I-Bulimia yathatha iminyaka elishumi kubomi bam-Sukuyenza impazamo yam

Umxholo

• Ngenisa i-bulimia
• Ngaphandle kolawulo lobunzima
• Iminyaka elishumi, ihambile
• Ukuthatha: Musa ukwenza impazamo
• Funa uncedo

Imbali yam eneengxaki zokutya yaqala xa ndandineminyaka eli-12 kuphela ubudala. Bendihlala ndimncinci kunabo ndifunda nabo - mfutshane, ndibhityile, kwaye ndimncinci. Kwinqanaba lesixhenxe, nangona kunjalo, ndaqala ukukhula. Ndandifumana ii-intshi kunye neepawundi kuwo wonke umzimba wam omtsha. Kwaye andinalo ixesha elilula lokujongana nolu tshintsho ngelixa ndinxibe isiketi esifutshane phambi kwesikolo siphela kwiindibano zepep.

Ingxaki yam yaqala ngokuthintela ukutya ukutya. Ndizama ukutsiba isidlo sakusasa kwaye ndingafane nditye isidlo sasemini. Isisu sam sasiqengqeleka sigungqe imini yonke. Ndikhumbula ndineentloni ukuba igumbi lokufundela belithule ngokwaneleyo ukuba abanye beve ingxolo. Ngokuqinisekileyo, ndiza kubuyela ekhaya emva kwemini emva kokuziqhelanisa ne-cheerleading. Ndandizinkcinkca kuyo nantoni na endinokuyifumana. Iicookies, iilekese, iichips kunye nazo zonke ezinye iintlobo zokutya okungenamsoco.

Ngenisa i-bulimia

Ezi ziqendu zokubetha zafumana ngaphezulu nangaphezulu kolawulo. Ndaqhubeka ndisitya kancinane emini ndize nditye kakhulu kunangokuhlwa. Kwadlula iminyaka eliqela, nendlela endanditya ngayo yayisiba mbi. Andizange ndicinge nokulahla de ndibone imovie yeLifetime malunga nentombazana eyayine-bulimia. Inkqubo yabonakala ilula kakhulu. Ndingatya nantoni na endiyifunayo nangona ndingathanda kangakanani, emva koko ndilahle ngokugungxula indlu yangasese.

Ukuqala kwam ukucoca xa ndandikwibanga le-10th emva kokutya isiqingatha setya ye-ice cream yetshokholethi. Ayothusi loo nto, kuba uninzi lwee-bulimia ziqala kwabasetyhini abakwiminyaka yeshumi elivisayo ukuya kwiminyaka yama-20. Kwakungekho nzima nokwenza. Emva kokuba ndilahlile iikhalori ezonayo, ndaziva ndilula. Andithethi nje ukuba ngokwendlela ebonakalayo yelizwi, nokuba.

Uyabona, i-bulimia yaba luhlobo lwendlela yokujongana nam. Kugqityiwe ukungabi kokutya kangako njengoko kwenziwe ngolawulo. Ndijongene noxinzelelo oluninzi kamva kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo. Ndandiqalisile ukhenketho kwiikholeji, ndandithatha iiSAT, kwaye ndinomfana endandiqhatha naye. Kwakukho izinto ezininzi ebomini bam endandingakwazi nje ukuzilawula. Ndizinkcinkca ngotywala kwaye ndikhawuleze ndisitye ukutya okuninzi. Emva koko ndiza kufumana ukukhawuleza okukhulu, okungcono emva kokulahla konke.

Ngaphandle kolawulo lobunzima

Akukho mntu wayebonakala eyiphawula i-bulimia yam. Okanye ukuba benze, khange bathethe nto. Ngaxa lithile kunyaka wam wokugqibela kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo, ndehla ndaya kufikelela kwiipawundi ezili-102 kuphela kwisakhelo esiphantse sibe yi-5'7. Ngexesha lokufika kwam ekholejini, bendibetha kwaye ndicoca yonke imihla. Kwakukho utshintsho oluninzi oluza kunye nokushiya ikhaya, ukuthatha iikhosi zekholeji, kunye nokujongana nobomi ikakhulu ndedwa okokuqala.

Ngamanye amaxesha bendigqiba umjikelo wokuzinkcinkca ngotywala izihlandlo ezininzi ngemini. Ndikhumbula ndihamba ndisiya kwisiXeko saseNew York kunye nabahlobo bam kwaye ndikhangela indawo yangasese emva kokutya kakhulu ipitsa. Ndikhumbula ndisegumbini lam lokulala emva kokutya ibhokisi yeicookies kwaye ndilinde amantombazana aphantsi kweholo ukuba ayeke ukuhamba kwigumbi lokuhlambela ukuze ndikwazi ukucoca. Kwafika kwinqanaba apho ndingazukutya kakhulu, nokuba. Ndandiye ndicoce emva kokutya ukutya okuqhelekileyo kunye nokutya okulula.

Ndiza kuhamba ngamaxesha amnandi kunye namaxesha amabi. Ngamanye amaxesha iiveki okanye iinyanga ezininzi zazidlula xa ndingakhange ndicoce kwaphela. Kwaye ayakubakho ngamanye amaxesha - ngesiqhelo xa bendongeze uxinzelelo, njengaxa wokugqibela - xa i-bulimia ibizokukhulisa intloko yayo embi. Ndikhumbula ukucoca emva kwesidlo sakusasa ngaphambi kokuphumelela kwam kwikholeji. Ndikhumbula ukuba nexesha elibi kakhulu lokucoca ngelixa ndikhangela umsebenzi wam wokuqala wobungcali.

Kwakhona, yayihlala ingolawulo. Ukujamelana. Andikwazi ukulawula yonke into ebomini bam, kodwa ndiyakwazi ukulawula le nto.

Iminyaka elishumi, ihambile

Ngelixa iziphumo zexesha elide ze-bulimia zingaziwa ngokupheleleyo, iingxaki zinokubandakanya nantoni na ukusuka ekuphelisweni kwamanzi emzimbeni kunye namaxesha angaqhelekanga ukuya kuxinzelelo kunye nokubola kwamazinyo. Unokuphuhlisa imiba yentliziyo, njengentliziyo engaqhelekanga okanye ukusilela kwentliziyo. Ndikhumbula ukuba mnyama ndimi rhoqo ngamaxesha am amabi ebulimia. Xa sijonga ngasemva, kubonakala kuyingozi kakhulu. Ngelo xesha, andikwazanga ukuzibamba nangona ndandisoyika ngento eyenzayo emzimbeni wam.

Ekugqibeleni ndazithemba kumyeni wam ngoku malunga nemicimbi yam yokutya. Undikhuthazile ukuba ndithethe nogqirha, into ebendiyenza nje ngokufutshane. Indlela yam eya ekubuyiseleni yayinde kuba ndizamile ukuyenza ngokwam. Yaphela ngamanyathelo amabini ukuya phambili, inyathelo elinye ukubuyela umva.

Yayiyinkqubo ecothayo kum, kodwa ukugqibela kwam ukucoca xa ndandineminyaka engama-25. Ewe. Yiminyaka eli-10 yobomi bam ngokoqobo phantsi komsele. Iziqendu bezingafane zenzeke ngelo xesha, kwaye bendifunde izakhono zokundinceda ndijongane ngcono noxinzelelo. Umzekelo, ngoku ndibaleka rhoqo. Ndifumanisa ukuba iyandinyusa kwaye indinceda ndisebenze ngezinto ezindikhathazayo. Ndenza neyoga, kwaye ndinothando lokupheka ukutya okusempilweni.

Into yile, iingxaki ze-bulimia zihamba ngaphaya komzimba. Andikwazi ukubuya ishumi leminyaka okanye ke ndichithe kwimingxunya ye-bulimia. Ngeli xesha, iingcinga zam zazidlile ngokubheja nokucoca. Amaxesha amaninzi abalulekileyo ebomini bam, njenge-prom yam, usuku lwam lokuqala ekholejini, kunye nomhla wam womtshato, zingcoliswe ziinkumbulo zokucoca.

Ukuthatha: Musa ukwenza impazamo

Ukuba ujongene nengxaki yokutya, ndiyakukhuthaza ukuba ufune uncedo. Akuyomfuneko ukuba ulinde. Ungayenza namhlanje. Ungazivumeli ukuba uhlale nengxaki yokutya kwenye iveki, inyanga, okanye unyaka. Ukuphazamiseka kwindlela yokutya njenge-bulimia kuhlala kungaphelelanga nje ekunciphiseni umzimba. Ikwajikeleza kwimiba yolawulo okanye iingcinga ezingalunganga, ezinjengokungaziphathi kakuhle. Ukufunda iindlela zokulwa impilo esempilweni kunokunceda.

Inyathelo lokuqala kukuvuma ngokwakho ukuba unengxaki kwaye ufuna ukwaphula umjikelo. Ukusuka apho, umhlobo othembekileyo okanye ugqirha unokukunceda ukuba uhambe ngendlela yakho ukuze uchache. Akululanga. Ungaziva uneentloni. Unokuqiniseka ukuba ungayenza ngokwakho. Hlala womelele kwaye ufune uncedo. Sukuyenza impazamo yam kwaye ugcwalise incwadi yakho yenkumbulo ngezikhumbuzo zesifo sakho sokutya endaweni yamaxesha abaluleke ngokwenene ebomini bakho.

Funa uncedo

Nazi ezinye izixhobo zokufumana uncedo ngengxaki yokutya:

• Umbutho weSizwe weengxaki zokutya
• Isikolo sokuphazamiseka kukutya