Yintoni eyenzekileyo xa ndizilinganisile okokuqala kwiminyaka emi-3

Umxholo

• Inyaniso iyakukhulula.
• Ulwazi ngamandla.
• Kwaye isikali siye Ngaphantsi amandla.
• Uphengululo lwe

Uloyiko lwam lwesikali lunzulu kangangokuba lundithumele kunyango. Ingcinga yokubona inani elinenombolo yile ndlela, indlela ngaphezulu kunoko kuthathwa "kulungile" ngugqirha wam okanye nangaliphi na inqaku "lokufumana ubunzima bakho obusempilweni" -ndenza ndifune iXanax (okanye ezintathu). Ndandihlala ndizibuza ukuba ingaba ndivele ndaphinda ndawabeka kwakhona amanqanaba am kancinci kangako, ndinika umbono wobuxoki wokuba bendisithi, iikhilogram ezingama-20 zilula, ukuba ingayenza inkohliso. Ndabuza ugqirha wam malunga neli qhinga kwaye walibeka kumgca: Andoyiki isikali-ndisekukhanyeleni nje okunzulu. Ukuphika ukuba ubunzima bam bebusoloko buthambile okoko intombi yam yazalwa ngaphezulu kweminyaka emibini edlulileyo. Ukukhanyela ukuba kufuneka ndithathe uxanduva lweekhalori ezingaphezulu endizisebenzisayo xa ndihlangabezana nokutya okunexinzelelo.

Ndikugubungele oku okwexeshana. Iinyanga, ukunyaniseka. Kwaye emva koko umyeni wam kunye nam samenywa kuhambo olude lweveki. Khange sihlale kude nentombi yethu ngaphezulu kobusuku obuthathu okoko wazalwa kwaye elifuna kakhulu ixesha yedwa lokuphinda aqhagamshele kwaye aphumle. Ngombulelo abazali bam khange bathandabuze nokuba bavume ukumbukela kule veki. Kwaye khange sithandabuze ukuqala ukubhekisa kolu hambo njengeholide yesibini.

Kodwa xa ndandivula ikhabethe lam ukuze ndijonge iindlela zam zokunxiba zeholide, ihoneymoon yayisele iphelile (kwaye sasingayi kuphinda siqhube enye inyanga). Ukulungisa ikhabethe lezinto eziphezulu kwiitanki, iibhulukhwe ezimfutshane, iisuti zokuhlamba kunye ne-sundresses iveki yonke waziva uxinezelekile kunokuzala, ukuhamba, kunye nokukhangela umsebenzi omtsha odibeneyo. Ndidinga ukuziva ndonwabile ngam kwaye ndingacingi ukuba wonke umntu enqanaweni uya kugweba umzimba wam. Ndandisazi ukuba andinakuyenza loo nto ngaphandle kwesikali sokundikhokela kwiiveki ezingaphambi kohambo.

Ke, ndiye evenkileni ndathenga isikali. Eyokugqibela endandinayo yaqhekeka kwiminyaka eyadlulayo, kwaye andizange ndizikhathaze ngokutshintsha enye. Ndikhuphe isikali ngaphandle kwebhokisi ndasibeka ecaleni kwebhedi yam apho ihleli khona iintsuku ezimbalwa. Kwafuneka ndibuqhele ubukho bayo. Ukwazi nje ukuba ikhona, undilindile, wandinyanzela ukuba ndiyeke ndizibuze ukuba bendifuna ntoni qho xa ndivula ifriji-ukutya okanye intuthuzelo? Emva kokuma iintsuku ezintathu, ndanyathela isikali. Ndangqengqa ngathi izokuqhuma kwaye ndivale amehlo am ngokuqinileyo. Ngoku, ukulungiselela lo mkhwa, ndizinike uluhlu lwamanani. Eyona iphakamileyo yayihlekisa kancinci (sithetha ngemeko apho kuya kufuneka ndikhutshelwe ngaphandle kwebhedi), kodwa yanceda kuba into endayibonayo yayingabonakali imbi. Ewe, ibiphezulu kakhulu kunaleyo bendifuna ukuba kuyo, kodwa ngoku bendinokuwahlutha amandla ayo. Nasi isizathu, kwaye endikufundileyo.

Inyaniso iyakukhulula.

Ukutya kwam kuyahluka mihla le. Ngezinye iintsuku nditya ukutya okucocekileyo (okanye ubuncinci ndicinga ukuba ndenza njalo) kwaye ndinqunqe iikhabhohayidi kunye nokutya okucutshungulwayo: amaqanda kwisidlo sakusasa, isaladi kunye nenkukhu ngesidlo sasemini, kunye neprotein / veggie combo kwisidlo sangokuhlwa. Kwezinye iintsuku andihoyi ngqalelo kwiikhalori okanye izithako kwaye nditye kuphela into endiyinqwenelayo-ehlala i-pizza kunye neenkukhu zenkukhu endizihlangule ngaphambi kokuba intombi yam iphose phantsi. Ngenye imini ijean yam ilingana kakuhle kwaye ezinye zixinene kangangokuba andikwazi kuphefumla. Ngamanye amaxesha ndiza kuphosa ngokukhawuleza i-cardio sesh ukuchasana neentsuku "ezimbi". Eyona nto kukuba, bendingenangqondo yokwenyani yokusebenza nokuba yintoni eyayindibuyisela umva kuba andikhange ndiyilandele inkqubela yam. Ewe, iijean ezixineneyo luphawu olukhulu lokuba mhlawumbi lixesha lokunciphisa emva kwam emva kwemini ze-mocha latte-kodwa isikali siyandinceda kwakamsinya. Iintsuku ezimbalwa zethafa elilandelwa kukunyuka kweepounds kuthetha ukuba kufuneka nditshintshele kwiti ye-iced ngaphambi kokuba i-lattes ibonakale phakathi kwam. Ndiqale ukucinga ngesikali njengomhlobo onyanisekileyo okhohlakeleyo onika uthando olunzima andifuni ukuluva-kodwa ndiyazi ukuba ndiyaludinga. Ngoku xa ndiphulukana neponti, ndiziva ngathi isikali siyangcangcazela kum, ngokungathi sithi, "Ndikufumene, ntombazana."

Ulwazi ngamandla.

Bathetha ukuba ukungazi kuyonwaba-kodwa ukufikelela kubunzima bam nanini na xa ndifuna kube sisixhobo esiyimfihlo esingalindelekanga. Ndiyindlovukazi yomdlalo wokusola-ubunzima bam buphelile ngenxa yokuba umsebenzi uphambene, kuba bendinexhala ngento eyenzekayo ekhaya, kuba bendigula. Ipateni kukugxeka ubunzima bam kuyo nayiphi na into kodwa endikutyileyo. Kwaye ngenxa yokuba ndandingangeni esikalini, ezi zizathu zajika zaba yinyaniso (engqondweni yam) kuba ndandingathathi nawaphi na amanyathelo okulungisa izibakala. Ngoku ndiza esikalini ubuncinci kube kanye ngeveki, ngesiquphe izizathu ziyekile. Ndinolwazi-olufana nokonyuka kweponti kuba ndikhethe ukuba ne-pizza endaweni yesaladi. Ndehla ngeponti ngenxa yokuzilolonga endizibophelele kulo kunye nokutya okulungeleleneyo endikwenzileyo. Ukunyathela esikalini kuvala izizathu ngaphambi kokuba bathathe indawo.

Kwaye isikali siye Ngaphantsi amandla.

Ndandisoyika kakhulu ukuba isikali siza kuyiphazamisa ngokupheleleyo imeko yam ngalo lonke ixesha ndingayithandi loo nombolo. Kodwa kuyacaca ukuba ukuyiphepha lonke eli xesha kuyinike nje Kaninzi amandla. Ngoku ukuba ndijamelene noloyiko lwam, ndityebe kakhulu kunobunzima bam, kwaye andivumeli isikali sindichaze. Kule veki nje, ndinyathele kwisikali kwaye yayingamaponti ambalwa ngaphezulu kunokuba ndingathanda. Kodwa, ndisebenze i-18 kwiintsuku ezili-18 ezidlulileyo kwaye ndingangena kwi-jean yam "yesikhumba" kuba ndiyanyusa. Kwaye, ndikwazile ukupheka isidlo sangokuhlwa ezintlanu kobusuku obusixhenxe obudlulileyo ngelixa ndisebenza oko kuvakala ngathi ziiyure ezingama-24 kwaye ndihoye intombi yam eneminyaka emi-2 ekhuthele kakhulu kwaye enomdla. Phew. Ndiyakwazi ukubeka into endiyibonileyo ecaleni ngelixa ndigxile kwaye ndibhiyozele ubomi bam. Ndingayeka ukucinga malunga nokuba leliphi inani nqwenela Ndabona kuba nantsi into entle yesikali: ayisiyiyo into yexesha elinye. Ndingazicel 'umngeni kule veki ukuba mhlawumbi ndingatya isidlo esinye okanye ndisele enye iglasi yewayini, emva koko ndikhangele phambili kulokho esikuthethayo kwixesha elizayo xa ndinyathela. Utshintsho lwengqondo-lokuba ndinamandla ngaphezulu kwesikali kwaye hayi enye indlela ejikelezileyo-ndikhululeke ngokumangalisayo.

Kwaye ukuba uya kundivumela ukuba ndibe lilize kancinane okwesibini, ndiye ndafunda ukuba inani elikwisikali alinanto yakwenza nendlela endiziva ngayo malunga nenkangeleko yam. Nanini na xa ndivuthela iinwele zam okanye ndixhokonxa izihlangu ezintsha ezishushu-ndiziva ngathi uKate wothukile u-Upton, kwaye akukho nani linokususa kum. Ngelixa isikali singandinceda ukuba ndiphendule ngemikhwa yam, ayinakuyalela ukuba ndiziva ndonwabile, ndikhuselekile, ndiqinisekile kwaye ndimhle kakhulu.

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