Kutheni ndikuthanda ukubaleka, Nokuba isantya sam siCotha

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I-app ye-Nike kwifowuni yam, endiyisebenzisayo ukulandelela ukubaleka kwam, icela ukuba ndilinganise nganye xa ndigqibile kwisikali esithi "Ndaziva ndingenakunqandeka!" (ubuso obuncumayo!) ukuya ku "Ndonzakele" (ubuso obulusizi). Ukurola kwimbali yam, ndiyabona amahla ndinyuka kumgama, ixesha, isantya, kunye nokulinganisa kunyaka ophelileyo, kunye nendlela ezinxibelelana ngayo (okanye ezinganxibelelaniyo, njengoko kunjalo njalo). Ukulungiselela umdyarho ozayo wesiqingatha esizayo, kutshanje ndiye ndakhangela emva kuyo yonke imitsi yam yoqeqesho ende kwaye khange ndimangaliswe kukufumanisa ukuba ukuhamba kwam ngokukhawuleza bekunganyanzelekanga ukuba kunxibelelane noncumo, kwaye nokucotha akuzange kudibane neefrown.

Into yile, ndiyazi ukuba andingobaleki ngokukhawuleza ... kwaye kulungile kum. Nangona ndiyaluthanda ugqatso lwendlela-ababukeli abachwayitileyo, ukuhlalisana nabanye abathathi-nxaxheba, uchulumanco lokuwela umgca wokugqibela-ulonwabo lwam emva kogqatso alunanto yakwenza nokuba ndiyifumene okanye hayi iPR. Kungenxa yokuba andibaleki ukuphumelela, nokuba ukuphumelela kuthetha ukuzibetha. (Ukuba ndenze njalo, ngendandincamile ngoku.) Ndikwenza oko ukuze ndigcine umzimba wam womelele nengqondo yam icacile, kuba yeyona ndlela ilula nengabizi kakhulu yokuzilolonga, nangenxa yokuba emva kobuntwana nokufikisa kokukuthiya. ukubaleka, ndiye ndabona ebudaleni-kungekho titshala wokuzivocavoca ephethe isitophuwashi okanye umqeqeshi ekhwaza ecaleni-ukuba ndifumana uvuyo kwisingqi sokucamngca sokubeka inyawo elinye phambi kwelinye kunye noqeqesho lokulandela isicwangciso soqeqesho. (Yenye yezinto ezingama-30 esizixabisayo malunga nokubaleka.)

Oko akutsho ukuba ukuhamba kwam okungahambelaniyo, okufana ne-turtle ngamanye amaxesha akukhathazi. Kuhambo lwakutsha nje eCarlifonia, umyeni wam uthathe isigqibo sokudibana nam sibaleka ekuseni elunxwemeni. Saqala ngapha nangapha, kodwa emva kwesiqingatha semayile okanye njalo, ndandisithi ufuna ukuhamba ngokukhawuleza. Mna, ndonwabela ukukhanya kwelanga kunye nomoya opholileyo kunye nokuzonwabisa kwam, khange, kodwa ndiziva ndinyanzelekile ukuba ndiqhubeke, ndizamile ukukhawulezisa isantya. Imilenze yam ayinakujika nje ngokukhawuleza; iinyawo zam zazitshona entlabathini, zenza inyathelo ngalinye libe ngumngeni, kwaye andizange ndikwazi ukufumana umzimba wam ukuba wenze into endiyifunayo. I-monologue yam yangaphakathi yavela "Jonga la maza amnandi! Ukubaleka elwandle yeyona nto ibalaseleyo!" ukuba "Uyanya! Kutheni ungahlali nomntu ongaphantse abaleke?" (Ekugqibeleni, ndamqinisekisa ukuba aqhubeke ngaphandle kwam ukuze ndikwazi ukuhamba ngesantya sam, kwaye intsasa yaphinda yamnandi.)

Ngamaxesha athile ndiye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndikhawuleze, ukwakha i-sprints kunye nokukhawulezisa ukusebenza kwindlela yam yokwenza umthambo (fumana indlela yokucheba uMzuzu kwiXesha lakho leMayile!), Kodwa loo misebenzi ayindonelisi ngendlela eyakhiwe ngayo, kwaye ndiphela nditsiba uninzi lwazo. Ke ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndingathanda ukuba nomkhwa wokuzilolonga endiwuthandayo kunokusika imizuzwana kwisantya sam se-10K. Kwaye ukungakhathali malunga nexesha kunokukhulula! Ndihlala ndikhuphisana kakhulu (ndicela umngeni nje kumdlalo weScrabble kwaye uya kufumanisa ukuba ndithetha ukuthini), kwaye ndiye ndafumanisa ukuba kunokwanelisa ukusebenza nzima entweni ngenxa yokusebenza nzima-kwaye. kuba kumnandi.

Ngenxa yokubaleka ngu ulonwabo. Kwakhona yindlela yokucoca ingqondo yam, ukutshisa amandla omzimba, nokulala kakuhle. Inika ithuba lokuchitha ixesha elininzi kwindalo kunye nokuphonononga iindawo ezintsha. Ivumela i-ayisikrimu eyongezelelweyo ekutyeni kwam. Kwaye yeyona ndlela ndiyithandayo yokuleqa ngokufanelekileyo igama elithi "imbaleki ephezulu"-intlanganisela enamandla yokubila kunye ne-endorphins olungekho olunye uhlobo lokuzilolonga olwakha lwaziswa kum ngalo lonke ixesha. Xa ndicinga ngazo zonke izinto ezibalekayo endizinikayo, eyona nto ibonakalayo yeyam, ubukhulu becala, ifana necherry yentsingiselo ephezulu-entle kodwa engeyomfuneko.

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