Indlela Isigulo esiNqabileyo esabutshintsha ngayo uBudlelwane bam noFitness-kunye noMzimba wam

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Ukuba wandibona ngo-2003, ngewawucinge ukuba ndinayo yonke into. Ndandimncinci, ndifanelekile, kwaye ndiphila iphupha lam njengomqeqeshi ofunwa kakhulu, umhlohli wokomelela, kunye nemodeli. (Inyani emnandi: Ndaye ndasebenza njengemodeli yokomelela Imilo.) Kodwa kwakukho icala elimnyama kubomi bam obufezekileyo: I ithiyiwe umzimba wam. Ingaphandle lam elilunge ngakumbi ligubungele ukunganqabiseki okunzulu, kwaye bendiya kuba noxinzelelo kwaye nditshaye ukutya ngaphambi kwayo yonke imifanekiso. Ndandiwuthanda umsebenzi wokoqobo, kodwa ndathi ndakubona imifanekiso, ekuphela kwento endayibonayo yayiziintsilelo zam. Andizange ndizive ndifanelekile ngokwaneleyo, ndikrazulwe ngokwaneleyo, okanye ndibhityile ngokwaneleyo. Ndasebenzisa umthambo ukuzohlwaya, ndityhala ngokuzilolonga nangona ndiziva ndigula okanye ndidiniwe. Ke ngelixa ngaphandle kwam kwakubonakala kumangalisa, ngaphakathi ndandingumntu oshushu.

Ndiye ndavukwa serious.

Ndineentlungu zesisu kunye nokudinwa iinyanga, kodwa kwada kwaba ngumyeni womthengi, i-oncologist, wasibona isisu sam (bekujongeka ngathi ndinebhobhothi yesithathu!) Ndaye ndabona ukuba ndisengxakini enkulu. Undixelele ukuba ndifuna ukubona ugqirha kwangoko. Emva kokubulawa kovavanyo kunye neengcali, ndade ndayifumana impendulo yam: Ndandinoluhlobo olunqabileyo lwethumba lepancreatic. Yayinkulu kakhulu kwaye ikhula ngokukhawuleza kangangokuba, ekuqaleni, oogqirha bam babecinga ukuba andizukuyenza. Ezi ndaba zandibeka emsileni. Ndandinomsindo kum, umzimba wam, iphela. Ndenze yonke into kakuhle! Ndiwuphathe kakuhle umzimba wam! Inokunditshona njani ngoluhlobo?

NgoDisemba waloo nyaka, ndenziwa utyando. Oogqirha basuse i-80 pesenti ye-pancreas yam kunye ne-spleen kunye nesisu sam. Emva koko, ndashiyeka ndinenxeba elikhulu elimile okwe-"Mercedes-Benz" kwaye ndingenamyalelo okanye uncedo ngaphandle kokuxelelwa ukuba ndingaphakamisi ngaphezu kweeponti ezilishumi. Ndasuka ekubeni ndilunge kakhulu ukuya ekubeni ndingaphili kwisithuba nje seenyanga.

Okumangalisayo kukuba, endaweni yokuziva ndidimazekile kwaye ndidandathekile, ndaziva ndicocekile kwaye ndicacile okokuqala kwiminyaka. Kwakungathi ithumba lalivale konke ukungazithembi kwam kunye nokuzithemba kwam, kwaye ugqirha wotyando wayisikile yonke loo nto emzimbeni wam kunye nezicubu ezigulayo.

Kwiintsuku ezimbalwa emva kokuhlinzwa, ngelixa ndilele e-ICU, ndabhala kwijenali yam, "Ndicinga ukuba le nto abantu bathetha ngayo ngokufumana ithuba lesibini. Ndingomnye wabanethamsanqa ... ukuba nawo wonke umsindo wam, ukukhungatheka, uloyiko, neentlungu, zisuswe ngokwasemzimbeni emzimbeni wam. Ndiziva ndicocekile ngokweemvakalelo. Ndinombulelo ongazenzisiyo ngeli thuba lokuqalisa ukuphila ubomi bam ngokwenene. Andikwazi ukucacisa ukuba kutheni ndinengqondo ecacileyo yokuzazi, kodwa andikaze ndiqiniseke ngayo nantoni na ebomini bam. Ndandingumntu omtsha mna. [Eyeleleneyo: Utyando Olutshintshe Umfanekiso Womzimba Wam Ngonaphakade]

Ukusukela ngaloo mini ukuya phambili, ndawubona umzimba wam ngendlela entsha ngokupheleleyo. Nangona ukuchacha kwam yayingunyaka weentlungu ezingathethekiyo-kwakuba buhlungu nokwenza izinto ezincinci njengokuma nkqo okanye ukuchola isitya-ndenze inqaku lokuwuxabisa umzimba wam ngayo yonke into onokuyenza. Kwaye ekugqibeleni, ngomonde kunye nokusebenza nzima, umzimba wam unokwenza konke onokukwenza ngaphambi kotyando kunye nezinto ezintsha. Oogqirha bandixelele ukuba andizukuphinda ndigijime. Kodwa ayipheleli nje ekubalekeni, ndiyasefa, ndenza i-yoga, kwaye ndikhuphisane kumdyarho weebhayisekile zeentaba iveki yonke!

Utshintsho lomzimba lwaluchukumisa, kodwa utshintsho lokwenene lwenzeka ngaphakathi. Kwiinyanga ezintandathu emva kotyando, ukuzithemba kwam okutsha kwandinika isibindi sokuqhawula umtshato nomyeni wam kwaye ndibushiye obu buhlobo bunetyhefu. Indincede ndayeka ubuhlobo obungalunganga ndaza ndanikela ingqalelo kwabo bantu bandizisela ukukhanya nokundihleka. Kundincedile emsebenzini wam, indinika uluvo olunzulu ngovelwano novelwano kwabanye abasokolayo yimpilo yabo. Ngethuba lokuqala, ndandiqonda kakuhle ukuba abathengi bam bavela phi, kwaye ndandisazi ukuba ndibatyhale njani kwaye ndingabavumeli basebenzise iingxaki zabo zempilo njengesizathu. Kwaye yatshintsha ngokupheleleyo ubudlelwane bam nomthambo. Ngaphambi kokuba ndenziwe utyando, ndandibona ukwenza umthambo njengesohlwayo okanye isixhobo nje sokubumba umzimba wam. Kule mihla, ndiyeke umzimba wam undixelele ukuba yintoni yiyo ufuna kunye neemfuno. I-Yoga kum ngoku imalunga nokugxilwa kwaye ayixhumeki, hayi malunga nokwenza iiChaturangas ezimbini okanye ukutyhala eyona ndawo inzima. Ukuzilolonga kwatshintsha ekubeni ndizive ngathi yinto yam wayenayo ukwenza, kwinto endiyiyo funa ukwenza kwaye wonwabe ngokwenene.

Kwaye eso siva sikhulu bendinexhala? Ndinxiba iibhikini yonke imihla. Usenokuzibuza ukuba umntu owayeqhele ukwenza imodeli ujongana njani “nokungafezeki” okunje, kodwa imele zonke iindlela endikhule ndatshintsha ngazo. Ukunyaniseka, andisaziboni isiva sam. Kodwa xa ndiyijonga, indikhumbuza ukuba lo ngumzimba wam, kwaye nguwo kuphela endinawo. Ndiza kuyithanda nje. Ndingumntu osindileyo kwaye inxeba lam yibheji yam yokuhlonipha.

Oku akuyonyani nje kum. Sonke sineziva zethu-ezibonakalayo okanye ezingabonakaliyo-kumadabi esiye sawalwa saza sawaphumelela. Musa ukuba neentloni ngemivumbo yakho; zibone njengobungqina bamandla namava akho. Wukhathalele kwaye uwuhloniphe umzimba wakho: Bilo rhoqo, dlala ngokuzimisela, kwaye uphile ubomi obuthandayo-kuba ufumana kuphela.

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