Iimvakalelo Zam Zindibangela Intlungu Yomzimba

Umxholo

• Ukubamba fokanye ukuxilongwa kuye kwandishiya ndikhangela
• Unxibelelwano lwengqondo yomzimba luyinyani
• Ukujongana nempilo yam yengqondo kwandinceda ndaphilisa
• Ekugqibeleni, ndinombulelo ngento endiyifundileyo ngempilo yam

Ngenye imva kwemini, xa ndandingumama omncinci ndinosana kunye nosana nje oluneeveki ezimbalwa ubudala, isandla sam sasekunene saqala ukurhawuzelela xa ndibeka impahla. Ndizamile ukuyikhupha engqondweni yam, kodwa ukurhawuzelela kwaqhubeka imini yonke.

Iintsuku zahamba, kwaye ngakumbi ingqalelo ndayihlawula i-tingling-kwaye ngakumbi ndaqala ukukhathazeka malunga nesizathu sayo esibi-ngakumbi ukungakhathali kokuziva kwaba. Emva kweveki okanye kunjalo, ukurhawuzelela kwaqala ukusasazeka. Ngoku ndiyivile kunyawo lwam lwasekunene.

Kungabanga thuba lide, yayingekuko ukurhawuzelela nje. Idrama, iintloni zemisipha ezijijekileyo zatsiba phantsi kolusu lwam njengokuhluthwa, ukubuyisa imitya yepiyano. Ngamanye amaxesha, i-zaps zombane zandiwisa imilenze. Kwaye, okona kubi ngaphezu kwako konke, ndaqala ukuva iintlungu ezinzulu, neziqaqambayo zemisipha kuwo onke amalungu omzimba afika kwaye ahamba ngendlela engacingelwanga njengexesha lesithonga somntwana wam.

Njengokuba iimpawu zam zisiya zisanda, ndaqalisa ukoyika. I-hypochondria yobomi bam bonke yatyatyamba yaba yinto egxile ngakumbi kunye nomlo - into engafaniyo nenkxalabo kwaye ifana nokuthanda. Ndijonge i-intanethi ngeempendulo zezinto ezinokubangela olu luhlu lungaqhelekanga lweziganeko zomzimba. Ngaba yayiyi-multiple sclerosis? Okanye ngaba i-ALS?

Inxalenye enkulu yomhla wam, kunye namandla am engqondo, azinikele ekubambeni ngezizathu ezinokubangela le micimbi yomzimba ingaqhelekanga.

Ukubamba fokanye ukuxilongwa kuye kwandishiya ndikhangela

Ewe ndaye ndaya kwagqirha wam. Kwingcebiso yakhe, ndathi ngokufanelekileyo ndenza idinga lokubonana nengcali yemithambo-luvo, eyayingenangcaciso ngam kwaye yandithumela kugqirha wamathambo. I-rheumatologist ichithe imizuzu emi-3 nam ngaphambi kokubhengeza ngokuqinisekileyo ukuba nantoni na endinayo, kwakungekho kwinqanaba lakhe lokusebenza.

Ngeli xesha, iintlungu zam ziyaqhubeka, zingenakupheliswa, kungekho ngcaciso. Iimvavanyo ezininzi zegazi, ukuskena kunye neenkqubo zabuya zisiqhelo. Lilonke, ndaye ndagqiba ukutyelela iingcali ezisithoba, akukho namnye kubo owayenokuthi achaze unobangela weempawu zam- kwaye akukho namnye kubo owayebonakala ethanda ukwenza umzamo omkhulu kulo msebenzi.

Okokugqibela, umongikazi wandixelela ukuba, xa kungekho bungqina buqinisekileyo, uya kuthi iimpawu zam yi-fibromyalgia. Undithumele ekhaya ndineyeza likagqirha sisiyobisi esisetyenziswa ukunyanga le meko.

Ndishiye igumbi lokuvavanywa liphanzisiwe, kodwa ndingakulungelanga ukukholelwa oku. Ndandifunde malunga neempawu, iimpawu, kunye noonobangela be-fibromyalgia, kwaye le meko ayikhange inyaniseke kumava am.

Unxibelelwano lwengqondo yomzimba luyinyani

Ngaphakathi emazantsi entliziyo, ndandisele ndiqalisile ukuziva ukuba nangona iimpawu zam zazinamandla emzimbeni, mhlawumbi aziveli. Emva kwayo yonke loo nto, ndandingaboni ukuba zonke iziphumo zovavanyo zibonisa ukuba ndingumfazi "osempilweni".

Uphando lwam lwe-Intanethi lundikhokelele ekufumaneni ilizwe elingaziwayo lamayeza omzimba wengqondo. Ngoku ndikrokrela ukuba umba osemva kwentlungu yam engaqhelekanga, inokuba yimvakalelo yam.

Kwakungalahlekanga kum, umzekelo, ukuba ukuthanda kwam iimpawu zam kwakubonakala ngathi kubangela umlilo, kwaye babeqale ngexesha loxinzelelo olukhulu. Ayisiyo kuphela ukuba bendikhathalele abantwana ababini ecaleni kokungalali, bendiphulukene nomsebenzi othembisayo ngokwenza njalo.

Ngapha koko, bendisazi ukuba kukho imicimbi engapheliyo yeemvakalelo zam zangaphambili endandizitshayela phantsi kombhoxo iminyaka.

Okukhona ndifunda malunga noxinzelelo, unxunguphalo, kunye nomsindo ekude ubonakalisile kwiimpawu zomzimba, kokukhona ndazibona.

Uluvo lokuba iimvakalelo ezingalunganga zinokubangela iimpawu zomzimba ayisiyiyo woo-woo kuphela. Zininzi ukuqinisekisa le meko.

Kuyadida kwaye kuyaphazamisa ukuba, kubo bonke oogqirha kugxininiso kubuchwephesha obusekwe kubungqina, akukho namnye kubo owake waphakamisa olu nxibelelwano. Ukuba nje babenazo, ngesele ndisindisiwe iinyanga zentlungu kunye nokukhathazeka - kwaye ndiqinisekile ukuba ngekhe ndiyeke ukubathiya oogqirha abandikhathazayo nanamhlanje.

Ukujongana nempilo yam yengqondo kwandinceda ndaphilisa

Xa ndiqala ukunikela ingqalelo kwiimvakalelo zam ngokunxulumene nentlungu yam, iipateni zavela. Nangona kunqabile ukuba ndifumane iziqendu zentlungu phakathi kwemeko enoxinzelelo olukhulu, bendisoloko ndisiva iziphumo ngosuku olulandelayo. Ngamanye amaxesha, ukulindela nje into engathandekiyo okanye ukuvelisa uxinzelelo kwakwanele ukukhuthaza iintlungu ezingalweni nasemilenzeni.

Ndithathe isigqibo sokuba lixesha lokuba ndijongane nentlungu yam engapheliyo ngokwembono yomzimba wengqondo, ndiye ndaya kunyangi owandincedayo ukuba ndibone imithombo yoxinzelelo kunye nomsindo ebomini bam. Ndabhala ndaza ndacamngca. Ndifunde yonke incwadi yengqondo-yokuhlangana komzimba kunye nempilo endinokufumana izandla zam kuyo. Kwaye ndathetha kwakhona kwintlungu yam, ndiyixela ukuba ayinakundibamba, ukuba yayingeyokwenyama, kodwa yayinemvakalelo.

Ngokuthe ngcembe, njengoko bendisebenzisa la maqhinga (kunye nokuphucula amanyathelo athile okuzikhathalela kwam), iimpawu zam zaqala ukwehla.

Ndiyabulela ukuthi ndikhululekile kwiintlungu ezingama-90 zexesha. Kule mihla, xa ndifumana ipang yokubalisa, ndingahlala ndikhomba kwisishukumisi esivelayo.

Ndiyazi ukuba isenokuvakala ingenakwenzeka kwaye ingaqhelekanga, kodwa ukuba kukho into endiyifundileyo, kukuba uxinzelelo lusebenza ngeendlela ezingaqondakaliyo.

Ekugqibeleni, ndinombulelo ngento endiyifundileyo ngempilo yam

Njengoko ndicinga ngeenyanga ezili-18 zobomi bam endizichithe ndileqa iimpendulo zonyango, ndiyabona ukuba elo xesha lalisebenza njani njengemfundo ebalulekileyo.

Nangona bendiziva ndihluthwa rhoqo kwaye ndigqitha ngababoneleli bezonyango, ukunqongophala kokuzibandakanya kwandiguqula ndaba ngummeli wam. Undithumelele ukuntywila ngamandla ngakumbi ekufuneni iimpendulo eziyinyani mna, nokuba banokulingana omnye umntu.

Ukutshintsha indlela yam esempilweni kwavula ingqondo yam kwiindlela ezintsha zokuphilisa kwaye kwandenza ndanakho ukuthembela kakhulu emathunjini am. Ndiyabulela ngezi zifundo.

Kwabaguli endikunye nabo kwimfihlelo yezonyango ndithetha oku: Qhubeka ukhangela. Nika intuition yakho. Musa ukunikezela. Xa usiba ngummeli wakho, usenokukufumanisa ukwangumphilisi wakho.

USarah Garone, NDTR, yingcali yezondlo, umbhali wezempilo ozimeleyo kunye nebhlog yokutya. Uhlala nomyeni wakhe kunye nabantwana abathathu eMesa, eArizona. Fumanana nokwabelana ngolwazi lwezempilo kunye nolwasemhlabeni kunye (ikakhulu) neendlela zokupheka ezinempilo e- Ileta yothando eya kukutya.