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Ukuphila ngokunganyangekiyo bubunewunewu obunqabileyo kum, ngakumbi ngoku ndikwinqanaba lesi-4. Ke, xa ndinako, yile nto kanye endifuna ukuba yiyo.

Andazi nokuba ndingayenza na le nto, ”ndagxadazelisa iinyembezi. I-IV yatsala isandla sam xa ndibambe i-iPhone yam endlebeni yam kwaye ndimamele umhlobo wam azame ukuhamba ngovalo kwaye andithobe.

Amaphepha atyikityiwe kwaye iwotshi yayikhathaza.

Ikhethini yomqhaphu ebitsaliwe ibhedi yam yangaphambi kokuphamba ayibonisanga kukhuseleko lwesandi, ndiye ndakuva abongikazi bethetha bodwa ngam, bekhathazekile kuba ndibambe usuku lwabo.

Okukhona ndilele apho ndilila, ixesha elide i-OR ihlala ingenanto, kwaye kokukhona kulibaziseka lonke utyando emva kwam. Kodwa andikwazi tu ukuzola.

Ndakhe ndenziwa olu tyando ngaphambili, kwaye le yayiyinxalenye yengxaki. Ndichithe unyaka ophelileyo ndisebenzisa unyango olunzima lwenqanaba lesithathu lomhlaza wamabele, ndandisele ndinyamezele isifo se-mastectomy, ngenxa yoko ndandinolwazi oluncinci ngendlela ekunzima ngayo olu tyando kunye nokuchacha.

Ngoku ndandingenawo umhlaza (ngokokwazi kwethu), kodwa ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndifuna ukuthintela isifuba sam esempilweni ukunciphisa amathuba am okuba ndifumane umhlaza webele wokuqala kwakhona, ngaloo ndlela ndicutha amathuba am okuphindaphinda isihogo lunyango.

Ke ngoku bendilungile, ndilungele kwaye ndilungiselelwe i-mastectomy yam yesibini.

Ayizange ibe “sisifuba” nje. Ndandineminyaka engama-25 ubudala. Bendingafuni ukulahlekelwa yimvakalelo, ukuguga ndilibale ukuba umzimba wam wendalo wawunjani.

Ngelixa ndandisele ndibulawa ngumzimba, ugqirha wam wotyando naye wayecebe ukugqiba ukwakha kwakhona icala lam lomhlaza. Ndisenayo i-tissue expander yam ngaphakathi, eyayihlala phantsi kwemisipha yam ye-pectoral kwaye yayolule kancinci isikhumba sam kunye nesihlunu, ekugqibeleni ndenza indawo enkulu ngokwaneleyo yokufakwa kwe-silicone.

Ndandinomdla wokususa ikhonkrithi-efana ne-expander eyayihleli phezulu kakhulu esifubeni sam. Ewe kunjalo, kuba bendikhetha iprophylactic mastectomy ngokunjalo, kuya kufuneka ndiphinde inkqubo yolwandiso kwelo cala.

Ekugqibeleni, nangona kunjalo, ndiza kuligqiba lonke eli tyala ngezixhobo ezimbini zokufakelwa kwesilicone ezingenazo iiseli zomntu eziza kudibana zibe lithumba.

Okwangoku, ubusuku obungaphambi kwesi sibini se-mastectomy kunye ne-tissue expander / ukufakelwa kucinyiwe, khange ndilale tuu - {textend} ndiye ndajonga iwotshi, ndicinga Ndinayo kuphela4 iiyure ezongezelelekileyo kunye nebele lam elisempilweni. Iiyure ezingama-3 ngaphezulu nesifuba sam.

Ngoku yayilixesha lokuhamba, kwaye njengokuba iinyembezi zazisihla ezidleleni zam, ndasokola ukubamba umphefumlo wam. Into enzulu ezantsi yayikhwaza hayi.

Khange ndiqonde ukuba ndigqibe njani apho, ndilila, ndingakwazi ukuvumela abongikazi ukuba bandiqhubise nge-OR emva kokuchitha unyaka ndenza uphando kwaye ndikhangela umphefumlo kwaye ndithetha ngesigqibo nabathandekayo bam.

Ndikholelwe ngokwenyani ukuba ndiseluxolweni ngokuba ne-mastectomy yesibini- {textend} ukuba le yeyona nto ilungileyo, yile nto wayefuna.

Ngaba bendingenamandla ngokwaneleyo okuba ndiphume nayo xa ndityhalelwa?

Ndabona ukuba ukwenza izigqibo ezifanelekileyo akusoloko kusenziwa ngokugqibelela ephepheni, kumalunga nokufumanisa ukuba ndingaphila nantoni na, kuba ndim ndedwa ekufuneka alale avuke yonke imihla ephila neziphumo zoko isigqibo.

Kwiphepha, iprophylactic mastectomy yenza ingqiqo epheleleyo.

Inganciphisa - {textend} kodwa ingaphelisi - {textend} umngcipheko wam wokukhula komhlaza wamabele, wokuqala. Ndiza kujonga ulingano macala, kunokuba ndibeneNdalo enye kunye nenye eyakhiwe ngokutsha.

Nangona kunjalo, umhlaza omtsha wokuqala awuzange ube yingozi enkulu kum.

Kuya kuba kubi ukuphinda ndibuyele kunyango kwakhona ukuba ndinokuba nomhlaza omtsha, kodwa kuya kuba yingxaki ngakumbi ukuba umhlaza wam wokuqala uphindaphindiwe kwaye uhlehlisiwe, okanye usasazeke ngaphaya kwamabele am. Oko kungasongela ubomi bam, kwaye iprophylactic mastectomy ayinakwenza nto ukunciphisa amathuba okwenzeka.

Kwaye ukubuyiswa kwe-mastectomy kunzima kwaye kubuhlungu, kwaye nokuba umntu undixelele ntoni, ibele lam liyinxalenye yam. Ayizange ibe “sisifuba” nje.

Ndandineminyaka engama-25 ubudala. Bendingafuni ukulahlekelwa yimvakalelo, ukuguga ndilibale ukuba umzimba wam wendalo wawunjani.

Besele ndilahlekile kakhulu kulo lonke unyango - {textend} umhlaza wawusele uthathe kakhulu kum. Bendingafuni ukulahlekelwa ngaphezulu ukuba bekungekho mfuneko.

Ndakhubazeka kukudideka nokungazithembi.

Ekugqibeleni ndeva ukukrwela kwentsimbi kwisinyithi njengokuba kuvuleka ikhethini kwaye ugqirha wam wotyando - {textend} umfazi oshushu, onobubele kunye nentombi ekuminyaka yam - {textend} wangena.

Wabhengeza, "Ndithethile nodokotela wakho ogqirha, kwaye asiziva sikhululekile ukwenza iprophylactic mastectomy namhlanje. Unyango lwakho lunokuchaphazeleka ukuba uya kutyando olukhulu kangaka, oku kuyacaphukisa. Siza kukunika imizuzu embalwa ukuba wehlise umoya, emva koko siqhubeke siye endaweni yokuhlanjululwa kwezicwili zakho ngokufakelwa - {textend} kodwa asizukuyenza imastectomy. Ugodukile ngokuhlwanje. ”

Ndatsho ndakhululeka. Kwakungathi ngala mazwi, ugqirha wam otyandayo waphosa ibhakethi lamanzi abandayo emva kokuba ndibhajwe emlilweni, amadangatye enyuka umzimba wam. Ndiyakwazi ukuphefumla kwakhona.

Kwiintsuku ezilandelayo, ukuqiniseka kwahlala emathunjini am ukuba ndenze isigqibo esifanelekileyo. Ewe, oogqirha bam bebenze isigqibo esifanelekileyo kum.

Ndabona ukuba ukwenza izigqibo ezifanelekileyo akusoloko kusenziwa ngokugqibelela ephepheni, kumalunga nokufumanisa ukuba ndingaphila nantoni na, kuba ndim ndedwa ekufuneka alale avuke yonke imihla ephila neziphumo zoko isigqibo.

Imalunga nokuhluza kuyo yonke ingxolo yangaphandle ndide ndiphinde ndive intlebendwane ethe cwaka yento esiyibiza ngokuba yi-intuition - {textend} ela lizwi lilumkileyo liyaziyo eyona nto ilungileyo kum, kodwa liyarhaxwa luloyiko kunye nentlungu.

Kunyaka we-chemo kunye nemitha kunye notyando kunye nokuqeshwa okungapheliyo, ndaye ndaphelelwa kukufikelela kwi-intuition yam.

Ndidinga ixesha kude nehlabathi lezonyango ukuze ndiyifumane kwakhona. Ixesha lokufumanisa ukuba ndingubani ngaphandle kwesigulana somhlaza.

Ke ndigqibile inqanaba lam lesithathu senqanaba ngesifuba esinye esakhiwe ngokutsha kunye nendalo enye. Ndenze konke okusemandleni am ukwakha ubomi bam kwakhona. Ndaphinda ndaqala ukuthandana, ndadibana ndatshata nomyeni wam, kwaye ngenye imini ndaye ndabona ukuba ukungazenzi yayiyinto yokwenza.

Ngokuyeka ukwenza isigqibo, ndandisenzile isigqibo.

Bendingafuni iprophylactic mastectomy. Njengoko kwavela, nokuba i-intuition yam yayazi ukuba kuza ntoni na okanye hayi, ndaye ndagqibela malunga neminyaka emibini kamva.

Ekuyekiseni i-mastectomy yesibini, bendizinike phantse iminyaka emibini ukuba ndinyuke ngamatye nabahlobo kwaye nditsibe emilanjeni kunye nomyeni wam ngoku. Bendingazokwazi ukwenza ezo nkumbulo ukuba bendichithe ixesha lam phakathi kwenqanaba 3 kunye nonyango lwenqanaba 4 lokuya kutyando oluninzi.

Ezi zigqibo zizodwa, kwaye ngekhe ndivume ukuba ndiyazi eyona ilungele omnye umntu.

Kwelinye ibhinqa elikwimeko efanayo, iprophylactic mastectomy isenokuba yinto ebaluleke kakhulu ekuvuseleleni kwengqondo. Kum, ukutshintsha inkolelo yokuba 'kufuneka ndibenolingano, ukufanisa amabele ukuze ndibe mhle' ngokuzithemba ukuba amanxeba am ayathandeka kuba amele ukomelela, ukomelela kunye nokusinda kwandinceda ndaya phambili.

Ukubuyiselwa kwam kwakuxhomekeke ngakumbi ekufundeni ukuhlala nomngcipheko kunye nokungaziwa (umsebenzi oqhubekayo) kunokuba umzimba wam wangemva komhlaza wawunjani. Kwaye ngaxa lithile ndiye ndabona ukuba ukuba ndiphuhlisa iprayimari entsha, ndiza kuyifumana.

Ngokwenyani, ndingavuma nje ngalo naluphi na utyando, inkqubo, kunye nonyango ukuze ndiphile.

Kodwa xa ubomi bam bungekho emngciphekweni - {textend} xa ndinethuba lokuba enye into ngaphandle kwesigulana - {textend} Ndifuna ukumbamba. Ukuphila ngokunganyangekiyo bubunewunewu obunqabileyo kum, ngakumbi ngoku ndikwinqanaba 4.

Ke, xa ndinako, yile nto kanye endifuna ukuba yiyo.

Ayilungiswanga.

Uchongwe ngenqanaba 3 lomhlaza webele kwi-25 kunye nenqanaba 4 umhlaza webele we-metastatic kwi-29, uRebecca Hall uye waba ngummeli onomdla kuluntu lomhlaza webele, ekwabelana ngebali lakhe kunye nokubiza inkqubela phambili kuphando kunye nokwandisa ulwazi. URebecca uyaqhubeka nokwabelana ngamava akhe ngebhlog yakhe yeCancer, Ungayifumana. Ukubhalwa kwakhe kupapashiwe Glamour, Umlilo wasendle, kwaye The Underbelly. Ube sisithethi esidumileyo kwimicimbi emithathu yoncwadi kwaye wenza udliwanondlebe kwiipodcast ezininzi kunye neenkqubo zikanomathotholo. Ukubhalwa kwakhe kuye kwahlengahlengiswa kwifilimu emfutshane, engenanto. Ukongeza, uRebecca ubonelela ngeeklasi zasimahla zeyoga kwabasetyhini abachaphazelekayo ngumhlaza. Uhlala eSanta Cruz, eCalifornia kunye nomyeni wakhe kunye nenja.