IiTattoos zam zibhala kwakhona ibali lam lokugula ngengqondo

Umxholo

• Into entle yokufihla izinto ezingalunganga
• Ukuphuma kwiyunifomu

Impilo kunye nokuphila kakuhle kuchaphazela ubomi bomntu wonke ngokwahlukileyo. Eli libali lomntu omnye.

Iitattoos: Abanye abantu bayabathanda, abanye abantu bayabacaphukela. Wonke umntu unelungelo kwezakhe izimvo, kwaye nangona bendineendlela ezininzi ezahlukeneyo malunga neetattoos zam, ndibathanda kakhulu.

Ndinengxaki yokuphazamiseka engqondweni, kodwa andikaze ndisebenzise igama elithi “umzabalazo.” Oko kuthetha ukuba ndiyaphulukana nedabi - ngokuqinisekileyo andilo! Ndijongene nokugula ngengqondo iminyaka eli-10 ngoku, kwaye okwangoku ndiqhuba iphepha le-Instagram elizinikele ekupheliseni ibala emva kwempilo yengqondo. Impilo yam yathamba xa ndandineminyaka eyi-14, kwaye emva kwexesha lokuzenzakalisa kunye nengxaki yokutya, ndafuna uncedo xa ndandineminyaka eyi-18. Kwaye yayiyeyona nto intle endakha ndayenza.

Ndineetattoos ezingaphezu kwama-50. Uninzi lunentsingiselo yobuqu. (Ezinye azinantsingiselo-ekubhekiseni kwiklip yephepha engalweni yam!). Kum, ii-tatoo ziluhlobo lobugcisa, kwaye ndinamacatshulwa amaninzi anentsingiselo ukunceda ukuzikhumbuza ukuba sele ndihambile.

Ndiqale ukwenza iitattoo xa ndandineminyaka eyi-17, unyaka ngaphambi kokuba ndifune uncedo kwisigulo sam sengqondo. I tattoo yam yokuqala ayithethi nto kwaphela. Ndingathanda ukuthetha ukuba kuthetha lukhulu, kwaye intsingiselo esemva kwayo isuka entliziyweni kwaye intle, kodwa ayizukuba yinyani leyo. Ndiyifumene kuba ibikhangeleka ipholile. Luphawu loxolo esihlahleni sam, kwaye emva phaya, bendingenawo umnqweno wokufumana ngaphezulu.

Emva koko, ukuzenzakalisa kwam kwathatha indawo.

Ukuzenzakalisa kwakuyinxalenye yobomi bam ukusukela kwiminyaka eyi-15 ukuya kweyi-22. Nge-18 ngokukodwa, yayiyinto enomdla kakhulu. Iziyobisi. Bendizenzakalisa ngokwasenkolweni busuku ngabunye, kwaye ukuba bendingenako nangasiphi na isizathu, bendiya kuba noloyiko olomeleleyo. Ukuzenzakalisa akuthathanga kuphela umzimba wam. Yathatha ubomi bam.

Into entle yokufihla izinto ezingalunganga

Ndandigutyungelwe zizikrelemnqa, kwaye ndandifuna ukuzigquma. Hayi ngenxa yokuba ndandinamahloni nangayiphi na indlela malunga nexesha lam elidlulileyo kunye nento eyenzekileyo, kodwa isikhumbuzi esiqhubekayo sendlela yokubandezeleka kunye noxinzelelo endandinalo. Ndifuna into entle yokufihla into engalunganga.

Ke, ngo-2013, ndazigquma ingalo yasekhohlo. Kwaye kwakukhululekile. Ndilile ngexesha lenkqubo, hayi ngenxa yentlungu. Kwakungathi zonke iinkumbulo zam ezimbi zaye zanyamalala phambi kwamehlo am. Ndaziva ndinoxolo lokwenene. I tattoo ziiroses ezintathu ezimele usapho lwam: umama, utata, kunye nodadewethu omncinci. Isicatshulwa, "Ubomi asikokuqhelisela," sibajikeleze ngeribhoni.

Isicatshulwa sidluliselwe kusapho lwam kwizizukulwana. Ngutatomkhulu wam owathetha loo nto kumama, kwaye umalume wam naye wayibhala kwincwadi yakhe yomtshato. Umama utsho njalo. Ndazi nje ukuba ndifuna ukuba nayo ngokusisigxina emzimbeni wam.

Kuba bendichithe iminyaka ndifihla iingalo zam ebantwini, bendinexhala lokuba abantu bazakucinga ntoni okanye bathini, kwakukhathaza ngokupheleleyo ekuqaleni. Kodwa, ngombulelo, umculi wam we tattoo wayengumhlobo. Undincede ndaziva ndizolile, ndikhululekile kwaye ndikhululekile. Kwakungekho ncoko ingathandekiyo malunga nokuba amabala avela phi okanye kutheni babelapho. Yayiyimeko egqibeleleyo.

Ukuphuma kwiyunifomu

Ingalo yam yasekunene yayiseyimbi. Imilenze yam yayinamanxeba, kunye namaqatha. Kwaye kuya kusiba nzima ukuwugquma umzimba wam ngalo lonke ixesha. Ndandihlala kwiblazer emhlophe. Yaba yingubo yam yokuthuthuzela. Bendingazukuyishiya indlu ngaphandle kwayo, kwaye bendiyinxiba ngayo yonke into.

Yayiyiyunifomu yam, kwaye ndandiyithiyile.

Ehlotyeni kwakushushu, kwaye abantu babendibuza ukuba kutheni ndihlala ndinxibe imikhono emide. Ndathabatha uhambo oluya eCarlifonia kunye neqabane lam, uJames, kwaye ndanxiba iblazer ngalo lonke ixesha ngaphandle kwexhala lokuba abantu bathini. Kwakushushu kushushu, kwaye phantse kwaba nzima kakhulu ukukuthwala. Andinakuphila ngoluhlobo, ndihlala ndizifihlile.

Oku yayikukutshintsha kwam.

Ukufika kwam ekhaya, ndazilahla kude zonke izixhobo endandizisebenzisa ukuzenzakalisa. Andisekho ngengubo yam yokhuseleko, inkqubo yam yasebusuku. Ekuqaleni kwakunzima. Bendinokuphakuzela egumbini lam ndilile. Kodwa ke ndabona iblazer kwaye ndakhumbula ukuba kutheni ndisenza le nto: bendisenzela ikamva lam.

Iminyaka idlulile amanxeba am ayaphola. Ekugqibeleni, ngo-2016, ndakwazi ukuyifihla ingalo yam yasekunene. Yayingumzuzu oguqukayo, notshintsha ubomi, kwaye ndalila lonke ixesha. Kodwa ukugqiba kwayo, ndazijonga esipilini ndancuma. Ihambile le ntombazana ibisoyika ebomi bayo buxhomekeke ekuzenzakaliseni. Esikhundleni sakhe yayilijoni elalizithembileyo, elalisinda kwisaqhwithi esinzima.

I tattoo ngamabhabhathane amathathu, ngesicatshulwa esithi, "Iinkwenkwezi azinakukhanya ngaphandle kobumnyama." Ngenxa yokuba abanako.

Kufuneka sithathe iirhabaxa ngokugudileyo. Njengoko uDolly Parton odumileyo esitsho, "Akukho mvula, akukho rainbow."

Ndanxiba isikipa okokuqala kwiminyaka esixhenxe, kwaye kwakungekho shushu ngaphandle. Ndiphume kwigumbi lokugcina itattoo, ndanxiba idyasi ngesandla, ndaza ndawola umoya obandayo osezingalweni zam. Kwakukudala eza.

Kwabo bacinga ngokwenza umvambo, sukucinga ukuba kuya kufuneka ufumane into enentsingiselo. Fumana nantoni na oyifunayo. Akukho mithetho yokuba uphila njani ubomi bakho. Andizange ndizenzakalise kwiminyaka emibini, kwaye iitattoo zam zisenamandla njengangaphambili.

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