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Ndandinomzimba otyebileyo okoko bendikhumbula, nangona ndijonga ngasemva, ubunzima bam abuzange buqale ukuphuma kulawulo kude kuye ekholejini. Nangona kunjalo, bendihlala ndingumntu omncinci kunabaninzi kwaye ngelixa ndisazi ukuba wonke umntwana uthathwa malunga nento ethile, amanxeba ayenzulu ukusuka kwindlela endandihlekwa ngayo ngenxa yobunzima bam kubo bonke ubuntwana bam.

Ukuqala kwam ekholejini, yayilixesha lokuqala ndilawula ukwenza zonke izigqibo malunga nento endiyityileyo kunye nento endiyenzayo ngexesha lam lokuphumla, kwaye kulapho izinto zaqala ukutyibilika ngaphandle kokulawula. Ndayeka kude nesikali ngoko ke andinakutsho ngokuqinisekileyo, kodwa ngela minyaka mithathu yokuqala yekholeji ndibeka kwindawo ethile phakathi kwama-50 nama-70 eepawundi, ndinciphisa isikali malunga neepawundi ezingama-250.

Ndazibonela ngawam amehlo ukutyeba okunokubakho kwimpilo kabani xa utata ehlaselwa sisifo sentliziyo eneminyaka engama-40 ubudala, kwaye kwafunyaniswa ukuba ndinesifo seswekile sohlobo II, uxinzelelo lwegazi oluphezulu, icholesterol ephezulu, kunye ne-apnea yokulala, zonke ezihambelana nokutyeba kakhulu. Ndandisazi ukuba ndikwindlela efanayo ukuba ndiqhubeka nemikhwa endandiyiphuhlise kwikholeji, kwaye ndandingafuni ukuba mna okanye ikamva lam.

Ndigqibe kwelokuba ndiyitshintshe kube kanye ngoMatshi 3, 2009, xa ndandijoyina abaThotyi boBunzima ndaza ndatshintsha ubomi bam kakuhle. Kuthathe ixesha elide ukuphulukana neepawundi ezingama-58 endandizishiyile xa ndandijoyina okokugqibela, kodwa xa ndicinga ngokucinga ukuba inkqubela phambili ecothayo ibifuneka ukuze ndikwazi ukwenza utshintsho kwindlela yokuphila kunye nokwenza imikhwa eya kuthi intonga.

Elona candelo linzima kum kokubini ukunciphisa umzimba kwaye ngoku ukugcina ubunzima bam kukumodareyitha. Ndandihlala ndiyazi into endifanele ndiyitye, kodwa ulawulo lwesahlulo lwalungekho kwihlabathi lam bangaphambi kokujonga ubunzima, okanye ukumodareyitha nangayiphi na indlela. Ndingaba nditya amaphiko, ipitsa, kunye ne-nachos, okanye ndizame ukungatyi nantoni na ngaphandle kwempilo de ndityibilika, ndizithathe njengoyisakeleyo, kwaye nditshone kwimikhwa emibi kwakhona.

Kuhambo lwam lonke, esinye sezona zifundo zibalulekileyo endisifundileyo kukuba ukuhla kunye nokuwa kwindlela akunakuphepheka kwaye kuya kuqhubeka ukwenzeka. Andichazwa ngama-slip ups kwaye ndithathwa njengongaphumeleli okanye umntu ombi; Mna endaweni yoko ndichazwa yindlela endibuyisa ngayo kwaye ndifunde kula mava.

Ndicinga ukuba eyona nto indothusileyo eye yehla ekunciphiseni ubunzima ayikhange ibe yindlela enditshintshe ngayo ngaphandle - yile nto bendisazi ukuba iza kwenzeka xa nditshintsha iindlela zam. Endaweni yoko, ibukungakanani into endiyenzileyo ngaphakathi kwaye ndikwazile ukubeka phambili mna kunye neemfuno zam. Andizange ndikhe ndizibeke kwindawo yokuqala okanye ndenze ixesha ngento ekufuneka ndiyenzile, kwaye indenze andakwazi ukunika abanye. Ndingoyena mntu ubalaseleyo kum xa ndisitya kamnandi, ndenza umthambo, kwaye ndithatha ixesha "lokundibonisa" ukuze ndibonakalise kwaye nditshone entloko kuqala ebomini obunempilo, noluthando lwam olutsha.

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