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• Ngo-6: 30 kusasa.
• Ngo-7: 30 kusasa.
• Ngo-9: 00 kusasa.
• 9:08 kusasa.
• Ngo-10: 00 ekuseni
• Ngo-11: 00 kusasa
• 11:05 kusasa.
• Ngo-12: 00 emva kwemini
• 1:00 pm
• 1:15 pm
• 2:00 pm
• Ngo-4: 00 emva kwemini.
• Ngo-5: 00 emva kwemini.
• Ngo-5: 30 emva kwemini.
• Ngo-6: 00–9: 00 emva kwemini.
• Ngo-9: 05 emva kwemini.

Ndinamakhwenkwe amathathu, yonke loo nto imalunga neminyaka emibini ngokwahlukana. Namhlanje, baneminyaka esi-7, 5, kunye no-3 ubudala. Ngaphambi kokuba ndibenomdala wam, ndandingazange ndikhe ndibe nosana ngaphambili, kwaye ndandingazi ukuba ndilindele ntoni. Bendisazi ukuba uya kuba ngumongikazi malunga neeyure ezimbini. Bendisazi ukuba uzokuma kwaye achame kakhulu. Ngaphandle kwalonto, ndiye ndaqonda ukuba uzolala. Bathi abantwana abasandul 'ukuzalwa balala kakhulu… akunjalo? Ndacinga ukuba ndizakuphela ndimphosa nje ngokujija kwaye ndiqhubeke nobomi bam. Mhlawumbi ndingade ndibenexesha lokwenza uqeqesho lomsebenzi wePilates ukuze "ndibuyise umzimba wam."

Oku akwenzeki.

Ngo-6: 30 kusasa.

Ndivuka kulomntana endi whimpering kwi crook yengalo yam. Ndiye ndalala ndingu nurse kwakhona. Ayisiyonto inkulu leyo, kuba besisazi ukuba siyolala kunye kwaye siqiniseke ukuba sinendawo ekhuselekileyo yokulala. Umntwana uBlaise uthathelwe kwi-boob yam yasekhohlo iphelelwe lubisi. Ndikhuphe i-boob yam yasekunene, ndayifaka ngapha nangapha, ndambeka. Uqala ukuncanca ngokwanelisayo. Siphinde salala sobabini.

Ngo-7: 30 kusasa.

Kwenzeka into efanayo kwakhona! Ngaphandle kweBlaise ubukhulu becala iyazibhuqa kwaye andikaze ndilibeke ibele lam kwihempe yam. Akukho namnye kuthi ovuka ngokupheleleyo. Kudala sikwenza oku ubuninzi bobusuku. Ndacinga ukuba iintsana bekungafanelekanga ukuba zilale, kodwa le nto yokulala nge-boob kuthi sobabini sifumana iiyure ezilithoba eziqinileyo.

Ngo-9: 00 kusasa.

Ngoku uvukile. Ndiyamncancisa kwakhona ngasekunene ukuze ndibone ukuba ndingaphambanisa na eminye imizuzu embalwa yokulala ngaphandle kwakhe, kodwa ufuna ukuba itshintshwe ilweyile. Ndincamathisela zombini iboobs kwihempe yam ndize ndiyikhwelise kwitafile etshintsha. Oku kubuhlungu ukuthungwa kwam ezantsi phaya. I-poop inomdla, inamathele, kwaye ingaphezulu kunokuba ndicinga ukuba umntu omncinci angayivelisa. Ndisebenzisa iipesenti ezininzi kakhulu kuba akukho ndlela ixhaphakileyo ndifumana ukungcangcazela kwabantu esandleni sam.

9:08 kusasa.

UBlaise uvukile, kodwa akafuni kubekwa phantsi. Ndizisongele ngokusongelwa yiMoby ndize ndimncamathisele ngaphakathi, apho ahlala khona anelisekile njengoko ndirhabula isidlo sakusasa, ndizama ukungaphalazi naliphi na icereal entlokweni yakhe. Ndiyasilela. Kuyabanda. Unempandla. Uyabhomboloza. Ke ngoku ndimi ngeenyawo, ndibhampisa kwaye nditshintsha. Le asiyondlela ndiqhele ukutya ngayo iiCheerios zam.

Ngo-10: 00 ekuseni

Ukuvala kunye nokubhampisa akusebenzi ngokufanelekileyo. Kuya kufuneka ndimkhuphe kwi-Moby Wrap, ndizikhuphele ngokwam, ndilande umqamelo weBoppy, ndifumane iremote yeTV, kwaye ekugqibeleni ndimxhase umntwana. Wakhala kwangoko. Uncancisa ibele elinye, emva koko elinye. Ndibukele isiqephu esipheleleyo se "The X-Files." Uye alale. Oku kuhle kakhulu kunokuba ndicinga ukuba kuya kuba njalo.

Ngo-11: 00 kusasa

Lixesha le-diaper kwakhona. Oku kuhle kakhulu kunokuba ndicinga. Kwaye khange nditshintshe nje ilweyile lakhe elixakayo? Andiqhelanga ukuba yile ndibone omnye umntu. Ulala ngokutshintsha kwe-diaper. Wayenokulala ngebhombu yeatom ukuba wayenemvakalelo elungileyo.

11:05 kusasa.

Ndimbuyisele kwiMobr Wrap kwaye ndizame ukwenza umsebenzi wasekhaya. Uvuka ngokufutshane, emva koko abuye aphume kwakhona. Ezinye iimpahla zisongiwe. Igumbi lokuhlambela licinyiwe. Akufanelekanga ukuba ndenza nantoni na yale nto kuba ndingaphantsi kweveki emva kokubeleka. Kodwa, uyazi, iindwendwe.

Ngo-12: 00 emva kwemini

U-Blaise uvuka kwi-Moby kwaye uqala ukubetha nje ngelixesha ndihleli phantsi ndithwele isikhafu ezinye iicookies ezinesipho somntwana sasemini. Akukho mntu weza nokutya okusebenzayo, njenge-lasagna. Yayingamakuki kunye neekeyiki. I-WTF, abantu? Ndilahle ii-cookies ukuze nditshintshe usana, kwakhona, ndiphume ke uBoppy, kwakhona, ndihlale esofeni, kwakhona, ukuze ndikwazi ukuncancisa umntwana kuwo omabini amabele. Kwakhona. Ndacinga ukuba ndizakufuna ezo zinto zingamanyala uziqinisa kwi-bra yakho ukuze ndikukhumbuze ukuba leliphi ibele oqale ngalo ukugqibela. Hayi. I-boob ekufanele ukuba ndiyisebenzise idumbile njengebhaluni yesekisi. Elinye licacisiwe. Ndiyakhathazeka ndizakujongeka ngoluhlobo ngalo lonke ixesha lokufumana kwam ubunesi.

1:00 pm

Ndizama ukuhlamba, kuba uvukile kwaye wonwabile. Ndigqibezela ukukhupha amanzi ashushu, ibampu ye-shampoo ebhabha, ukuthuthuzela usana olunomsindo. Ndimgungqa ze ze ndangena kwigumbi lokuhlambela, ndathambisa iinwele zam, ndamgungqa eze ze kumgangatho wegumbi lokuhlambela, imeko, kwaye ndimyeke akhwaze ngelixesha ndivayo. Ndivakalelwa ngathi ndiphalaze umaleko wesikhumba esimdaka kakhulu.

1:15 pm

Umntwana unomsindo kakhulu. Ndiyamfunqula ndimkrwitsha ukuya kwigumbi lokulala, ndafika ndachopha ebhedini ndamncancisa. Andazihluphi ngetawuli. Andazi ukuba kutheni, kodwa bendisoloko ndicinga ukuba ukuba ngumama kuya kubandakanya iitawuli.

2:00 pm

Ndisengumongikazi. Sobabini sidinga ukulala kancinci emva kwengozi yokuhlamba. Ndiyakhukuliseka, nangona ndiyazi ukuba ndiza kuba nentlekele yenwele ezandleni zam xa ndivuka. Ndiqonda ngokupheleleyo ukuba akusekho mntu usikhathaleleyo. Kwaye ukucinga ukuba ndicinga ngokufaka izithambiso namhlanje.

Ngo-4: 00 emva kwemini.

Umyeni wam, uBhele, ubuya ekhaya evela kufundiso. Uluqokelela umntwana kwaye enze ubuso, kuba uBlaise ucofe kakuhle. Kwaye emva kosuku olupheleleyo, lo ngowakhe.

Ngo-5: 00 emva kwemini.

Ndiyangcungcutheka, ke uBhele undenzela ukutya okwenyani ngelixa ndimi ekhitshini (kunye noBlaise kwi-Moby Wrap) kwaye ndithethe naye malunga nosuku oluzele ngabantu abanganyanzelekanga.

Ngo-5: 30 emva kwemini.

Ubambe uBlaise ngelixa mna ndityhala ukutya kokwenene. Ibandakanya amaqela okutya kwaye ifuna izinto zokutya. Andibambi mntwana. Ukonwaba.

Ngo-6: 00–9: 00 emva kwemini.

Blaise iqela labongikazi. Ndihlala esofeni kwaye ndifunda ngelixa etshintsha ngokuthe ngcembe ukusuka kwelinye ibhogi ukuya kwelinye. Oku mhlawumbi kokona kulungileyo, kuba iinxalenye zam zamantombazana zisemlilweni. Eli lixesha lokuba mna noBhele siqhele ukuya kudla isidlo sangokuhlwa. Ndiyayikhumbula loo nto, kwaye ndiqala ukukhala. "Ingaba izakuba njani ngoku?" Ndifuna. "Ngaba ndiza kubotshwa esofeni iiyure kunye neeyure kunye neeyure rhoqo ebusuku?" Kanye ngelo xesha, uyema aze abuthongo alale.

Ngo-9: 05 emva kwemini.

Sitshintsha i-diaper yakhe nge-gingerly. Uhlala elele. Sambeka kwi-swing yakhe kwaye sayifaka phezulu. Oku kuyakusithengela ubuncinci iiyure ezimbini zexesha labantu abadala. Sisebenzisa ukuhlala esofeni. Singabazali iveki enye, kwaye sele sisiqhwala.

Kwiiveki ezimbini emva kokubeleka umntwana wam wokuqala, ndandisoloko ndidiniwe. Khange ndifumane ngokwaneleyo ukutya. Ndivakalelwa ngathi kufuneka ndicoce iindwendwe. Ngeentsana zam ezimbini ezizayo, bendiqinisekile ukufumana uncedo olungakumbi- okanye ubuncinci ukwenza umyeni wam athathe ikhefu lokuba ngutata. Ndazihlalela ebhedini, apho ndingowakhona, kwaye ndazama ukwenza nto ngaphandle kokonga umntwana. Ndicebisa kakhulu ukuba nawuphina umama obeleke emva kokubeleka enze into efanayo.

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