Kwakufana nokuthi, "Thatha la mayeza kwaye uzive ungcono, Kulungile?" Kodwa kwakungalunganga. Ngokwenyani andizange ndive ngathi iyeza lam lenza nantoni na, kodwa kwakhona, ndicinga ukuba yinto eqhelekileyo leyo.

Ukuthatha izinto ngezandla zam

Ndiqale ukwenza uphando oluninzi, ndithetha noogqirha abatsha, kwaye ndifunda ukuba ukutya kunye nokuzilolonga kuchaphazele njani iihomoni zam, amajoni omzimba, kunye nokusebenza ngokubanzi. Bendingazi ukuba ukutshintsha indlela enditya ngayo kuya kunceda ngenene, kodwa ndicinge ukuba kufanelekile kunokuba kukutya okukhawulezayo kunye neziselo ezineswekile endinazo rhoqo.

Ukutshintsha into endiyityileyo kwakubonakala njengeyona ndawo yokuqala. Ndikuthandile ukupheka, ke beku malunga nokufunda ukuyila kwaye ndenze izitya zam ezingaphantsi kwezempilo zisempilweni.

Ukusebenza ngaphandle kwakungumzabalazo. Ndandihlala ndidiniwe. Kwakunzima ukufumana amandla kunye nenkuthazo yokwenza umthambo. Kwaye ndinesizathu esakhelwe ngaphakathi, ke yayiyimeko yokulahleka ixesha elide.

Ndenze utshintsho oluncinci, kwaye ekugqibeleni ndaqala ukongeza umthambo rhoqo kwindlela yesiqhelo. Akukho nto iphambeneyo njengeenkqubo zobudenge ebendizamile kwaye ndasilela kuzo ngaphambili. Ndandihamba, ndibaleka, kwaye ndenza ukuzilolonga ekhaya. Kwiinyanga ezintandathu kamva, ndandilahle iiponti ezingama-45.

Ukwehla kobunzima kwakulungile! Ndandineminyaka engama-23, ndingatshatanga, kwaye ndikulungele ukuzithemba, kodwa kwakungaphezulu koko. Okwesihlandlo sokuqala ebomini bam, ndandingaziva ndidiniwe yonke imihla. Ndandinamandla ngakumbi, ndandingaguli rhoqo kwiiveki ezimbalwa, kwaye ndandingafumani kubukrakra beempawu njengakuqala.

Kwiminyaka esixhenxe eyadlulayo, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiyeke ukuzithethelela ndize ndizenzele eyona nto iphambili. Ngoku, ndingumqeqeshi wobuqu, umqeqeshi weqela lokuqina komzimba, umbhali we "Isikhokelo sokuShukuma komzimba eshushu," kunye nempilo entle endakha ndayo.

Oko akutsho ukuba andinayo ingxaki nangona kunjalo. Ndiyavuma. Uninzi lwabantu alunakuyazi, kodwa zikhona iintsuku endilala ngazo iiyure ezilithoba kwaye ndiziva ngathi ndidiniwe ngokungachazekiyo. Ngokwenene ndisajongana neempawu ezininzi, kwinqanaba elincinci kakhulu.

Kodwa ndenza nokukhetha yonke imihla. Ndikhetha ukungavumeli i-autoimmune hypothyroidism indiyeke ndiphile obona bomi bumnandi, kwaye ndinethemba lokukhuthaza abanye abantu basetyhini ukuba benze okufanayo!

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